Trying too stick too the same rooutine i had befoore it all happened. Soometimes get lucky enoough too slip intoo soome soort oof trance. As if i’ll just blink and find myself back hoome oon Alternia. I see their troolltags in the coorner oof the screen when i’m woorking. Maybe it’s the play oof light an unrelated nootificatioon oor just plain gooood oold self-deceptioon but every noow and then it seems too me that i catch a glimpse oof a little “oonline” indicatoor lighting up right befoore i glance at the interface too be met with disappoointment oonce again. Doon’t knoow why i doo this. But cloosing the app means finally admitting too myself that things will never be the way they used too be. And i doon't think i'm brave enoough too doo it
i don'T think you need to close it and act like you'RE admitting that. i used to be the same way. i still am sometimes. whenever it happens and i feel disappointed they'RE not online, sometimes i just try and think of something nice. a good memory i had with them. when i see their trolltag that ends up being the first thing i think of. it still hurts, and i don'T think it ever won'T. but it hurts just a little less.
I guess. If it's inescapable it woouldn't hurt too try