ππππ ππππππ’ πππππππ ππ:@discardedpasts i Already Dusted It Off I Can't Get It Off My Mind home Late Again. work Always Runs Later Than You Expect, He Never Gives You A Solid Time For When You'll Be Back So Truly It's Not Your Fault At Least You Like Telling Yourself That Don't You? either Way Your Place Is Mostly Empty, It's Quiet And You Personally Just Want To Pass Out Now That You're Home Now That The Day Is Over Your Job Concluded Until He Calls Again. You Do A Good Job To Keep This Life Of Yours Together, As You Change To Get Into Bed Throwing On Something Softer, Less Scratchy Against Your Skin You Finally Notice The Empty Bed. right, She Doesn't Like It When You're Late. as Much As You Would Love To Pass Out Then And There, You Haven't Been Able To Sleep Without Her By Your Side In Ages. so, In Your Freshly Changed Nightwear You Head Out To The Balcony, View Over Everything Is Rather Beautiful Exactly Why You Had Your Home Put Here. The Stars Twinkle, The Wind Blows As The Sea Can Be Heard Crashing Up Against The Rocky Coast. instead Of Sitting In A Seat Her Legs Hang Out Between The Banisters, Smoke Leaving The Mouth Of Your Beloved As You Sighed Gently. given, You Weren't Much Better With Alcohol But You Kicked That A While Ago, Sober For About Four Months Currently. you Finally Work Up The Courage, Sit Yourself Directly Next To Her Legs Dangling Down From The Banister Without A Word. she Takes A Drag From The Joint, The Smell Used To Repulse You But At This Point It's Something You Associate With Her ... You Honestly Don't Mind It Now. her Fanged Mouth Opens, She Speaks Clearly Though Despite The Substance Running Through Her. " Our Anniversary Is Coming Up You Know. " " Are You Planning On Flaking On That As Well? " ow, That Hurts. your Dates Have Been Interrupted Numerous Times By Your Work, As Much As You Hate It Things Ensure Her Safety. she's Not Immortal Like You, You'll Out Live Her And You Know That. but You Want Her To Last As Long As Possible, Like A Piece Of Hard Candy Slowly Aging Away You Want To Savor Those Moments You Always Have. that Offer Of Safety For Her Was The Only Reason You Took This Position, The Only Reason For Your Loyalty. " ... Sorry Naya, " your Voice Is Strained, You're Tired But She Has A Right To Be Upset, Ditching Her Right In The Middle Of Brunch. No Explanation Until An Few Hours Later Through Scattered Messages. " I Truthfully Didn't Mean To Leave Like I Did, I Pro-" she Cuts You Off, Not Harsh Or Abrupt But Gently... A Soft Rebuttal To Your Statement. " You Promise All The Time, Yet How Many Of Those Hold Up? " " You've Been Busier Than Ever As Of Late And Seemingly More Miserable Each Day, Yet You Continue Slaving Away. " your Quiet, You Take A Breath A Few Seconds Pass Before You're Ready To Respond. " I Do This Because I Have To Dear, I Know It Seems Rather Stupid But I Don't Think I Could Live Without The Reassurance It Provides Me." you Take A Deep Breath, Your Close To Chocking On Your Own Words. " If It Makes Things Any Better, Nothing Will Stop Me From Missing Our Anniversary. " she Doesn't Look Entirely Like She's Believing In Another Puff Of That Familiar Smoke Her Free Hand Adjusts To Sit On The Floor Between The Two Of You, Her Engraved Silver Ring Shines Under Moonlight. you Take The Chance To Take Her Hand, She Doesn't Refuse Your Hands Embrace, In Fact It Squeezes Tightly With No Sign Of Letting Go. " You're Rather Terrible At Holding Yourself To Words Like That You Know? " she Speaks Jabbing Lightly With Her Words, They Cut You Like Daggers As Always. " Ha, Well If It Makes Things Any Better I'll Ditch Any Distractions, You'll Have Me For All Day And Night... We Can Celebrate With Something Nice For The Both Of Us . I Have Things Planned And I Swear That I Wouldn't Miss Them For The World. " she Sighed Turning, She Looks So Tired... More Than You Probably. " But Would You Miss It For Something Bigger Than The World? The Universe? Something Even Bigger. " you Truthfully Would, But The Words Are Struggling, Your Tired, She's Tired, So You Finally Ditch Words You Lean In Her Tired Face In Your Free Hand She Practically Melts Into It Your Love Being Held So Dearly, Like A Freshly Picked Rose. your Lips Kiss The Troll Gently, Her Fangs Brush Against Your Lips As She Resiprocates You Melt Into Her And She To You. you Never Did Make It To Your Anniversary Did You? all That Reassurance For Nothing. and You Fucked Things Up Right Before You Left. couldn't Have Done Things Worse If You Tried. #substance regretting My Decision... But No Use Dwelling On It Is There? πΌπππππ’ πππ β β β β β β β β β β β β β