@discardedPasts β #yearning
ππππ ππππππ’ πππππππ ππ: A Lost Soul silence Screamed Louder Than Any Battlefield As I Lay Beside Her. skin Against Metal. it Felt Truer Than Any Pailing, better Than All The Fleeting Highs I Mistook For Love. the Feeling Lingered. distance Couldn't Kill It. then Came War. conscription. mud, Blood, Survival. i Survived By Sheer Luck. life Resumed Its Imitation Of Normal. then She Died. except She Didn't. even Grief Turned Out To Be A Lie. so Now I'm Here, suspended Somewhere Between Before And After. alone, Perhaps. or Only Feeling That Way. i Can't Te...Read more
ππππ ππππππ’ πππππππ ππ: A Lost Soul. the Sound Of Silence Was Deafening As I Lay Beside Her. skin Against Metal. somehow, It Felt Better Than Every Night I'd Spent Chasing Dopamine In Pailing With Other People. this Felt Real. and The Feeling Stayed. even With The Distance Between Us, I Still Wanted Her. then Came The War. conscription. i Barely Made It Through. it Was Hell. when I Returned, Things Almost Felt Normal Again. almost. then She Died. or So I Thought. the Death Was Fake. and Now? i'm Still Here. alone. or Maybe I Just Feel Alone. i Don't K...Read more
You Know In A Way I'm A Lot Like The Flower I'm Named After, It Wasn't Intentional I Chose The Name Of A Young Age But Perhaps I Was Predicting Something. Roses Are Such A Fickle Flower, Sharp Along Their Stems Hurting Those Who Don't Know How To Handle Them Properly. They Need Light To Grow And Thrive, They Need Water And Attention In Order To Grow Properly. They Need So So Much And In Exchange They Can Truly Thrive. But I Am So Far Gone From That Now. The Sunlight I Once Had Had Was Much More Pale Than The Original Sun But I Liked It That Way. Her Pale Light Glow Illuminated Me We Both G...Read more