IM PUTTING MY WARNINGS HERE: #RANT #PISSEDOFF #YOURENOTBETTERTHANANYONEASSHOLE #PHILOSOPHICALBULLSHIT NORMALLY I’D KEEP THIS CHIT SMALL FOR THE BEINGS WHO DON’T HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN TO READ ANYTHING LONGER THAN THREE FUCKING SENTENCES, BUT I’M FEELING WORDY LIKE MY ANCESTOR TODAY, SO DEAL WITH IT. IN ALL MY EXISTENCE, I’VE HAD MANY, MANY BEINGS FIND WAYS TO IRRITATE ME. ANNOY THE CRAP OUT OF ME. MAKE ME WANT TO SCREAM INTO A PILLOW OR THROW SOMETHING THROUGH A WALL. SOME OF THEM I’VE ENDED UP BECOMING CLOSE TO. SOME HAVE LEFT MY LIFE. OTHERS WE’RE NOT GOING TO GET INTO BECAUSE THAT’S EITHER PRIVATE, OR I JUST DON’T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE. BUT I’VE RECENTLY FOUND THAT VERY FEW THINGS GET MY BLOOD BOILING FASTER THAN THE FUCKWADS WHO THINK THEY’RE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE. MAYBE THAT’S MY ANCESTOR’S STUPID RHETORIC SEEPING INTO MY THOUGHTS THROUGH HIS JOURNAL. OR MAYBE I’M FINALLY SEEING IT FROM A PLACE WHERE I’VE HAD ENOUGH PEACE AND DISTANCE TO ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT IT. EITHER WAY, IT’S FUCKING STUPID. I THINK WHATEVER IT IS THAT DEFINES YOU SHOULD BE TESTED ON A FEW DIFFERENT LEVELS, IF IT NEEDS TO BE TESTED AT ALL. ARE YOU A FUCKING ASSHOLE, OR DO YOU CARE TOO MUCH? ARE YOU SMART ENOUGH TO KEEP A TON OF BEINGS FROM GETTING KILLED, OR WOULD YOU SACRIFICE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE JUST TO MAKE SURE YOU’RE THE ONE STANDING ON TOP? DO YOU ACTUALLY KNOW WHEN TO PUT YOUR PRIDE ASIDE? CAN YOU ADMIT WHEN YOU’RE WRONG? CAN YOU LOOK AT SOMEONE WHO HAS LESS THAN YOU AND STILL SEE THEM AS AN EQUAL? BECAUSE WHEN YOU REALLY GET DOWN TO IT, NONE OF THIS SHIT SHOULD MATTER AS MUCH AS WE PRETEND IT DOES. THE COLOR OF YOUR BLOOD DOESN’T MAKE YOU BETTER. THE COLOR OF YOUR SKIN DOESN’T MAKE YOU BETTER. HOW MUCH POWER YOU HAVE DOESN’T MAKE YOU BETTER. HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE DOESN’T MAKE YOU BETTER. AND HAVING SOME ANCESTRAL LEGACY TO HIDE BEHIND SURE AS FUCK DOESN’T MAKE YOU BETTER. WHEN YOU REALLY GET DOWN TO THE SCIENCE OF IT, WE’RE ALL JUST MAJORLY STUPID EXISTENCES THAT SOMEONE ELSE MADE IN THE FIRST PLACE, APPARENTLY HOPING WE’D CONTINUE SOME KIND OF LEGACY WE DIDN’T EVEN KNOW EXISTED. AND SOMEHOW, DESPITE KNOWING HOW FUCKING FRAGILE ALL OF THIS IS, WE STILL FIND WAYS TO DECIDE THAT ONE OF US IS MORE WORTHY THAN ANOTHER. THAT’S THE PART I DON’T FUCKING UNDERSTAND. MAYBE THE THING THAT DEFINES YOU SHOULDN’T BE WHAT YOU WERE BORN WITH. MAYBE IT SHOULD BE WHAT YOU DO WITH WHAT YOU WERE GIVEN. HOW YOU TREAT THE BEINGS AROUND YOU. WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU HAVE POWER OVER SOMEONE WHO CAN’T STOP YOU. WHETHER YOU CHOOSE TO HELP OR HURT. WHETHER YOU LEARN FROM THE FUCKING MISTAKES THAT CAME BEFORE YOU OR DECIDE YOU’RE TOO IMPORTANT TO MAKE ANY OF THEM. I DON’T KNOW. MAYBE I’M JUST RAMBLING. AGAIN. BUT IF MY ANCESTOR’S JOURNAL HAS TAUGHT ME ANYTHING, IT’S THAT BEING IMPORTANT DOESN’T AUTOMATICALLY MEAN YOU’RE RIGHT. AND BEING BETTER THAN SOMEONE ELSE WAS NEVER THE POINT IN THE FIRST PLACE.