Kankri Vantas

1 week ago

@grievanceCrusader[GC]

Hell9, Chittr. #Salutati9ns #9fDisapp9intment N9w, 6ef9re I 6egin, I w9uld like t9 clarify that I am n9t interested in pr9ducing a crude little geneal9gical chart t9 shake at 9ne an9ther in an eff9rt t9 res9lve 6l99dline hygiene. This is g9ing t9 9perate fr9m a s9cial and p9wer-6ased standp9int. That's right, we are g9ing t9 6e talking a69ut a h9t 6utt9n t9pic. Incest. #Incest #IncestMenti9n #Geneal9gyMenti9n #PleaseRead6ef9reReacting #NSFWE #Inc9ming That is n9t my c9ncern, geneal9gically speaking. 9r rather, it is n9t 9n the same axis that my current c9ncern currently rests. I understand that in parad9x space, dream 6u66les, scratch-adjacent c9ntinuities, ect96i9l9gical l99p6acks, ancest9r-descednant recursi9ns, alternate selves, re699ted selves, "technically n9t the same pers9n" splinters, "6ut we never shared a hive" arguments, and whatever fresh little legal ficti9n 9ne 9f y9u will invent 6y sunrise, the actual family-tree questi9n can 6ec9me s9 tangled that attempting t9 s9lve it with 9rdinary m9ral v9ca6ulary is like c9m6ing a 6all 9f wire with y9ur digits. #Parad9xSpace #Ancest9rDescendantMenti9n #AlternateSelfMenti9n #6all9fWireMenti9n What 69thers me, and I d9 mean 69thers me in the sense that I have 6een trying t9 scr9ll past it with dignity and failing m9re 9ften than I w9uld like t9 admit, is the extent t9 which pe9ple 9n this we6site seem increasingly c9mf9rta6le taking relati9nships already 6urdened 6y age, reverence, resem6lance, dependency, myth9l9gical auth9rity, hist9rical pr9jecti9n, ancest9r w9rship, timeline trauma, 9r the h9rri6le little intimacy 9f “y9u are me, 6ut damaged differently,” and then treating the entire mess as th9ugh it has 6ec9me accepta6le 6ecause every9ne inv9lved can put a clever tag 9n it. #P9werDynamics #ReverenceMenti9n #TimelineTrauma #TaggingIsN9tA6s9luti9n There is a difference 6etween "technically permissi6le under the m9st exhausted p9ssi6le reading 9f c9ntinuity" and "n9t 96vi9usly p9is9ned 6y s9cial f9rces." #C9ntinuityMenti9n #Permissi6ilityMenti9n #P9is9nMenti9n #P9is9nedDynamics And n9, I am n9t saying adults cann9t make ch9ices. I am n9t saying desire must 6e filed f9r pu6lic appr9val in triplicate 6ef9re any9ne is permitted t9 feel it. I am n9t even saying that every strange, recursive, cr9ss-timeline attachment is aut9matically a6usive, 6ecause I am aware that reality has 6ec9me much less tidy than any 9f us w9uld prefer. A num6er 9f y9u are here t9 d9 y9ur 6est t9 assem6le pers9nh99d 9ut 9f recycled mem9ries, dead selves, sym69lic parents, technical descendants, and s9 f9rth. #AdultsMenti9n #DesireMenti9n #C9ntinuityC9mplicati9ns I am saying that when y9ur attracti9n depends 9n s9me9ne l99king like y9u, 6eing descended fr9m y9u, 6eing y9ur predecess9r, 6eing y9ur y9unger ech9, 6eing y9ur 9lder ech9, 6eing the pers9n wh9 was turned int9 a st9ry 6ef9re y9u ever met them, 9r 6eing the pers9n y9u can finally reach 6ecause the universe has 6ec9me t99 6r9ken t9 keep its categ9ries shut, perhaps the first resp9nse sh9uld n9t 6e “h9t.” #Attracti9nMenti9n #Ech9Menti9n #PleasePause Perhaps the first resp9nse sh9uld 6e a l9ng, quiet, deeply unpleasant pers9nal invent9ry. #Pers9nalInvent9ry #PleaseTake9ne F9r example, I w9uld 6e pr9f9undly unc9mf9rta6le if P9rrim l99ked at me that way. #P9rrimMenti9n #ExampleMenti9n #69undaryMenti9n N9t 6ecause I 6elieve P9rrim is incapa6le 9f desire, 96vi9usly. She has made a fairly c9mprehensive pu6lic case t9 the c9ntrary 9ver the span 9f several eternities. #P9rrimMenti9n #DesireMenti9n #PleaseD9N9tTellHerISaidThat The c9ncern is the disc9mf9rt that c9mes ar9und with the structure ar9und it. The familiarity, the caretaking p9sture, the way she has kn9wn me, c9rrected me, fussed 9ver me, dismissed me, teased me, named me, and attempted t9 manage me m9re as a wiggler than a peer. Had she taken me 9ut int9 the near6y hallway, and put a misplaced mitt up9n my jaw, and delicately enf9rced I stare her in the eyes whilst she c9nfessed flushed 9r caligin9us feelings, I w9uld 6e m9re than just "gr9ssed 9ut." I w9uld feel as th9ugh a wh9le archive 9f 9rdinary interacti9ns had 6een retr9actively dipped in n9nc9nsensual disc9mf9rt. #CaretakingMenti9n #Retr9activeDisc9mf9rt #C9nsentMenti9n #N9tA69utGenetics That is the part many 9f y9u seem determined t9 skip. #SkippingTheP9int Y9u keep asking whether the 6ranch c9nnects t9 the 6ranch. I am asking wh9 has 6een h9lding the ladder. #FamilyTreeMenti9n #LadderMenti9n A descendant admiring an ancest9r is n9t neutral. A player dating their alternate self is n9t neutral. A resurrected adult pursuing the versi9n 9f s9me9ne wh9 still treats them like a myth is n9t neutral. A pers9n taking advantage 9f the fact that parad9x has made the v9ca6ulary difficult is n9t clever. It is, at 6est, suspici9usly c9nvenient. #Admirati9nMenti9n #AlternateSelfMenti9n #Myth9l9gizingMenti9n #Suspici9usC9nvenience I kn9w s9me9ne is g9ing t9 say this is rich c9ming fr9m a tr9ll s9ciety with quadrants, ancest9rs, ect96i9l9gy, slurry l9gistics, and a relati9nship t9 repr9ducti9n which makes human family m9rality l99k like a small dec9rative fence ar9und a sinkh9le. Thank y9u. I am aware. That is precisely why I am n9t arguing fr9m the p9siti9n 9f “ew, shared genes,” which is a phrase s9 intellectually imp9verished it sh9uld 6e given a 6lanket and a pamphlet. #HumanM9ralityMenti9n #Tr9llS9ciety #SharedGenesMenti9n #PamphletMenti9n I am arguing fr9m the p9siti9n that intimacy 6ec9mes danger9us when 9ne party is carrying t99 much sym69lic weight f9r the 9ther t9 set d9wn. #IntimacyMenti9n #Sym69licWeight If s9me9ne sees y9u as an ancest9r, a miracle, a rescue, a pr9phecy, a sec9nd chance, a 6etter versi9n 9f themself, a w9rse versi9n 9f themself, 9r the 9nly pers9n wh9 c9uld p9ssi6ly understand them, then perhaps every9ne inv9lved sh9uld st9p flirting f9r l9ng en9ugh t9 ask whether this is affecti9n, hunger, w9rship, revenge, l9neliness, self-harm with prettier lighting, 9r just an9ther instance 9f Chittr c9nfusing intensity with meaning. #W9rshipMenti9n #L9nelinessMenti9n #IntensityMenti9n #PleaseReflect And 6ef9re any9ne accuses me 9f 6eing judgmental, yes. 96vi9usly. Judgment is s9metimes the appr9priate resp9nse t9 watching a pu6lic feed sl9wly fill with pe9ple making eyes at their ancest9rs, descendants, mirr9r selves, sym69lic si6lings, and “n9t technically related if y9u read the side6ar” excepti9ns. #JudgmentMenti9n #Side6arMenti9n #TechnicallyN9tRelated I am n9t asking f9r a purge. I am n9t asking f9r harassment. I am n9t asking any9ne t9 chase any9ne else int9 the sea with a 6r99m, th9ugh apparently that is n9w s9mething I must specify whenever I criticize pu6lic 6ehavi9r. #N9Harassment #N96r99m #CriticismIsN9tAPurge I am asking f9r a pause. A real 9ne. Sit with the disc9mf9rt y9u are feeling 6ef9re dressing it up as a 6it, a kink, a ship, a d99med r9mance, a quadrant, an excepti9n f9r y9ur m9rals, a l99ph9le, 9r a j9ke. Please. #PauseMenti9n #TimelineL99ph9le #QuadrantExcepti9n #C9ncernMenti9n Y9u and y9ur damages have 6een arranged depl9ra6ly int9 the shape 9f affecti9n. #C9ntr9versial #Damages #Depl9ra6le