THe downside of haaving been shown aaffection is thaat I now kknow to miss it when I aam not getting aany. I reaally do need to get aa weighted blaankket, preferaably severaal #yeaarning
:> ? I do not underst^nd the problem. Nothing wrong with getting used to nice things. Sure, something could h^ppen, it could bre^k or wh^tever, but it's still ^ nice thing to h^ve for however long it l^sts. And you c^n get ^nother one, they're not r^re or ^nything. <:
I suppose you aare right. IT merely feels wrong, to aallow myself nice things, but I suppose... WHo caan stop me?
AA heaavy stretch of faabric you maay draape over yourself. IT feels grounding aand caalming
:> It's not inherently wrong. Or right. It's ^n entirely neutr^l ^ct. Doing something nice for yourself is just ^nother choice to m^ke. Person^lly, I s^y it's ^ pr^ctic^l one if it e^ses existence ^ little. There is no prize for suffering, or for depriving yourself of comfort. <:
I do reaalise thaat. I will get over my repulsion aand try it out, I thinkk. MY clinginess is stronger thaan me