i just Can't. Can't stop thinkin' about it. about her. it's... i think it's my fault. i invited her to stay with me a little while baCk. i offered her to live as lon6 as she needed or wanted with me. that she weren't a 6uest, she lived here. she smiled. she Cried. let her experienCe Comforts she hadn't had in sweeps if at all. held eaCh other. i was 6onna proteCt her. 6ive her the world she bri6htened so muCh. somethin6 she'd earned. but apparently it wasn't up to me or her whether that worked out. so they took her away. and now she's 6one. world's darker than ever. i shouldn't have let her 6et Close to me. should've stayed away. at least then she'd be alive. at least then she wouldn't have 6one throu6h so muCh more bullshit. but i just had to be a hero. i just had to try 'n' help. instead i just Cursed her. killed her. mi6ht as well have thrown her into that lake myself. they'd have never taken her away if i just stayed away from her. she'd still be alive. 6loomweiss would still be smilin6.
the (ir(umstan(es that would have snat(hed her up would have done so regardless of what 7ou did or didn't do, i think. 7ou're not responsible for her suffering or disappearan(e. what 7ou are responsible for is those moments of (omfort and happiness.
I'm sorry, Curree. I did not know your friend, but she sounds like a wonderful soul. I would ask that you show yourself kindness in these dreadful times. I know it is hard, but... The world is brighter with you in it, too. Would you like me to bring you something? Just food, likely. You need not even greet me at the door.