Curree Erzhix
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Cowboy Courier who Cares just a little too much. Pansexual. Male. a certain scout <3
so uhhhh guess if you ever want to talk to me, dm me, 'Cus i reCkon i ain't gonna 6e postin' muCh anymore. pusher Can't take all this shit.
eugh, my tummy is real sensitive right now. guess i am feelin' siCk after all. good exCuse to rest in 6ed some more though...
((...Has anyone suggested an option to change the default feed Chittr opens on? Like it defaults to Everything right, but what if you could have it default to 'Following' or 'Friends' or what have you? Is this a thing already that I just haven't seen??))
// i don't think anyone's suggested that yet?
so uhhhh guess if you ever want to talk to me, dm me, 'Cus i reCkon i ain't gonna 6e postin' muCh anymore. pusher Can't take all this shit.
not really related to everythin' that's goin' on now.
y'might still see oCCasional replies and the odd post, 6ut otherwise yeah. u◡u
god y'know, one day ya sit down, look at the timeline, then realise that this whole time you've just 6een pissin' into a sea of piss. there is no good here.
yeppers.
it was literally tittytuesday yesterday.
there is one point of good here.
mental health is suCh 6ullshit like what d'you mean i have t'fight a 6ajillion internal 6attles over something most folks forget a6out instantly??
like 6uddy i wish i Could just Choke it down 6ut that shits gonna 6e on my mind for days if i'm luCky amd weeks if i ain't.
i'm alive. my head feels weird. my stomaCh feels empty. 6ein' on here just gives me a sense of dread. so anyway did someone die or what
Far too many have and will.
i still feel real 6ad in the head after eatin'. i think i'm gonna lie down and just... hold gloomy forever may6e. see ya when i see ya.
rest well, take time you need
Rest well and feel better, Curree.
haha i forgot to eat today so gloomy is praCtiCally just taking Care of me now.
Every problem has a solution. I am not always part of that solution. Can Chittr now please repeat those two phrases until they feel a little calmer?
gloomweiss Could get me through anything i think. related note, think i oughta find somethin' gold to wear.
aint she a sweetheart.
the sweetest.
my sCout.
now if you don't mind, i'm gonna go vomit in my 6athtu6 and try not to Cry over it. #emetopho6ia
anyway yeah sorry i posted somethin' that Came off with a fuCkin' horrendous vi6e. and m'sorry i Clearly ain't got the soCial know-how to realise how and when i fuCked up. m'sorry that i Can't say anythin' else here 6eCause i'm so god damn sCared i'll say somethin' else stupid that'll give everyone more reason to Come after me. at least i didn't say a slur a6out it, i guess.
not exaCtly a high 6ar 6ut y'know.
what.
nothin' t'worry a6out. just another episode of Curree self-sa6otagin'.
well that was a mentally exhaustin' experienCe for literally no fuCkin' reason. ain't as soCially aware as i thought i was, Clearly. this shit's hard.
oh right i forgot it's sCrutinise everythin' i say for hidden meanings and Covert -isms so that folks feel justified in not likin' me. my 6ad. won't make that mistake again.
also just while i'm thinkin' a6out it, Can you fuCk off? me postin' a6out 6ein' upset a6out a fuCk-up i didn't understand was a fuCk-up isn't somehow stoppin' yer pals gettin' resCued is it? how '6out you follow yer own damn adviCe and turn off the 'puter? asshole.
ᐖ I FINK U FELT ATTAᑈKEᐖ AN SHUT ᐖOWN WIFOUT AᑈTUALLY REAᐖING WIT WUZ BEING SAIᐖ 2 U ANᐖ ᐖAT WHY IT SPIRALING, BUᐖᐖY. NOBOᐖY ᑈALLEᐖ U A SEXIST. JUS SAIᐖ ᐖAT MESSAGE HAᐖ YUᑈKY UNᐖERTONES. U THOT ᐖEY WERE ᑈALLING YOU SOMEFING, NOT JUS UR MESSAGE, AN ᐖEᑈIᐖEᐖ ᐖEY WERE ENEMIES AN NOFING ᐖEY SAY VALIᐖ AT ALL. ᐖAT HOW WE GOT HERE ᐛ
Using my 'puter to help my friends, why don't you go take you extended vacay from the platform like you promised us you would last week?
Y☽o☾u can just say 'I'm s☽o☾rry, I didn't understand the subtext t☽o☾ what I said, I didn't mean it that way and I'll try t☽o☾ be m☽oo☾r aware g☽o☾ing f☽o☾rward.' ⋆˚࿔
💠~ Hey babes? This is like, sooooo not a good look for you. Literally all you had to do was go "my bad that you felt weird" or whatever. Gawd. ~💠
yeah that'd've 6een the smart thing to do, wouldn't it?
yep. i'm aware. thanks. you and everyone else is tellin' me that.
yeah. i guess. i mean i read it. i read it a few times over. and in hindsight i Can see where i made the leap in logiC from one thing to the other. at least someone here was aCtually willin' to try and walk me through this shit instead of just yellin' or parrotin' the same shit at me. happy to admit i fuCked up 6ut... i dunno. if i Can't see how i fuCked up, y'know? i dunno.
ᐖ YUH U STILL KINᐖA ᐖOINGK IT THO ᑈUZ NOBOᐖY HERE HAS YELLEᐖ AT U RLY AT ALL TEEBEEAYᑈH ᐛ
i dunno. Casper did. guess that doesn't matter now. i'm sure there's more t'piCk apart there. whatever man. i'm done. i'll just shut my god damn mouth.
i'm a prophet what Can i say
i Can't read that shit, that there tower spooks the shit outta me.
🃜🃚🃖🃁🂭🂺 Nothing wrong with taking a couple cards out from the deck. You're the dealer after all.
false alarm pasCal is fine and i'm Confident in florid's a6ility t'not die so everything's okay again. u◡u
c< Pas is OKay? tHaNK fucK.... >c
...wait like who would even kidnap pasCal though? she's literally just Chittr's mom. that's fuCked up.
...i think y'all might 6e overthinkin' this a little 6it. it's a vi6e, not an expeCtation. she's 6een involved in savin' more folks than i ever will. suggestin' there's a sexist undertone to it as well is just so far off the mark. C'mon.
i mean. there i$ though. unintentional, obviou$ly, but that doe$n't negate it
yeah i'm gonna have to go with 'no' on this one, pardner. if she was a feller, i'd have said Chittr's dad, to whiCh i'm almost Certain we would not 6e havin' this Conversation in partiCular if that were the Case. you're findin' a pro6lem where there just ain't one.
...y'know what? go fuCk yourself. i ain't done a damn thing wrong and i sure as hell ain't gonna let you sit here and 6ait me into thinkin' i did. fuCk off.
💠~ She's literally just sooooo nice, right? ~💠
sure is.
💠~ It's not like, who'd want to, anyway. It's more likeeee... how long you can keep her, this site like, adores her. ~💠
i don't know what this means so i'll just say yeah sure.
oh shut the fuck up.
...oh that's a lot of my pals goin' into that godforsaken game. like i need more t'worry a6out...
...wow, didn't realise i missed drama when i Complained a6out not 6eing a6le to sleep a few hours ago. jeez...
for the 6etter i guess. i'm awake now weeee