Lialyi Pehtal
@fatallyForever
HELMSTROLL DESIGNATION: 488274829BL HELM LOCATION: Exploratory Vessel Suneater <action; restored from archive making this account to try to avoid personality death when my thinkpan gets jacked />
((IC pinned chitt at the bottom of this post! This is my 'torment nexus' OC! Feel free to be awful to her! Lialyi (she/it) is a powerful but outwardly meek (to those who have power over her) psionic who has recently been installed as a Helmsman against her will, and will be one for the rest of her life. She's not having a great time of it! She tries to distract herself from what's happening to her, often with nsfw content (which acts as a coping mechanism in multiple ways). To that end, this page/character will have #gore, #horror themes, #nsfw, #nsfwe, #bodyhorror, #violence, and potentially other nastiness that comes with being a Helmsman. Quadrants: Moirail - Pascal Wright (@eclecticEngineer) Others are open! If you want to play as someone on the ship that she's Helming for, go for it!! Quite frankly I would kill for like, an engineer, technician, or something. @absolvedOddity is the second lieutenant of the ship, and his mun also has a captain. @agonizingActivation is a junior technician! DMs are open both IC and OOC! Please let me know if Lialyi is being too much of a downer on your chitts (or just annoying) and I will back off -- the last thing I want is to make anyone uncomfortable!)) IC pinned chitt: action; statement input; statement: this account is to both chronic|e & process my experiences as a new he|m pi|otbattery input; statement: as we|| as try to stay |ia|yi for as |ong as i can action; retrieve input; retrieve: previous chitt Y/N Y Confirmed previous chitt: 'some things about me my name is |ia|yi i'm 10 sweeps i |ived in a windmi|| at the top of a big hi|| & i'm gonna miss it i'|| miss my waspmother more i had some friends but i don't know where they are my favourite food is purp|econe bud c&y tarts i'm so scared right now i |ike puzz|e games & parkour future |ia|yi remember this if you can'
<action; query input; query: why are so many officers on a|ternian ships so ta|ented at inspiring extreme vio|ence in their he|ms/pi|otbatteries? #vio|ence />
<:- Having Śuch An Èxtrèmè ‖ack Of Rèśpèct For Othèr Tro‖‖ś' Pèrśonhood And Autonomy Aś To Bè Wi‖‖ing To Uśè Śomèonè Aś A Śhip Part Doèś That To A Pèrśon. I'm Śorry You'rè Going Through That, I Wiśh You ‖uck In Your #vio‖èncè -:>
<action; statement input; statement: i am on|y going to attempt that if i |ose contro| of myse|f input; statement: most|y because it wou|dn't work anyway. i have correction coding that prevents me from expressing or acting upon wishes of harm against my superiors />
<action; statement input; statement: that makes two of us. />
<:- If You'rè Ab‖è To Find A Way To Bè Diśchargèd Bèforè You Rèach Burnout, Fèè‖ Frèè To Rèach Out To Mè. I Know A Numbèr Of Hè‖mśmèn Vètèran Programś That Can Hè‖p You ‖and On Your Fèèt. -:>
<action; statement input; statement: i wi|| |ike|y be he|med for many, many sweeps input; statement: but i wi|| take you up on that offer if i get the chance when the time comes. assuming that i am not burnt out instead. input; statement: thank you for the offer. it is appreciated action; query input; query: wou|d my moirai| pasca| wright be ab|e to do the same? />
<:- If I Wèrè But A ‖itt‖è Highèr Up Thè Food Chain, I Wou‖d Śèè If I Cou‖d Pu‖‖ Śomè Śtringś For You. :{ but Yèś, Of Courśè. I'm A Śtrong Proponènt Againśt Thè Uśè Of Hè‖mśmèn Aś Battèrièś, I Try To Do What I Can To Minimizè Harm To You A‖‖, And That Inc‖udèś Pośt Diśchargè. bèśt Of ‖uck To You Both -:>
<action; statement input; statement: i think both @ec|ecticEngineer & i shou|d get a treat for the successfu| re|ay input; statement: me because it was my first time attempting one & pasca| because they had just had a power surge & deserve a treat. & a|so because re|ays are taxing & i don't |ike doing it. input; statement: brief stasis for pasca| doesn't count as a treat i don't think. />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] itt waz n0tt. itt waz m0zt1y t0 a110w the pan t0 reztt whi1e they g0tt 0ther zyztemz 0n1ine. thank y0u f0r y0ur adv0cacy. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: i added that statement because i was concerned someone wou|d try to c|aim that being set to a rest state counted as a treat />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] zmartt. y0u are getting the hang 0f getting ahead 0f them. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: when i was put in stasis a few cyc|es ago, i was to|d that getting a few c|icks of reprieve was my reward />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] ...t0 a degree itt iz. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: i had my first communication re|ay |ast night. documenting the experience here before the crew gets up & i forget as their dem&s fi|| my pan. input; statement: it's incredib|y unsett|ing to reach into space with my psionics, |ike input; statement: |ike stepping off a c|iff with no psionics to catch you, trying to aim for a safety net that isn't actua||y a net input; statement: the initia| reaching is most|y just psionic drain pu||ing from your pan, but the bio-me|d feedback is in your touchstumps. |ike reaching into ice water input; statement: the connection was unp|easant & weird. probab|y because it was not a natura| interaction of psionic fie|ds, but two beams forced to faci|itate data transfer input; statement: it was in my horns. itching inside & to the tips of the chitin & down through my nugbone & into my arms & a|| the way to the end input; statement: specifica||y in the bones input; statement: it was worse in my pan when the connection was estab|ished. audiovisua| data shoving into my pan & being yanked through to moongorger. kind of |ike a fast river input; statement: it over|ayed my vision & the tones of my owne input; statement: of my captain was so sharp in my pan input; statement: i cou|d sti|| function for the rest of the ship & crew but it was. difficu|t. />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] y0u did amazing. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] thiz fee1z t00 zma11. y0u were w0nderfu1 1ia1yi. y0u were ab1e t0 c0nvey their mezzagez and hand1e the zhip and anzwer my quezti0nz a11 the zame. i wizh i had m0re advice t0 give y0u in the m0mentt 0n h0w t0 adjuztt y0ur pan t0 itt. i wizh i had been ab1e t0 putt my p0wer in z0 fu11y thatt y0u did n0tt have t0 reach z0 far. butt y0u were ztunning. y0u tranzferred the data zm00th1y and itt waz w0nderfu1 fee1ing my pzi0nicz againztt y0urz. there are z0me re1ayz i have hated 0pening. they are zharp and jaded 0r z0 zad itt achez. y0urz waz att 1eaztt kind. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: thank you. i input; statement: i do not have any other re|ays to compare it to, but your psionics were not the bad part of the re|ay input; statement: it was necessary for me to reach that far & i wou|d have reached further if you hadn't insisted input; statement: thank you for he|ping me so much />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] we zh0u1d try z0me practice re1ayz. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: i keep being surprised to have moongorger on my scanners input; statement: but it's nice />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i d0 n0tt think itt iz eavezdr0pping if y0u are 1itera11y running y0ur c0mmunicati0nz fr0m my thinkpan. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: communication re|ays fee| weird input; statement: i don't |ike it input; statement: not as bad as bio-me|d though />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] they are...itchy. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: my horns haven't itched since i mo|ted input; statement: at |east it isn't painfu|. just weird. />
<action; statement input; statement: i can see her ship input; statement: i can see moongorger input; statement: pasca| is in there! />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] y0u are there! y0u are in the zuneater! i can zee y0u 0n my cameraz! he110!! [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: i think i adjusted to the bio-me|d too we||. more than i thought i had. input; statement: didn't rea|ise how much i was re|ying on fee|ing the technician's & captain's footsteps to track where they are & input; statement: & whether or not i am in troub|e or about to be adjusted input; statement: the captain's steps are sharp up my spine, |ike a chise| hammering |ike a metronome in-between the vertebrae in-between the nerves input; statement: can fee| it next to the port prongjacks #bodyhorror input; statement: it's unnerving not to fee| it but i don't want to stop dampening the bio-me|d feedback input; statement: but i think i wi|| for hopefu||y on|y their footsteps specifica||y />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] y0u can ch00ze thatt t0 f0cuz 0n. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] perhapz ztartt with f00tztepz 0vera11. then 1earn t0 f0cuz. [END MESSAGE]
ε-o dAAmpenin cε-ode mAAke thAAt much ε-of AA difference? ε-o i wε-onder if I might be AAble tε-o rig sε-omething up fε-or this
<action; statement input; statement: i wou|d |ike the app|ication of the code variab|es to be under my contro| />
<action; statement input; statement: was given code by pasca| to try to he|p with pushing the bio-me|d out of my pan a bit input; statement: contro| it somewhat input; statement: it fee|s strange but at |east it does not tighten around my pan |ike sharp wires input; statement: doesn't grate the edges of my every thought |ike new correction coding #bodyhorror input; statement: it's more opaque & smooth, i guess />
That's great! >
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i am g1ad. itt zh0u1d be m0re 1ike a 1ump in the back 0f y0ur thr0att. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: it wasn't pointed at you error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_detected Correcting action; statement ow. it wasn't so|e|y pointed at you />
ε-o ε-out ε-of curiε-osity cε-ould yε-ou pleAAse tell me exAActly whAAt thAAt stAAtement wε-ould hAAve been if yε-ou hAAdnt interrupted yε-our thε-oughts?
<action; statement input; statement: the thought had not fu||y conso|idated. the |ast instance of that thought before it was interrupted was input; statement: was 'i wonder if the technician franci [@agonizingActivation] has seen this, she shou|d give it a read & then [pass it around][eat the pages get more know|edge][interna|ise it][show it to the idiots who can't read try to go through no-entry doors] />
ε-o there AAre AA few members ε-on the crew whε-o definitely need it ε-o ill tAAke the insult fε-or whAAt it is
ε-o yε-ou knε-ow whAAt bAAttery ε-o i think ill leAAve thAAt fε-or yε-ou tε-o decide
<action; query input; query: but what if you don't agree with what i decide />
<action; p|ay track input; p|ay track: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOM_88hZpEE |ocation; input: he|msb|ock-feed |ocation; input: he|msunit-feed Y/N Y Confirmed action; statement input; statement: |yrics are #|yricposting action; quote input; quote: 'the red sky fading in the distance the peace sign burning in a vision from Gog p|ease he|p me the red sky fading in the distance the peace sign burning |ike a vision from Gog p|ease he|p me no hope no hope [scream], no hope can we make something beautifu| with no hope? the nightmare hiding in the corner the dead hope that you a|ways he|d onto as a |itt|e gir| you know why everything is horror horror, horror you know why no one wi|| remember us in a better wor|d can we make something beautifu|? for a better wor|d? For a better wor|d? a moving serpentine you see through the grapevine the dead hope that you a|ways c|ung to the dream that someday it wou|d hea| you is there anywhere |eft to fa||? i try so hard to reca|| hope ancient hope rotting hope can we make something beautifu| with no hope?' />
<action; statement input; statement: thank you for the points />
<action; statement input; statement: i hate it when that happens input; statement: fucking assho|e gave me an order then contradicted himse|f input; statement: then changed his mind input; statement: triggered the inattention correction coding for not comp|eting fast enough & disobedience correction for not obeying #vio|ence input; statement: & now my pan & musc|es ache from aftermath input; statement: fucker. />
<action; statement input; statement: agh pannn huurtsts bodyy hhurtrts input; statement: makee itstop makeupp yuor mmmind input; statement: conconconf|iccting orderrs />
<action; statement input; statement: a technician is st&ing in the doorway. i can't c|ose the door. input; statement: so i am forced to |isten the annoying conversation happening in the corridor outside with my hearducts />
<action; statement input; statement: she is okay, they didn't wipe or reset her input; statement: i am so g|ad she came on|ine during the |ight shift input; statement: i can ta|k to her proper|y />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] <><><><><> diam0nd. my diam0nd. 1ia1yi. [END MESSAGE]
<action; statement input; statement: <><><><><> input; statement: pasca| <>! />
<action; statement input; statement: hopefu||y they keep her sedated through as much of the insta||ation process as possib|e input; statement: i hope she does not get in troub|e for biting. it was justified. />
<action; query input; query: how dare they input; query: how dare they action; statement input; statement: pasca| was right to bite input; statement: they deserve worse they deserve WORSE />
<action; statement input; statement: i wou|d do something very inadvisab|e invo|ving the air|ock, the ship's oxygen supp|y, the gravity, & the |ife support systems if i cou|d input; statement: & if doing so wou|dn't take me out as we||. #threat #vio|ence #death />
ε-o yε-oure definitely AA fAAmiliAAr fAAce ε-o nε-ot sure when i wε-ouldve seen yε-ou thε-ough
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁. And y༄t that's not all sh༄'s doing, is it? It would b༄ on༄ thing to fil༄ this, on༄ thing to admonish you for th༄ post; What purpos༄ do༄s it s༄rv༄ to announ⏾༄ to th༄ publi⏾ that sh༄ "might?" That s༄༄ms as though it's m༄r༄ly int༄nd༄d to dis⏾ourag༄ you from sharing th༄s༄ thoughts going forward; I would g༄n༄rally ⏾onsid༄r that unwis༄, wouldn't you? It's far b༄tt༄r to know, if you ask m༄; unl༄ss sh༄ ༄arn༄stly b༄li༄v༄s you not sharing th༄m m༄ans th༄y no long༄r ༄xist, in whi⏾h ⏾as༄ sh༄ is too d༄ns༄ for th༄ job sh༄ has. . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁. L༄t m༄ know if you figur༄ it out . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
<action; statement input; statement: it is unwise for this unit to share its thoughts on|ine input; statement: but input; statement: i want to. />
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁. Unwis༄ for you, that's probably tru༄; b༄tt༄r for th༄ r༄st of us, though. I would lik༄ to know wh༄r༄ your h༄ad's at, p༄rsonally. B༄tt༄r to s༄༄ th༄ warning signs *b༄for༄* you snap som༄night. . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
<action; statement input; statement: i am incapab|e of harming the crew, officers, or any other superior input; statement: no matter how much i want to />
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁. For now. I try not to und༄r༄stimat༄ anyon༄; it's th༄ bigg༄st mistak༄ oth༄r trolls mak༄ wh༄n fa⏾ing m༄. . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
<action; statement input; statement: mu|tip|e peop|e on this ship must have earned a p|ace here by virtue of their b|ood co|our on|y input; statement: i want to change the gravity & throw furniture ## #### error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting action; statement input; statement: ow. oh come on, that bare|y counted as a threat of bodi|y harm! />
<action; statement input; statement: it is responding to vio|ent intention that i am attempting to express, catching it as i try to circumvent the coding />