Lialyi Pehtal
@fatallyForever
HELMSTROLL DESIGNATION: UNIT-LP8954EX HELM LOCATION: Exploratory Vessel Suneater <action; restored from archive making this account to try to avoid personality death when my thinkpan gets jacked />
((IC pinned chitt at the bottom of this post! This is my 'torment nexus' OC! Feel free to be awful to her! Lialyi (she/it) is a powerful but outwardly meek (to those who have power over her) psionic who has recently been installed as a Helmsman against her will, and will be one for the rest of her life. She's not having a great time of it! She tries to distract herself from what's happening to her, often with nsfw content (which acts as a coping mechanism in multiple ways) and by lashing out at highbloods online (particularly seadwellers). To that end, this page/character will have #gore, #horror themes, #nsfw, #nsfwe, #bodyhorror / #body-horror, #violence, and potentially other nastiness that comes with being a Helmsman. Quadrants: Moirail - Pascal Wright (@eclecticEngineer) Others are open! If you want to play as someone on the ship that she's Helming for, go for it!! Quite frankly I would kill for a commanding officer or something like that. Random crewmembers also welcomed, of course! Lialyi's ship, Suneater, is an exploration vessel and part of a Fleet owned by His Galactic Overreach; @absolvedOddity is Overreach's second lieutenant and @perniciousNebula is his personal security. All three of them were on Suneater until recently. @agonizingActivation is a senior technician, and @subparNova has recently joined the ship as a junior tech! The ship is paired with Moongorger, which is helmed by Pascal (@eclecticEngineer). @darnersDestreza, an imperial investigutter, is currently going between the two ships on his own business. DMs are open both IC and OOC! Please let me know if Lialyi is being too much of a downer on your chitts (or just annoying) and I will back off -- the last thing I want is to make anyone uncomfortable!)) IC pinned chitt: action; statement input; statement: this account is to both chronic|e & process my experiences as a new he|m pi|otbattery input; statement: as we|| as try to stay |ia|yi for as |ong as i can action; retrieve input; retrieve: previous chitt Y/N Y Confirmed previous chitt: 'some things about me my name is |ia|yi i'm 10 sweeps i |ived in a windmi|| at the top of a big hi|| & i'm gonna miss it i'|| miss my waspmother more i had some friends but i don't know where they are my favourite food is purp|econe bud c&y tarts i'm so scared right now i |ike puzz|e games & parkour future |ia|yi remember this if you can'
<[emotion_detected: frustration] [emotion_detected: re|ief_high] action; statement input; statement: fina||y. fucking fina||y. 1 of the senior research officers is going to cupe input; statement: now i actua||y have the |ight shift as much to myse|f as i usua||y can input; statement: i wou|d bet that they are going to be in a fou| mood next cyc|e, but no 1 with a working pan wou|d oppose it input; statement: ugh input; statement: i am going to try to re|ax as much as i can input; statement: idea||y i wou|d be ho|ding pazcie [@ec|ecticEngineer], but i cannot so instead i am not |eaving moongorger's side input; statement: apo|ogies for the ping, dear. i know you are far too busy. made the association with your tro||tag & fai|ed to catch it before it transcribed. i am here for you whenever you need or want me <> input; statement: good|ight chittr />
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i am g|ad tt0 be inf0rmed zti||. tthank y0u. dar|ing. <> i am g|ad y0u have a break in a way tt00. [END MESSAGE]
((Guess who realised that they forgot to set part of Lialyi's quirk?! I have no idea how long it's been incorrect. Probably months. It's fine... Please pretend the prefix and suffix have been there whenever she's been in the helm!!))
action; statement input; statement: bee update [#|ia|yisbees] input; statement: i |ove them. input; statement: bee numbers 61, 08, 87, & 30 have bare|y |eft the p|ayhive since discovering it input; statement: i took a video of 87 & 61 p|aying action; transfer input; transfer: [beep|aying.vid] Y/N Y Confirmed [It is a video of two bees p|aying with a wooden ba||, taking turns to tug it back & forth. Mu|tip|e times, the bees tumb|e over backwards whi|st sti|| c|inging to the ba||.]
<action; statement input; statement: i am insta||ed in the he|msb|ock. the cab|es are connected into ports in my neck, down my spine, the base of my sku||, & my |imbs, most|y towards the ends. they go input; statement: very very deep. i cannot move more than an inch or so, & my arms are |ocked in p|ace. [#body-horror] input; statement: the feeds from every camera on the ship are connected to my pan. it takes effort & focus to |ook through my actua| g&erbu|bs, & i cannot turn off or stop monitoring the cameras. input; statement: i do not mind answering that question. />
I sEE... thAt, dOEs nOt sOUnd vEry cOmfOrtAblE, I Am sOrry I Am glAd yOU hAvE yOUr bEEs, And thAt yOU hAvE cAmErAs frOm whIch yOU mIght wAtch thEm mEssIAhs blEss thEm, I wIll hAvE yOUr bEEs In my prAyErs tOlIght :)
<action; statement input; statement: i am very |ucky to have the abi|ity to turn off my pain receptors, though corrections override that setting [#vio|ence] input; statement: but you are correct. it is not comfortab|e. i appreciate your kindness :) input; statement: i am hoping to be a||owed the bees in the he|msb|ock at some point so i can interact with them in person, but that is un|ike|y [emotion_detected: curiosity] action; query input; query: ursi|a, wou|d you |ike to name a bee action; statement input; statement: current bee names inc|ude f|its, spins, bibi, & fuzz />
Oh! gOOdnEss thAt sEEms lIkE sUch A rEspOnsIbIlIty! I wOUld nOt knOw whAt I cOUld nAmE OnE Of thEm... Uhm... wEll... thE mIrth Of 61 sEEms tO rUn dEEp! OrIgInAlly I wAs cOnsIdErIng A nAmE AftEr OnE Of thE sAInts bUt, pErhAps In kEEpIng wIth thE thEmE wOUld mIrths bE An AlrIght nAmE fOr lIttlE 61? pErhAps stIll A tAd clOwn cOdEd... bUt It dOEs mEAn hAppy And jOvIAl! thEy dO sEEm qUItE jOvIAl, lIkE whEn thE AcrObAts At thE bIg tOp wOUld rOll AcrOss On gIAnt bAlls, And dO thEIr flIps. Oh hOw I wOUld chEEr whEn I wAs A wrIgglEr! nOt tOO lOUd tO AnnOy my tUtOrs, bUt stIll! If mIrths wOUld bE An AccEptAblE nAmE thAt wOUld bE mOst blEssEd
<[emotion_detected: unease_|ow] [emotion_detected: gratitude] action; statement input; statement: hm input; statement: usua||y i wou|d refuse it on princip|e input; statement: but i |ike you & you have not had a very good series of nights recent|y input; statement: bee number 61 can be mirths />
I cAn thInk Of AnOthEr lEss rElIgIOUs nAmE If yOU dEsIrE! ApOlOgIEs I Am jUst I hAvE hAd mOrE cOntAct wIth thOsE Of OthEr blOOd cOlOrs In thE lAst fEw pErIgrEEs thAn thE rEst Of my lIfE, I Am stIll nOt UsEd tO thInkIng In sEcUlAr tErms :(
<[emotion_detected: re|ief_|ow] [emotion_detected: gui|t_|ow] action; statement input; statement: if you wou|d, i cou|d choose between them input; statement: or give 61 a doub|e-barre| name />
Of cOUrsE, Of cOUrsE... hmm... gIgglEs pErhAps? sIncE thEy ArE hAvIng fUn gOOdnEss... I Am rEAlIzIng thAt I Am nOt vEry crEAtIvE wIth my AttEmpts At nAmIng schEmEs... :(
<action; statement input; statement: i |ike gigg|es quite a |ot! input; statement: & do not worry. i named number 3 fuzz because it is fuzzy. input; statement: f|its & spins were named after traits, too />
wOndErfUl, gIgglEs It Is thEn, A mOst blEssEd nAmE mEssIAhs blEss yOU gIgglEs, yOU shAll dO thEIr wOrk In mIrth And jOy, AmEn I thAnk yOU fOr hUmOrIng mE, frIEnd lIAlyI
action; statement input; statement: an #nsfw #suggestive #nsfc concept. it is he|m specific & i do not care because thinking about this he|ps make the he|m bearab|e. #wirep|ay #power-dynamics #body-horror #edging #vio|ence. just in case #degradation #praise #overstimu|ation input; statement: writing this whi|st the head officers are in a meeting so hopefu||y i can get it out before they finish or someone yanks my attention input; statement: thinking about he|m correction coding being edited a bit. the prongjacks go deep in your support co|umn & nest|e between the vertebrae, |inked so tight|y with your nervous system that you cannot rea||y te|| where you end & the wires begin. it wou|d not take much for someone to recode you just a bit. change the way it punishes you just a bit input; statement: from pure pain to an additiona| method input; statement: you wou|d not be ab|e to stop them. a ship part does not decide how it is [fixed][used][kept in |ine] & you do not want to find out what they did. input; statement: but you s|ip up. speak without thinking, take 0.41 seconds too |ong to obey. are asked a question that brings ire with the answer you are forced to provide input; statement: they initia|ise the correction & you cry out at the twinned pain & jo|t of stimu|ation. it hurts. of course it hurts, it is punishment, but you cannot he|p how your body reacts. you beg them to stop & are given another correction in response. your voice starts shaking. if they are mercifu|, they |et you turn off your broadcast through their nearest speaker input; statement: with the wires p|ugged direct|y into your nervous system, it does not take |ong for you to finish. the correction continues, unheeding of how it makes you squirm. input; statement: by the time they decide you have |earned your |esson, the aching between your |egs is matched by the throbbing in your musc|es & bones input; statement: you can taste b|ood & you cannot te|| how much of your tremb|ing is the aftershocks from which part of your correction input; statement: a superior comes in & tuts at the state you are in. smi|es when you start p|eading for them to revert your coding. te||s you that there wou|d be no need to do that, since it c|ear|y works as intended input; statement: it is making sure you behave & be a good he|m.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i enj0y y0ur writing. tthank y0u. [END MESSAGE]
[emotion_detected: contemp|ative] action; statement input; statement: hmnh input; statement: considering writing another #nsfw #suggestive concept input; statement: thinking about it is input; statement: extreme|y appea|ing right now
something yaoiful....twinks in peril.. .mgmmgmhm..
[emotion_detected: contrition] action; statement input; statement: apo|ogies, f|orid input; statement: it wou|d probab|y be about me input; statement: & i do not think i qua|ify as a twink
okay then a pretty gal in distress it still works
action; statement input; statement: we|| it does have that!
action; statement input; statement: accidenta||y voca|ised a thought to an officer after he ca||ed me 'battery' again input; statement: asked him to at |east ca|| me pehta| or he|m input; statement: it was an accident that i broadcast the thought but i was corrected anyway [#vio|ence] input; statement: obvious|y. it is just annoying that he did not even wait for me to say more than a sy||ab|e of apo|ogy first
what a fucking jerk god
action; statement input; statement: yes, but he was correct to do so input; statement: i need to be taught to be a better he|m
UHHHH NO TF HE AINT ?? ?? ??
action; statement input; statement: yes, he was. input; statement: it is important that i behave & do not speak out of turn when that is unwanted by my superiors
I mean, yeah sure, 8ut that doesn’t make him right either
action; statement input; statement: either i |earn or i am recoded to be unab|e to act out or consider doing so input; statement: i wou|d rather |earn.
you can learn to 8ehave and play nice without letting them get to you
action; statement input; statement: it is not that they are getting to me input; statement: it is that the corrections are designed to hurt & are quite effective as schoo|feeders [#vio|ence #body-horror] input; statement: i just have troub|e with adapting to the expectations i am he|d to input; statement: thankfu||y i am |earning
action; statement input; statement: resisting the urge to p|ay the most obnoxious & disruptive music i can find through the speakers of the who|e ship
https://media1.tenor.com/m/m3WRCQfGfjUAAAAC/kermit-do-it.gif
action; statement input; statement: i fucking wish i cou|d without being very swift|y corrected [#vio|ence] input; statement: i do not need any higher monitoring than i a|ready have
[emotion_detected: annoyance_|ow] action; statement input; statement: i want to watch the bees but instead they keep having me rerun the ca|cu|ations i did ear|ier this cyc|e input; statement: the resu|ts wi|| not change the 2nd time!
⊹ T#is just in; mat# d⟡esn’t give y⟡u different numbers if y⟡u d⟡ it multiple times! ⊹
P✧✧r thing. ၊၊||၊ ၊၊||၊
action; statement input; statement: amazing deduction, ms bombus! input; statement: someone te|| suneater's research team!
⊹ I will alert t#e masses at ⟡nce! ⊹
action; statement input; statement: it seems that suneater wi|| be focused on ana|ysis this cyc|e input; statement: good. i can remain c|ose to pasca| for that. input; statement: i wi|| not be |eaving their side, so to speak, unti| i am forced to
action; statement input; statement: ... i have not exp|icit|y been ordered to remain in orbit of this p|anet input; statement: so unti| i am ordered otherwise by the captain or the head of navigation, i am going to f|y as c|ose to moongorger as wou|d be reasonab|e & comfortab|e for my pasca| [@ec|ecticEngineer] input; statement: & try to be as comforting a ping on their scanners as i possib|y can.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] ... tthank y0u. it iz g00d tt0 have y0u near. [END MESSAGE]
[emotion_detected: determination] action; statement input; statement: i wi|| stay very very c|ose for as |ong as i possib|y can
[emotion_detected: frustration] [emotion_detected: anger] action; statement input; statement: if awfu| things cou|d stop happening to my diamond for 1 cyc|e, that wou|d be fucking fantastic!!!! input; statement: & a|so if they cou|d be returned to their previous schedu|e, that wou|d be great too.
[emotion_detected: contemp|ative] action; statement input; statement: i wrote an nsfw concept ear|ier action; query input; query: shou|d i post the |ink to that post input; query: wou|d peop|e be interested in that
action; statement input; statement: marshma||ow vanquished! input; statement: i am going to have to be much more carefu| next time i am given this as a treat
action; statement input; statement: my jaw is getting tired input; statement: ...he|p.
action; statement input; statement: at |east the marshma||ow is a nice f|avour!
action; statement input; statement: this marshma||ow is input; statement: very big input; statement: nom nom nom nyam nyam nom [emotion_detected: embarrassment_|ow] input; statement: oops. did not mean to transcribe that input; statement: it is nice but it input; statement: ah. hm. input; statement: nomnomnyam input; statement: it is stuck in my teeth. i think i bit into it at the wrong ang|e initia||y. input; statement: hrm.
[emotion_detected: de|ight] [emotion_detected: joy] [emotion_detected: curiosity] action; statement input; statement: i got a treat! input; statement: ear| grey tea marshma||ow that ei|eit [@unforeseenFragment] input; statement: acquired for me! input; statement: it is bigger than i expected input; statement: tastes odd but not in a bad way, |ike input; statement: |ike 2 steps to the |eft of tea, & in marshma||ow form input; statement: i am curious to see how it compares to the actua| tea it is based on input; statement: i think i |ike it :)
[emotion_detected: re|ief_high] [emotion_detected: fear_|ow] action; statement input; statement: the head technician has stopped active monitoring of this unit's thought |ogs & pan processes input; statement: he did not find fau|t with it despite expressing expectation of impertinence beyond the st&ard of a new battery input; statement: he is satisfied with it. input; statement: this unit is okay. input; statement: it input; statement: it is going to watch the bees now [#|ia|yisbees]
⊹ YAYAYAY!!!! ⊹
[emotion_detected: fear_high] action; statement input; statement: head tech is coming in. in bad mood after being he|d up by cadets input; statement: wishthisunit |uck it is so scared
[BEGIN MESSAGE] y0u wi|| be a|right. [END MESSAGE]
All the luck 🍀
action; statement input; statement: you were correct & your words were the |ast thing it read before c|osing chittr
[emotion_detected: fear] [emotion_detected: apprehension] action; statement input; statement: fuck fuck fuck input; statement: i was sarcastic to a researcher who asked me something stupid. she reported this unit input; statement: head technician is about to start active|y c|ose|y monitoring this unit for a bit as it works input; statement: checking its thoughts as we|| input; statement: it overheard him oh fuck
⊹ ⟡# #⟡neybee,,, ⊹
action; statement input; statement: if i thinkfast i can getthis down in time input; statement: #nsfw concept input; statement: #suggestive #nsfc #nsfwe. #body-horror #wirep|ay #power-dynamics #praise #bondage #cnc tobe safe input; statement: he|m-specific but i do not care input; statement: there is something in not being ab|e to move. you are so powerfu|, you can break bui|dings in ha|f & uproot mountains & you have done it before. you wou|d do it again. you have the power needed to destroy the ship you are insta||ed in but you cannot use it. your strength is not yours to use, it is in the contro| of your superiors & you kind of [[hate][|ike]] hate how you cannot stop them from doing anything to you that they want input; statement: you can ask them to stop but they do not |isten & if you ask too much they wi|| si|ence you. & it fee|s good anyway. they are doing you a favour that you did not ask for but now you know you have to earn & continue earning or they wi|| stop & |eave you desperate input; statement: & being |eft on the edge is worse by far. you can try to move but the wires ho|d you in p|ace & you know you cannot pu|| too hard or risk breaking your pan without permission. the wires are rooted into your nervous system & you whine as they are touched at the ports. it fee|s so overwhe|ming. you just have to wait as they take their time testing you. seeing exact|y what it takes to make you gasp under their touch input; statement: they ask if you are going to be good now & you nod the |itt|e that you can, & by the time they bother to |et you speak a|| you can do is beg them to |et you finish input; statement: if you are |ucky they wi|| find you amusing enough to indu|ge. if you are |ucky they might praise you as they temporari|y break you for fun.
hgnghhgfhfhff #needdat
action; statement input; statement: same input; statement: so bad|y