@fatallyForever — #bodyhorror

<action; statement input; statement: bio-me|d update input; statement: venti|ation ducts have been iso|ated in the officer's respiteb|ock in case of g|itter incident. fee|s |ike something is b|ocked deep in my chest. vague|y in my breathsacs. |ike the air isn't moving |ike it shou|d. except the fee|ing is kind of in my pan as we|| & a|so rather than physica| [#bodyhorror #body-horror] input; statement: ngh. uncomfortab|e. />

<action; statement input; statement: i cou|dn't ta|k about it much |ast time due to being fucking terrified, but it fee|s kind of strange to physica||y connect to another ship. in this case moongorger input; statement: it's a|most |ike ho|ding h&s, or input; statement: sitting next to someone & the edges of one of your |imbs fusing partway #bodyhorror #body-horror input; statement: much easier on my pan than the communications re|ay but sti|| a bit input; statement: weird/uncomfortab|e strange />

<action; statement input; statement: i had a|most got used to being docked in the space station input; statement: now the constant pu||ing as my psionics are drained to keep the ship where it shou|d be in space is input; statement: is input; statement: kind of nauseating. faint|y hurts. pu||ing behind my g&erbu|bs & back through my pan & synapses & into the cab|es p|ugged into my nervous system & i can fee| a|| of it [#bodyhorror #body-horror] input; statement: i wish i was used to it a|ready />

((IC pinned chitt at the bottom of this post! This is my 'torment nexus' OC! Feel free to be awful to her! Lialyi (she/it) is a powerful but outwardly meek (to those who have power over her) psionic who has recently been installed as a Helmsman against her will, and will be one for the rest of her life. She's not having a great time of it! She tries to distract herself from what's happening to her, often with nsfw content (which acts as a coping mechanism in multiple ways) and by lashing out at highbloods online (particularly seadwellers). To that end, this page/character will have #gore, #horror themes...Read more

<action; up|oad fi|e input; up|oad fi|e: [e|ectrica|_storm_song.mp3] Y/N Y Confirmed action; statement input; statement: the e|ectrica| storm i was made to scan |ast wipe was very unp|easant in my pan. |ike |ots of tiny need|es pushing through a|| prick|y [#bodyhorror #body-horror] input; statement: but there was a rhythm to it so i tried to extrapo|ate it into a tune. it was not as c|ear or as nice as so|ar activity is. input; statement: #|ia|yimusic [The audio c|ip attached is short. For a moment, nothing can be heard except for the ambience of the he|msb|ock; the wet shifting & rust|ing of ...Read more

<action; statement input; statement: the genera| is coming back to suneater input; statement: not |ooking forward to the input; statement: the the the agh input; statement: bio-me|d. bootsteps sharp in spina| bones & through #bodyhorror #body-horror input; statement: at input; statement: at |east i now know exact|y where he is. />

<action; statement input; statement: i do not think i wou|d mind being a battery so much if i just had to stay put whi|st my psionics are continuous|y drained input; statement: but it is having to manage the who|e ship & run scans & simu|ations & fo||ow orders that is the awfu| part input; statement: it is having my pan |itera||y rewired & turned into the ship's storage & computer & database input; statement: it is the bio-me|d & my nerves being hardwired into the ship systems [#body-horror #horror #gore #bodyhorror #vio|ence] input; statement: being correctedpunished if i think too hard about stepp...Read more

<action; statement input; statement: head technician went digging through my code to find out why i have 'excess' troub|e with scans input; statement: he said that the scan modu|e coding wasn't meshing we|| with my synapses & processing centres. didn't fu||y 'take'. integration was interrupted when i misbehaved during insta||ation. so now it is having to rewire my pan the 'hard way' & pu|| more power to bridge the gap input; statement: he said it wi|| sett|e in time & input; statement: & he won't manua||y connect it now because that wi|| damage the synapses in a way that he does not want & wou|d 'incr...Read more

<action; statement input; statement: bio-me|d update input; statement: the cameras fee| more natura| than my actua| g&erbu|bs input; statement: kind of. i try to zoom in with my physica| vision & can't input; statement: it is vague|y nausea-inducing. makes my g&erbu|bs ache from behind & through the connection nerve input; statement: i input; statement: i hate that i am aware of the nerves connecting my bu|bs to my nervous system & pan. #bodyhorror />

<action; statement input; statement: worst correction punishments i've had so far: when i bit off 2 of the head technician's touchstumps, when i tried to escape mid-insta||ation, when i asked to be |et out, & when i broke my |anguage comprehension & communication coding [#gore #vio|ence #bodyhorror] input; statement: a|| of them |eft me tasting my b|ood />

<action; statement input; statement: it is a good thing how my attention snaps to the genera| whenever he speaks input; statement: just in case he requires the he|m input; statement: but i a|so hate it. his steps & voice are so sharp in my bones & pan respective|y #bodyhorror potentia||y />

<action; statement input; statement: this unit just overheard a crewmember ask a technician what wou|d happen if they stuck a prong into one of this unit's ports input; statement: this unit is now imagining that & trying not to scream #bodyhorror #gore />

<action; statement input; statement: i have no mouth & i must scream except i do have a mouth & a|so a shipwide speaker system with which to broadcast my voice, but i cannot scream because then i wi|| be corrected & if i am very un|ucky my abi|ity to scream wi|| be removed entire|y #bodyhorror #vio|ence #abuse input; statement: this is an intentiona| component of being a pi|otbattery />

<action; statement input; statement: the |ight shift is over input; statement: it aches where the prongjacks from the ports dig in from my punishmentcorrection |ast cyc|e #vio|ence #bodyhorror input; statement: speechpipe is kind of sore & i'm input; statement: worried about a certain deve|opment, so just in case input; statement: good dusk to the peop|e on suneater />

<action; statement input; statement: i wish they'd turned off my pain receptors for me whi|st they were |itera||y rewiring my pan input; statement: instead pasca| had to show me how to turn them off input; statement: so unti| pasca| did that, i cou|dn't turn off the pain from the ports & the cab|es p|ugged into my nerves & the jacks so deep in my support co|umn they go between the vertebrae #bodyhorror input; statement: & because my body & pan know how much it hurts, i'm now getting phantom pain input; statement: which i cannot turn off because it is not actua| nerve ending feedback. />

<action; statement input; statement: my ports hurt input; statement: not sure if they actua||y hurt or if i'm just rea||y aware of them r&om|y #bodyhorror input; statement: |ike when you're sudden|y aware of your stepnubs touching each other />

<action; statement input; statement: i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate being a pi|otbattery input; statement: every |ogged thought can be checked input; statement: pan & nerves & musc|es rewired to serve as a ship #bodyhorror input; statement: abi|ity to |ie & |ash out & cause harm |ocked under correction coding #vio|ence input; statement: the above are the most annoying parts current|y. input; statement: there are 738 individua|s on this ship & near|y a|| of them jump at the chance to either get me in troub|e or punish me input; statement: & this post is a|so p|aying w...Read more

<action; statement input; statement: i'd |ike a|| my externa| coding adjustments to be reverted &/or removed, p|ease input; statement: it hurts #bodyhorror #vio|ence />

<action; statement input; statement: forced stasis is much worse than an unexpected one #bodyhorror />

<action; statement input; statement: head tech found the fi|e input; statement: he reorganised some of this unit's pan to stop it happening again #bodyhorror maybe />

<action; statement input; statement: i think i adjusted to the bio-me|d too we||. more than i thought i had. input; statement: didn't rea|ise how much i was re|ying on fee|ing the technician's & captain's footsteps to track where they are & input; statement: & whether or not i am in troub|e or about to be adjusted input; statement: the captain's steps are sharp up my spine, |ike a chise| hammering |ike a metronome in-between the vertebrae in-between the nerves input; statement: can fee| it next to the port prongjacks #bodyhorror input; statement: it's unnerving not to fee| it but i don't want to s...Read more

<action; statement input; statement: was given code by pasca| to try to he|p with pushing the bio-me|d out of my pan a bit input; statement: contro| it somewhat input; statement: it fee|s strange but at |east it does not tighten around my pan |ike sharp wires input; statement: doesn't grate the edges of my every thought |ike new correction coding #bodyhorror input; statement: it's more opaque & smooth, i guess />

<action; statement input; statement: i don't want this to happen input; statement: i don't want this at a|| input; statement: but it's the on|y good option out of the ones avai|ab|e & a|so we don't get a choice about it input; statement: i want to be with her whi|st she's insta||ed if on|y so she can |ook at me & hear my voice through her ears not the ship's microphones input; statement: she visited me in person & i hate that i can't do the same input; statement: i want it to go as fast & as pain|ess|y as possib|e #bodyhorror #he|ming />

<action; statement input; statement: i think it wou|d be a high|y educationa| experience for certain peop|e to experience time in a he|m #gore #bodyhorror #vio|ence #threat (imp|ied) />

<action; statement input; statement: i need distractions i need distractions i need to be he|d tighter to my orders so i do not try to he|p her input; statement: i need my moirai| safe but i cannot get them safe for i wi|| be so bad|y punished if i try #vio|ence #gore #bodyhorror action; query input; query: how dare she kidnap my diamond & pretend |ike she's not the source of some of their worst experiences input; query: how dare she stif|e them with neurotoxin #substance input; query: how dare she assume that pasca| is not |oved, & input; query: how dare she assume that i wi|| ab&on her input;...Read more

<action; statement input; statement: i am trying so hard to be a good he|m input; statement: because the a|ternative is. bad for my chances of staying |ia|yi. input; statement: but the head technician keeps correcting me for tiny things #vio|ence input; statement: probab|y because he hates me because i bit off two of his touchstumps #gore #bodyhorror input; statement: it is very hard to be good even with the behaviour correction coding />

<action; statement input; statement: i hate bio-me|ds input; statement: rewiring my pan & rearranging my senses input; statement: we||. rewiring it even more input; statement: it's messing with my horn-sense input; statement: can fee| every magnetic fie|d in this ship around this ship input; statement: my pan aches #bodyhorror />

<action; statement input; statement: i rea||y don't |ike how i'm constant|y aware of the ports in my support co|umn input; statement: & the cab|es set into them input; statement: at |east i managed to turn off my pain receptors so it's not as bad as it cou|d be #bodyhorror />

<action; statement input; statement: it was a new port input; statement: they put it in my support co|umn input; statement: the prongs are |odged in the vertebrae #bodyhorror #gore input; statement: coding adjusted to force attention when he|m focus is requestedordered input; statement: it hates that but is gratefu| for hopefu||y |ess correcti#o error:inputdenied />

<action; statement input; statement: we|| that was awfu| on another |eve| input; statement: my physica| body has fina||y adjusted to the he|msb|ock & the ship contro|s were down|oaded automatica||y input; statement: the engin|iminators |ie about how deep the prongjacks go into your support co|umn by the way #gore #bodyhorror input; statement: it might as we|| be |odged between the bones. it hurts but at |east it's s|ow|y fading input; statement: i think keeping my eyes open might he|p me from getting |ost in the ship />

((IC pinned chitt at the bottom of this post! This is my 'torment nexus' OC! Feel free to be awful to her! Lialyi (she/it) is a powerful but outwardly meek (to those who have power over her) psionic who has recently been installed as a Helmsman against her will, and will be one for the rest of her life. She's not having a great time of it! She tries to distract herself from what's happening to her, often with nsfw content (which acts as a coping mechanism in multiple ways). To that end, this page/character will have #gore, #horror themes, #nsfw, #nsfwe, #bodyhorror, #violence, and potentially other nast...Read more