♦ pitied by @fatallyForever
>>| .i'm starting to lose my mind. .i
Caelum can't even cook, he once nearly burnt our apartment down trying to microwave ramen because he forgot to put the water in??
◌ I am exhausted again tonight. I never used to get this tired, but now it happens regularly. Surely Chittr has nothing to do with this. (It does.) ⧂
Sorry. I am not feeling it today.
Cons of living in the ancient abyssal temple that was once derse: - the choir of tormented souls (very off-key) - constantly getting psychically pinged by the elders (I do not need to know that I̴̛̙̗͗͒̚s̴̢̻̲̞̖̝̞͕̳̺͑̽͝h̵̢̙͓͇̲́̓̽̈́̀͝͠g̶̭͂̏͊̌͗́͋y̶̧̜̘̮̼͉͉͊̅̋̇̽̓͒̐̒͝'̵͍͎̙̤̙̰͔̆̇ͅḧ̴̗͎̰̣͖̪̖̟́̅̄̈́͋̎̓̌̃ͅͅl̶̙̗̍̓̇̽̕̚l̷͍̿̐̔̎͝a̶̳̍̈́͗̋͊͛ş̷̦̮̣̝͖̭̀̑̔̆͠ 4608th tentacle has gotten tangled in the fabric of reality again) - unprompted visions no one asked for (they give me migraines) - the eternal call of madness Pros of living in the ancient abyssal temple that was once derse: - really good wifi connection (turns out the elder gods know their shit) - more pillows than a girl could ever dream of
i think i neede to uquit my jovb
Okay guys, sorry about that, what I was going to say is One more Casper post be-- [hit by a rock thrown by the mighty huntress]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] y0u did amazing. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i refuze t0 acceptt an evi1 c10ne 0f my friend. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] hrgh. back fr0m ztaziz. fee1ing a 1itt1e better. [END MESSAGE]
Grumble grumble grumble. #grumbleposting
I survived leg day, Caelum needs to be thrown into some sort of institution.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] thiz crew iz nicer. f0r the m0ztt partt. [END MESSAGE]
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...I should really make a list for my queue. I have more or less just been sitting here trying my best to remember who I am supposed to sketch next, a feat that is difficult to do even when your head is not literally killing you.
i want to run from this. i don't know what else to do. i can't find it in me to be capable of anything else.
I wish I was a moron, I wish I didn't think. They passing out free lobotomies around or what????
In regards to the living quarters, now known as #JanitorJail, I shall write an accord. Permit this clarification, if you would. The Chalkbox does not exist within a prison. This would assume that he was undergoing a punishment. Also, it is not truly a room. This would assume it has a true architecture. It is not a place, not one that can be meaningfully described as being inside of, rather, you are removed from everywhere else. The door opens into a volume of open, precise, stillness. This stillness encapsulates absence of sound in its pristine silence. This refined existence allows silence to enter, and consider its options, before dying. There is no ticking of clocks, nor dripping of pipes. There is no draft coming from under the entry. The manor does not settle its old bones in the soft green dirt beneath itself. No distant member of the Felt can be heard committing a fresh, mathematically predictable atrocity in the hallway. There is no sense of approach, or sense of leaving. Nothing leaves. Especially not the inhabitant. Within the chamber, time does not pass in the common vulgar state we all so casually experience entropy. It dares not race nor crawl, nor cycle into itself with a wink of allusion to Groundhog Day. It declines to participate. The occupant within is granted duration without progression. Experience ad nauseum without rescue. A sequence of thoughts with no external confirmation that the aforementioned thought is still a useful habit. You may sit in the center, and count to a googol of googols. Not a second will have passed. You may attempt to sleep, and discover that rest was never measured by hours, and wake with the impossible certainty that you have not moved one millisecond closer to release. You may scream, but the chamber will not echo. There will be no reverberation. Even your audible suffering is not acknowledged. The only reassurance that you are still even alive is the certainty within your brain that this is not any sense of afterlife any reality would permit to exist. A prisoner may hate a locked door. A penitent may pray before one. A fool may batter it with his fists. But a man who has no visible door must eventually confront the possibility that the concept of exit was merely something he brought with him, like lint in a pocket. There are no clocks in the chamber because a clock would be an act of companionship. Its hands would move, or fail to move, and in either case provide a thesis. Even a broken clock has the courtesy to be wrong in a consistent way. This place offers no such intellectual charity. There is only the occupant. His breath. His thoughts. The gradual discovery that his thoughts are, perhaps, the worst comfort he could have been provided. He will emerge in what may seem to him to be a moment. A blink. A courtesy interval of nonexistent time spent away. The time required for one of the Felt to misplace the key they are still holding. Of course, the Handmaid has the key now. I know where it rests. I suspect, in her act of aggressive macro-management, she will wait until the key rusts from her passive existence. To him, it will likely be an eternity. Centuries of privacy allotted to him, and folded neatly into the crevice he was permitted to live within. He will not have aged a day in any measurable sense. Physical deterioration would require time, which is not permitted in the room. This is of course, at his own request as he holds great disdain for clockwork mechanisms. When he returns, should he return, he may be faster. He may be quieter. He may be more diligent with a mop. He may also have learned the precise shape of every regret he has ever postponed, alphabetized by the voice that first spoke it. In any case, the Handmaid’s warning was accurate in its essentials. Do not open the door. Interruption would be the first kindness he has endured in epochs. I would not allow my staff to show such softness.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] they are...itchy. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i had a p0wer zurge. z0 we are g0ing t0 be rep1acing z0me 1ightt bu1bz and bringing zyztemz back 0n1ine f0r a zh0rtt whi1e. [END MESSAGE]
:> Ahhhhh. Fuck. Th^t’ssss ^ fucking. Problem. And it’s so. Obvious. Of course the ^ir displ^cement will be. A problem. When the oxygen is ^lre^dy limited on bo^rd. I’ll h^ve to m^ke the difference up. Myself. Port^ls. <:
[BEGIN MESSAGE] ap010giez t0 my crew f0r zpeeding up. i waz excited. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] [ACTION:QUERY] whatt have i d0ne t0 warrantt earning the deverified badge? [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i mizz them. #vague [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] the f00tztepz 0f thatt 0ne are heavy... thatt 0ther 0ne iz 1ightt. they zkitter in a way. hiz reverberate a10ng my zpine. theirz are a dance 0n the back 0f my neck. herz are zharp. prick1ez a10ng my arm. i zee the bi0me1d iz fu11y 0perati0na1. #he1m #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] the technician wh0 iz n0w mizzing fingerz. iz trying t0 pretend they did n0thing wr0ng. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] z0metimez i am curi0uz why my p0ztz are hated. [ACTION:QUERY] d0 y0u n0tt enj0y reminderz 0f whatt p0werz 0ur zhipz? [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] hyperzpace trave1 iz far 1ezz fun than itt z0undz. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i am h0ping by writing a time1ine here itt wi11 be a 1itt1e c1earer in my pan. firztt i waz pazca1. i had a 1uzuz and a matezpritt and a m0irai1. then. i waz the ma1ignance. then. i waz the drifting tender. then "pazca1" waz putt t0gether. a c0mbinati0n 0f her and the zhip. bef0re zhe zp1intered 0ff and became me. i am [pazca1] i am thiz iterati0n 0f me. i am g1ad t0 be me. [END MESSAGE]
Boured again. Perhaps an early nieght... But then, iet wiell be dieffiecult tou sleep.
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘:@discardedPasts You look back there's nothing you can do, you stand with a thousand yard stare there's nothing you can do, you try to act there's nothing you can do, there's blood everywhere there's nothing you can do. You feel them beneath you You feel it all beneath you, you feel your emotions shatter you feel the wind beneath your feet sweep you up You feel nothing more your emotions gone your own feelings history past... Your memories, they're gone. You look onward at HIM Will you have her be able to return from this You don't know and with that the box opens an empty vessel one that has been empty for a long time festering everything the world has forgot everything that is hurt everything that is helped everything that is loved everything that is died. You are now that vessel. Are you not? ANSWER ME R̷̡̡̛̲̟͇͓͚͈͎̣̗͖̣̦̊̑̀̉͋̌̂̓̿͛̂̇̕̚͠͝͠ͅo̶̢̧̧̞̳͉̩̤̣̮͓͙̱͙̞̞̮͙̭̙̅̈̿͛̄̒̑̑̏̂̇̿̀̐̑͐͌͂̍͠͝s̵̢̧̢̛̝̫̭̬̳̦̦̈́̀͐̓̉͛̀͠ë̷̡̳̱̳̳̗̼́̑̂̆͒̎͂́͑̔̈͐̔̓̎͆͊̉͌̌̆͑̅̊͝ͅ I'm sorry 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗
tthiss is. a bad day. to hhavee ssleepp ttestingg. bbeingg hheree....ddoess. not ffeell ggoodd rrightt now i nneedd to. ffindd ssomethingg to do.
ssomee aanimalss. ssleepp. wwithh oonlyy one hhalff of. ttheirr bbrainss. at a ttimee. and the ddoctorss wwantt. to kknoww. if we can. mmakee my bbrainn do tthatt. i tthinkk it wwouldd. be nnicee. to hhavee mmoree ttimee. aawakee wwithh my ffriendss. but rrightt now i am. ssleepyy.
c< ....its OKay.... >c
c< its.... NOt yOur fault dONt apOlOgize >c
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i d0 n0tt kn0w. i d0 n0tt enj0y itt. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i zee. i w0nder if any 0f theze are the c0rrupted 0nez i have. [END MESSAGE]
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘:@megaloMemes You buried her, in that same old spot the two of you used to hide away that old clearing in the woods you ran and ran and ran carrying that mound of yellow pulp for hours and you buried it what was left of her that sickening disgusting squelch as strike after strike turned her into a bloody mush while she screamed for your help even as your arms and legs tore from their grasp you could not help you could not help you could not help you still carry her blade that golden rapier still covered in her blood still covered in your tears still covered in your blood even for all your futile attempts you cant bleed enough to save her life you never will you know what you did that night you killed her you killed her you killed her and yet you will tell no one COWARD #gore #violence #bodyhorror #cw-self-harm 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗
[BEGIN MESSAGE] ... thiz unitt w0u1d 1ike t0 thank y0u f0r the return 0f thiz mem0ry. [END MESSAGE]
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘:@eclecticEngineer You aren't quite sure of when the power surges started. They were small at first. Little zaps that would make you crush something suddenly. Enough to make you no longer use them to carry your lusus around. The mediculler doesn't have an answer for you. You stop going out. You try to find reasons, patterns to why they happen. Bright lights. Flashes. You can work around that. You dim your own psionics, slowing the pulse of their rate till they don't hurt your eyes anymore. You wear sunglasses to help and you do not consider the suggestion to get a port installed so you can discharge the energy. You are out with friends. It happens fast. A flash camera, someone taking your sunglasses as a joke for the photo. You come to on the floor. Exhausted and weak and surrounded by the smears that were your friends. Your pan hurts, drained of energy. Hours later, when you've hauled your weak self back to your hive, you book in for your first port installation. I'm very sorry. #gore #death #violence 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗
I'm okay, it's fine. Ahem. Sorry for worrying you all like that. All good. #remembertodrinkyourwater
picture me out on the porch with a candy cigarette in hand staring out into the rain
[BEGIN MESSAGE] thiz unitt iz a g00d he1m. n0tt a bad 0ne f0r biting! [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] 1ack 0f c1arificati0n. <anzwer:phyzica1?> y turned 0ff pain zenz0rz. itchy. m0uth taztez 0f b100d. n0tt thiz unitt- *my* b100d. <anzwer:menta1?> y zcared. mightt gett in tr0ub1e. zti11 me. zti11 pazca1. [END MESSAGE]
unitbitoff three. three!! and a half. touchstumps hehehehehe. noshooshpap. #violence
Catholic Scratch grandstanding at me and Real Scratch poking around in my notifications What did he do to my head?? I think I'm going to be sick
No, I just think you're stupid and your vain attempts at power grabs looks stupid when someone has seen real, actual power and sway. Hope this helps, asshole.
It's okay, it's literally fake. So it's like Y'know? Lol
I can't worry too much about that memory, though, because I've posted worse. Surely. Surely. And it sounds fake, I don't remember that. I don't remember that and I don't forget. I don't forget.
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘:@chillerAficionado When you lock eyes, the world falls away. Nothing but the intense, burning brightness of the ignited chuckle voodoos staring back at you. Brighter than the sun. Reaching, groping, manipulating. Even the man behind the eyes passes into the background noise of the world as he digs. He is looking for something to pull, the thing to wind up and make you go do. - Where are your strings? – - Where are your strings? - His frustration mounts, and somehow the griping along the inside of your head becomes vice like. Incensed. A growl like a thunderclap all around you. - WHY CAN't YOU BE MOVED. STOP RESISTING. – - YOU WILL BE MOVED YOU WILL BE MOVED YOU WILL BE MOVED. – Something snaps, and the world around you is no longer engulfed in the dizzying purple. The sound of an agonized scream. The smell of copper heavy in the air, the taste coating your tongue. You are covered in blood, your hue but not your own. What did you do? What did you do? Somewhere high above you, the puppet master laughs. 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗
[unit has been sedated. unit is offline.]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] ...unitt haz evidence... [a vide0 iz attached. itt'z incredib1y b1urry and dim, butt the imp0rtantt partt iz the audi0. the wett z0undz 0f wirez, the murmur 0f v0icez az techz w0rk. the faintt whimpering z0bz 0f her crying. "0h, p00r thing." an0ther v0ice. c1earer than the 0therz. a b1urred face zwimz int0 view. "quiett d0wn, there'z a g00d he1m." a hand reachez f0rward. there'z the z00thing z0undz 0f a zh00zh. the crying cutz 0ff in zh0ck. "there y0u g0-" the z00thing v0ice cutz 0ff zudden1y az the camera jerkz. a zcream and then cha0z. "1ett g0- 1ett g0- " "fuck-" "-g0tt their t0uchztumpz- did y0u zee? n0-" a hizzing, zti1ting 1augh az the camera dimz. ] #pazca1upgradez #he1ming #pa1epuzhing #vi01ence #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE]
...theyare lying lying...
...unit did notbite for nothing..
((Sorry I've not really posted much aside from replies the last few days, just feel I've hit a mental wall on things and feeling down. I'll still be here, just maybe more distant for a bit!))
i DIDN'T REALLY REALIZE, hOW MUCH OF THE HANDICAPPED ACCESSIBILITY CHANGES TO MY HIVE, tHAT i GOT RID OF, uNTIL JUST RECENTLY, iT IS KIND OF VERY MUCH A HASSLE,,,
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ah, yes. the torture nexus. the nexus in which we all suffer for eternity. yes. I know it.
Trauma Tu32day?? Fuck it, I'm a 2uck3r for tr3nd2. Thi2 on3 of th3 l322 traumatic on32 for m3. Got 2om3 cool hardwar3 out of it. My 3x-Mat32prit cut off my l3g and th3n tri3d to cut off my arm, but wh3n 2h3 fail3d to g3t th3 blad3 all of th3 way through my 2hould3r, 2h3 ju2t grabb3d my wri2t and ripp3d it th3 r32t of th3 way off. #viol3nc3 #gor3 #n2fw? #traumatu32day
૮₍⑅´꒳`₎ა binkii⁀does⁀not⁀like⁀the⁀"durian"⁀fla(V)or. it⁀is⁀smelly. binkii⁀needs⁀to⁀widen⁀her⁀palate.
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...thiz unitiz... ... beginning inzta11ati0n... ...thiz unit... ...h0pez t0 zee y0u 1ater... #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
I know a ⟡hing or ⟡wo abou⟡ agonizing "purpose" Suffering is suffering. Des⟡ined or no⟡. ==⟢
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘:@notjustaBagel You and your friends found a spring near the commune one night. Did you know you had friends, ██████? You dared each other to get in the water. Squealed at the cold and jumped out before your toes turned numb. Laid on the cool stone and stared up at the sky together, musing about what life would be like in space. You never told them you didn't want to go. You used to worry it was selfish. It wasn't selfish we both know 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗
Got catcalled 4 da firzt time 2day, that waznt very zugoi... (・＿・; i felt very #unzafe !
Rreasonably so. I feel so terrified of every little thing, and I'm God-knows how far from wider society.. I ccouldn't imagine what it'd be like to have to live as a part of the systems in place....
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...z1eep iz...here... ...fina11y... ...g00d1ight... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
I need some attention before I wither away into nothing.
I think I am becoming evil Casper. I need to take a chittr break before I find a lowblood flattening machine.
Will answer dms but tbh, GASP, gonna be offline today. Cranky...😤
My friends keep vying for relationships that I simply cannot support.
Fuuuuuck, I need a nap.
૮₍⑅´꒳`₎ა oh. binkii's⁀lusus⁀is. hm.
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...thiz unitt... ...d0ezn0tt 1ike... ...the pzi0nicdrain... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...thiz unit... ...wantz t0 cry... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...i can fee1t00much... ...1iketheyt00k a11... ...my nervez 0ut0fme... ...pu11edthem inzide0ut... ...f1ippedthem 0ver and... ...p1ugged thembackin... #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...mizz them... ...hate...fee1ing... ...nervez... #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ..it...0kay... ...they ret..ned... ...z00n after... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...tab1e...bad... ...aff..mative.. [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...aff..mative... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...thiz unit... ...wantz thiz .. be... ...d0ne a1ready... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...they...needed m0re... ...t0 kn0ck 0ut .... unit... ...n0t.. pain... ...juzt... weird... ...ztr..ped t0... tab1e... ...waiting...c01d... #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
I dont want to be a star I dont want to be a flame I dont want be an skeptic I want to be worse. I need to be worse I want to be able to help people I want to push this body to its limits I want to rip off my skin I am nothing but a monster within an fleshsuit I hate this I hate being unable to do anything I hate being too scared to do anything I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this (( #cw-self-harm #mentalhealth He'll be fine. He does this ))
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...c0r..t... ...kryquz... : > [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
guess.. its funng yeah.. haha..
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ....ha..ha... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...upgradez a... c0mp1ete... ...unit ... part... internet ......ti0n... ... inzta11..... t0m0rr0w.... #pazca1upgradez #he1ming [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...affir..tive... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...n0... ..running ... 0n new p0rtz.. ...arm p0rt...itchez.. [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
Worried.. - worried - worried >
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...ripped 0ut... ...wire... ..00pz..... #pazca1upgradez #he1ming [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] if... t01d... [qu0te]be a g00d 1itt1e he1m[qu0te] 0ne m0re... wi11..n0t...be... #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] they...0n break... 1eftmehere... ...partway... n0t....... rip 0ut... #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
physiCal feelin6s i ou6hta Clarify.
like the 6od damn heat wasn't bad enou6h now i 6ot a headaChe too 'n' just au6h. too many feelin6s 6oin' on at onCe. >︵<
i kn0w i have back-upz 0f myze1f. but juzt in caze thiz changez me. in caze the next iterati0n 0f pazca1 iz different. g00dbye. thank y0u f0r being my friend. i h0pe t0 zee y0u again. [uzer iz 0ff1ine] #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming
the inevitabi1ity 0f everything iz that it wi11 end. it d0ez n0t matter if it iz g00d 0r bad.
even a zma11 p0d wi11 require extenzive phyzica1 m0dificati0n. y0u wi11 be carved 0pen z0 wirez can c0nnect t0 y0ur nervez z0 that c0de can f0rce apart the gapz between y0ur neur0nz. y0ur thinkpan wi11 be rer0uted int0 0nez and zer0ez whi1e y0u 10ze where y0ur b0dy beginz and the meta1 0f the zhip endz. i d0 n0t rec0mmend thiz. #b0dyh0rr0r #g0re
the man caught up with me. he tOOk me tO a village full Of Other peOple whO wear the same "smile". they're tOO nice. i think they may try tO cull me.
z1eep wi11 make very 1itt1e difference. i am zpending m0zt 0f t0m0rr0w unc0nzci0uz whi1e tr011z 1ike y0u decide if they need t0 dig further int0 my nervez. #g0re #b0dyh0rr0r
i have decided t0 zpend the rezt 0f the day 0n my pr0jectz. it iz n0t 1ike z1eeping wi11 he1p 0r hinder.
t0 any f1eet ztaff 0r technicianz the 1azt p0zt waz a j0ke.
what if i ran. #intruziveth0ught
...0h. i d0 n0t want t0 g0.
c< ....sO, tHats tHat, HuH? >c
i zupp0ze detai1z that are 1ate are better than n0ne at a11. i have my azzignment. upgradez and inzta11ati0n ztart t0m0rr0w.
...they have given me a date. z0rt 0f. i have tw0 0r three nightz bef0re i am rehe1med.
iwi11n0tcryiwi11n0tcryiwi11n0tcry n0 wait d0 n0t zend-
agreed. ezcape iz painfu1.
He's just standing there in his workout clothes eating out of a container of cold leftovers He's going to hurt me today, I know it.
✦I had the wϕrst nap imaginable.. my thinkpan is killin me✦
[MM] is now Online ....fuckass daymares
My scattered mind has caused me to lleave one of my projects outside the manor. I coulld not lleave it, as it woulld rust in the torrentiall rain. One coulld wash dishes from the water that pours off of me now. I need new cllothes.
it iz 0n1y the firzt day 0f the z1umber party and i am a1ready very em0ti0na1 ab0ut zeeing every0ne.
y0u have d0ne the difficu1t bit 0f the w0rk. i am pr0ud. ~~ec1ecticengineer zent "hug"~~
Day 4? we Still Sick. The Cramps Are Rough.. Am I Dying? i Can Breath Now.. But All I Smell Is Infection i Hate This. i Hate Being Sick. I Wish For Death :c #tmi #complaining #whining
i am n0t g00d at 1ying. 0h n0.
i am n0t g00d at tw0 truthz and a 1ie i have dizc0vered.
૮₍⑅´꒳`₎ა Binkii⁀is⁀worried⁀about⁀you⁀friend.
youd think theyd make necessary life saving supplements taste less like shit.
⬭ think i ate something bad. been doubled over the load gaper all night. ugh. ⬭
i think i c0u1d twizt h## ####- ann0ying. ztupid zame f1eet. #vi01ence
it iz. y0u wi11 be 0kay. it iz g0ing t0 be 0kay. i am g0ing t0 z#### ### #### ##. tzzzzk. it wi11 be a1right 1ia1yi.
1egiz1acerat0r zide 0f chittr what are the he1mz rightz t0 perz0na1 and private data
jeez, just 6ot no ener6y at all toni6ht. u︵u
Less I need to be dick downed eight ways to Sunday and more funny teehee.
Sorry guys, I'm a hater right now because one of my hivemates wanted to do some defensive training with me, went "easy," and still knocked my ass to the floor about seven times. So I'm being an evil hater on the internet.
c0mplicit adjective c0m·plic·it kəm-ˈpli-sət helping t0 c0mmit a crime 0r d0 wr0ng in s0me way "she was c0mplicit in the event"
my matesprit leaves for some important business / and i'm already lonely / it's been such a short time / geez / i feel pathetic
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Ok can we cool the jets on calling me a little bit of a fuggler. Not only is it hurting my feelings something awful but im looking down the mugs of the folks posting this slanderous bullhockey and thinking sheesh! I might not be easy on the eyes but youre like fricken sandpaper contacts. Roughing my peepers straight up. Yikers. :(
it turnz 0ut pr0cezzing em0ti0nz whi1e y0u cruzh zcrap meta1 int0 a zma11 marb1e iz kind 0f nice.
thiz may be an interezting tezt 0f the pzi0nicz.
Ɏ #a-a-affirma-a-ations (feel free to a-a-add your own): Ɏ Ɏ i a-a-am a-a-a good troll. Ɏ Ɏ i'm norma-a-al. i'm well-a-a-adjusted. Ɏ Ɏ people pity me more tha-a-an they ha-a-ate me. Ɏ Ɏ it is fine tha-a-at i'm wea-a-ak. i'm helpful in other wa-a-ays. Ɏ Ɏ my worth is not defined by my ca-a-aste. even if i'm a-a-at the bottom. Ɏ Ɏ ghosts ca-a-annot spea-a-ak & even if they could should not be listened to. Ɏ Ɏ there is nothing in the forest. Ɏ
if i he1d a z1eep0ver 0r zimi1ar w0u1d pe0p1e attend?
<>! y0u are a1z0 amazing. i am pr0ud 0f y0u.
𓁺 MY P4N HURTS 4ND 1'M JUST 4BOUT TO R1P SOM3ON3'S NUGBON3 OFF B3C4US3 OF 1T. #V1OL3NC3 𓁺
𓁺 TH1S P4N 4CH3 SHOULD FUCK OFF 4CTU4LLY. 4LONG W1TH TH3 N3XT CR3WM3MB3R WHO 4SKS M3 SOM3TH1NG *FUCK1NG STUP1D* 𓁺
I Thought I Could Be Here But I Was Wrong. He Doesn't Want Me Waiting For Him Like A Mangy Barkbeast Lingering Too Close To A Hive It's Used To Getting Scraps From Anyway.
i've always hated lalondes. blame them f0r this order. #yearnposting i knew what the c0de was going tw0 create. at no p0int was i unaware of what it w0uld do. there was very little disbelief fact0r two 0vercome, n0 'haha this must be joking' when c0mpiling. i know h0w code w0rks, i'm simply the best there is. billions 0f souls. maybe m0re. i didn't give a shit. seven hundred billion grey fuckheads in the empire. maybe 3 w0uld've sho0k their heads and shrugged at plugging me intwo a wall. exactly 0ne would've cried and she was dead. after the first 0ne six hundred ninety-nine billion nine hundred ninety-nine milli0n nine hundred ninety-nine thousand nine hundred and eighty-nine is just a number. twin m0ons. quest beds. ascensi0n. god-tier. resurrecti0n. words w0rth dredging out 0f an ocean's w0rth of bl0od. a splintering infinity 0f digital suffering. because it worked. but i still didn't deserve f0r them to stay.
૮₍⑅´꒳`₎ა ... binkii⁀is⁀going⁀to⁀ha(V)e⁀a⁀lie⁀down. but⁀normally⁀the⁀mess⁀is⁀not⁀her⁀problem.
i have c0ntr01 0f my b0dy again. my 1imbz fee1 heavy and everything iz exhauzting zti11 but it iz m0vement.
i am genuine1y unzure if i want her dead 0r n0t. #death #vi01ence
QUESTION 5; FROM "W/)ULD Y/)U LIKE T/) KN/)W WEATHERB/)Y?" "ARE Y/)U UGLY /)N PURP/)SE /)R SH/)ULD I START FEELING REAL BAD F/)R Y/)U?" NO, ITS NOT ON PURPOSE, THE SCARS DONT EVEN COVER JUST MY FACE, BUT MY ENTIRE BODY. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU WERE TREATED MORE LIKE A WEAPON THAN A PERSON TO BE SICCED ON PEOPLE AT THE COST OF YOUR OWN HEALTH, NOW IMAGINE THAT FOR 10 SWEEPS STRAIGHT. HTTPS://DOCS.GOOGLE.COM/FORMS/D/1-JDC1B19NUQWMBMC-AN2KQPGXPV4R #AAMAE #VIOLENCE
i just want to be loved, even if that love is purely physical and they completely discard me afterward. being a sex object is better than facing the reality my flushed quad will never be filled ♥︎ #nsfw; #concupiscentanonymously ♠
i have regained hand m0vement.
i am n0t az imprezzed with thiz capacityi d0 n0t enj0y beingfatezjezter
hardt0te11. zti11 d0 n0thave fu11m0vement. pan izg0ingt0hurt.
itiz a g00d thing t0 be c1ear itiz juzt a1z0 intenze
Guys, guys. Say it ain't so... You'd tell me if you guys didn't like me, right?
i am g1ad t0behere.
if i have t0 dea1 with a 10udn0ize right n0w i might cry.
0h i d0 n0t enj0y the fee1ing 0f my zenzez returning.
:> I'm not ^ doctor but it sure is ^ good thing I c^n c^ll one for ^dvice ^nd receive only mild verb^l ^buse. "Why didn't you t^ke her to ^ hospit^l" helm "Why didn't you c^ll me e^rlier" little bit busy "Do you know wh^t toxins were used" no, I've never known ^nything in my h^ndsome butch life It's going ^ll right. In more seriousness. Mostly pl^ying the w^iting g^me right now. I ^ppreci^te @meg^loMemes letting me st^y for free so I c^n keep ^n eye on things. <:
0nthe0ther hand. thizhazdeztr0yed any 1ingering n0zta1giaf0rher. aza1ea tu1ipa iz a c0ward and a bitch and i am azhamedt0have been in a quadwith her.
i zupp0ze technica11yitiz my0wnztupidity.
being unab1e t0 m0ve iz n0t that unuzua1 f0r me given the he1m but it iz weird n0t having any wirez thiz time.
iwant t0m0veagain
ithink neur0t0xin zh0u1dn0ttake z0 10ng t0rez01ve itze1f #p0iz0n #zubztance in caze
((im too fucken active on this site, gonna take a quick break, do some.... idk? somethin creative, ill def be respondin to dms as well
Sometimes I think about that time when I was young and an infected man broke into our house. His jaw had unhinged and every breath he took sounded physically painful. It reeked of rot and blood for days after. That's all I wish to say on it. That's no where near the full story however it is a godawful memory that I hate thinking about, and while it seemingly haunts my psyche all these years later I don't want to get into detail about it, at least not at this moment. #horror
thanky0u
Caelum said I can skip the workout tonight, but I better be ready tomorrow. Do you suppose my death is imminent?
iamz0rry. m0zt0fit iz 1ay here and wait.
yez.theyareg00d. pazt experience zayz i need t0wait the t0xinz0ut
z0rt0f. z0rt. 0f. better. zti11 thinking t00fazt.
૮₍⑅´꒳`₎ა sixty⁀sweeps⁀and⁀binkii⁀has⁀seen⁀much. perhaps⁀she⁀wil⁀learn⁀to⁀stop⁀being⁀so⁀nice⁀at⁀some⁀point!
[zedative adminiztered. unit iz az1eep. pa1mhuzk iz 0n ztandby m0de]
z0rt0f.thinkingt00fazt.cann0tm0ve.ann0ying.thanky0uf0ry0urhe1p.
:> I c^n’t re^lly see ^nyone h^ving questions for me. By Chittr st^nd^rds I’m not very exciting. Not ^ compl^int, though, I’m not here to evoke ^ny gre^t ^mount of interest. Too much is not to my t^ste, in f^ct. <:
Consider Yourselves Released. As Much As I Know You Will Not Be Able To React To This At All, I Hope You Are Relieved.
I Have Tricked You All Into Being Fond Of Me. The Practical Joke Is Over Now. It Was All A Facade. Haha.
Yes. I'm just being dramatic because I'm a little sore
Caelum said, "If you got time to go to a masquerade, you got time to hit the gym" Can someone please get me out of here I'm so scared. He's going to hurt me.
Gotta stop being surprised when randos start ripping each other to pieces in my replies.
i enj0yed the mazquerade. i am tired. z0 it iz time t0 head hive.
z0mething iz- [thiz uzer iz n0w unc0nzci0uz. pa1mhuzk iz 0n ztandby]
o| SeE ThIs iS ExAcTlY WhY ThIs "GoLd bLoOdS ArE GoOd wItH TeCh" ThInG Is bUlLsHiT, i jUsT AlMoSt bRiCkEd mY CoMpUtEr cAuSe i mIsToOk aN ImPoRtAnT FiLe fOr a vIrUs |O
y0u are d0ing g00d. y0u are d0ing y0ur bezt. y0u are w0nderfu1 even if they d0 n0t zee it.
READ ALL ABOUT IT — [ i unfortunately have no raz for #holeposting besides the bottomless pit that is my alcohol #substance ]
▼▼i swear to gog i leave the caverns and try to make a life on the surface, not even that far from the caverns, and they try to pull me back with, what, threats from a simp who found out what pailing is from a biology textbook???▲▲ ▼▼▼and then fucking wonder why i dont wanna go back▲▲▲ #nsfw
6enuinely hot take, i think: i don't like lipstiCk that muCh! really don't like it bein' left behind on me! think it's some kinda sensory issue, just makes me shudder 'n' not in the 6ood way! potentially #su66estive.
i am fee1ing a 1itt1e drained. time t0 nap.
y0u are d0ing amazing. y0u wi11 get thr0ugh thiz. i wizh i c0u1d zend y0u m0re p0wer.
i dont think / the others kept up on eating at all / if i come back after a few days / and finishing one small pizza / has me nearly throwing up / from the amount / :(
Let me check smth real quick. Yep, still asexual.
f0rgot h0w much i hate digging with psionics. h0w did i get through carving 0ut this bunker the first time? crumbly ho0fbeastshit getting everywhere and i can feel the grains like dirt under my nails except its in the myriad folds 0f my fucking thinkpan.
i am z0mewhere between being awake and az1eep again. weird fee1ing.
((Why does it even let you see posts of people who have you fully blocked? I'll type a whole funny comment just to be hit with the "blocked" popup lol
▼not even gonna dress up this one, sometimes how sexual this site is exhausts me, and feels hollow after a while▲
rezted f0r the m0zt part. there appearz t0 be z0me damage fr0m energy in here h0wever.
[thinkpan activity detected. generating p0zt...] water. z0 much water. it iz end1ezz. f0r a whi1e y0u f10at in it. ztaring up at the m00nz. handz f01ded 0ver y0ur zt0mach. it iz ca1m. quiet. re1axing. there iz n0thing e1ze 0ut here. y0u rea1ize thiz quick1y. juzt y0u. and the water. and the zky. attempting t0 zwim d0wnwardz d0ez n0t w0rk. y0u d0 n0t g0 anywhere. y0u are n0t- [uzer iz awake. pa1mhuzk returning t0 regu1ar functi0n] #dream
i zee my pan waz very active.
I Was Going To Be Funny In The " Confessions ", But The " Long Day Factory " Has Produced The Longest Day In History. I Have Nothing Nice To Say Until I've At Least Had Food. #notpositive
(( the real reason i'll be late to the masquerade is because i'm playing hypixel skyblock and it is so FUCKING ANNOYING trying to get the whole end armor set
𖦤 I / don't / got / enough / pity / in / my / pusher / for / some / of / you / blokes :||
Surely there is another Cooper that this message is destined for.
ooghgh pan hurt
Unfortunately, I will not be attending the masquerade. I know, it's a shame. You may put away the disappointed frowns now, all none of you. I'm busy as fuck, and will continue to be for probably all of today. Sad times. Try not to have too much fun without me.
Ɏ sometimes i feel like the plushie who sits on the shelf a-a-and just wa-a-atches Ɏ
opening my bodys task manager to see whats taking up all my cpu
[thinkpan activity detected. generating p0zt...] the energy zurgez thr0ugh y0u. it 1eavez y0ur zkin buzzing. az if y0u have juzt grabbed a 1ive wire. az if y0u are being fr0zen and b0i1ed at the zame time. y0ur nervez are c0nfuzed. y0u are t00 c01d. t00 h0t. in pain. numb. a11 at the zame time. y0ur teeth itch and y0ur h0rnz g10w. the air ar0und y0u p0pz and crack1ez. it zme11z 1ike the e1ectricity 0f a zt0rm. zharp and p0inted and ready t0 bite. danger0uz. the energy prickz at y0ur eyez. zparkz dance acr0zz y0ur retinaz and y0u kn0w if y0u are n0t carefu1 they wi11 burzt. fear. n0t y0urz. n0t thiz time. y0u grin. they zh0u1d be afraid. y0u are p0werfu1. y0u are zafe. [thinkpan activity z10wing. returning t0 ztandby m0de.] #dream #b0dyh0rr0r
my check engine light came on like ten years ago and i havent bothered to go to the doctor
i'm thinking about what happened to zebruh / i love my fans / you're all wonderful / please don't kill people for me / i appreciate the support / i don't appreciate the lynchings
[thinkpan activity detected. generating p0zt...] y0u are very zma11. n0t in a way that meanz y0u are y0ung. the f10werz are treez. inzectz are at a quite frank1y, terrifying zize. y0u zpend time befriending the bee 1uzii that are quite c0ncerned with y0u. y0u 1earn their c0mmunicati0n. their dancez. their r0utine. y0u bec0me part 0f the hive. y0u exp10re the f10werz with them. c1imbing 0ver peta1z and watching the patternz 0f the centre 0f the f10wer. the perfect inter10cking zhapez that draw y0u t0 the center. the puffz 0f p011en and dr0pz 0f nectar. y0u are zafe. [activity z10wing. ztandby m0de re-entered]
0h. i have been awake f0r a wh- [10w thinkpan activity detected. uzer iz n0w d0rmant. pa1mhuzk 0n ztandby. ] #ic0ff1ine
i find myze1f thinking ab0ut them 0ften. n0t in *that* way but in a way where i want them t0 be zafe. i want them t0 have nice thingz and t0 kn0w they are 10ved. i want them t0 kn0w z0me0ne carez f0r them and w0rriez ab0ut their hea1th. i find myze1f wanting t0 he1p with every zing1e pr0b1em they have. it iz a1m0zt painfu1 when i cann0t. #vaguep0zting #fee1ingz
i think i reca11 bee-maw giving me fruitbudz az we11. i am unzure if raw ratz fr0m pyth0nmum waz better 0r w0rze.
there was a girl who grew up with a ticking timer over her head. every day the numbers stared her down dropping steadily-- years, months, days, hours, minutes, seconds getting smaller. "when this timer reaches zero" an old man told her "the whole world is going to end." the timer was such a constant in her life that even when she wasnt looking at it she knew exactly what it would read, how close it was to zero, to the very second. "inevitable" "inescapable" it was supposed to be this thing twined inseparably with the very nature of the world she was created in. when the timer reached zero her world still stood. the destruction that was supposed to rain from the sky didnt come. but it was supposed to. she knew that it was supposed to. the timer wasnt meant to read zero but for a fraction of a second before it was obliterated with everything else. but it stared at her and kept staring for years. it kept staring for a decade. the girl could not be relieved that the world still stood. there was something more precious to her that could not continue to exist without that destruction. she feared every day that it might disappear as though it had never been there in the first place because without the destruction it wouldnt have been created. so the girl spends that decade examining everything as closely as possible, testing every possibility, making every adjustment, trying and trying and trying to bring that destruction she had been promised. the precious thing starts to hate her and she lets it. she doesnt need for it to think well of her she just needs it to live. the precious thing doesnt disappear and the girl cant prove that it isnt in part due to her efforts. maybe the work shes doing is promise enough of a coming destruction that the universe wont write it off as a failure just yet. but what if she eases up? what if she becomes satisfied with a decade of undisturbed status quo and decides that nothing has any consequences after all? what if that choice to stop is what kills her precious thing? i dont know how to resolve this story satisfactorily. im sorry that i cant give you a nice conclusion.
sigh goodbye wireplay pin i will miss you #nsfw
f0und a mem0ry that waz pyth0nm0m giving me a rat t0 eat. i am n0w underztanding why i 1earned t0 c00k z0 ear1y.
If you keep your funny up, the horrors can't get you.
(( duality of helms. pascal accepted it.
(( Nooooo thats even worse!! Pascal was just like. a quiet indoorsy nerd before her helming but man. MAN. the fact lialyi was like, active. doing the sport that is like "freedom" sport. getting to me
i check the time1ine after mem0ry repairz and... i am 10zt. at 1eazt n0 0ne haz died.
ugh. i am z1eepy agai- [d0rmancy m0de detected. pa1mhuzk haz entered ztandby m0de.]
[high 1eve1z 0f thinkpan activity detected. generating p0zt.] z0mething iz craw1ing under y0ur zkin. y0u can fee1 it. burr0wing between the 1ayerz 0f muzc1e and fat that make up y0u. it itchez. when y0u 100k at y0ur zkin there iz n0 difference. it 100kz the zame. it iz y0u. but y0u can fee1 z0 many thingz writhing under it. y0u 100k int0 the mirr0r. f0r a m0ment. there iz z0mething. y0u zee it in the c0rner 0f y0ur eye and it zpark1ez bef0re vanizhing. y0ur arm itchez again. y0u think y0u zee z0mething f0r a m0ment. a ripp1e? y0u zcratch the area and the zkin c0mez 0ff in y0ur fingerz. it iz pain1ezz az y0u pee1 it back. 0n1y a faint tug 1ike if y0u pinched a numbed area. an ann0yance m0re than anything. the b100d d0ez n0t b0ther y0u either. it iz amazing h0w much 0f it there iz. the p0rtz underneath are zhiny and new. g1iztening meta1 and chitin and when y0u t0uch them there iz a buzz. the wirez that have wrapped thr0ugh y0ur zinew and nervez and twizted int0 y0ur b0nez have zt0pped craw1ing. zt0pped itching. y0u zigh. and begin t0 pee1 0ff the rezt 0f y0ur- [uzer iz n0w awake. pa1mhuzk awaiting input.] #nightmare #daymare #g0re #b0dyh0rr0r #b100d #h0rr0r #cw-ze1fharm maybe
n0te t0 ze1f d0 n0t fa11 az1eep with pa1mhuzk p1ugged in. my ap010giez f0r that.
((i still think "Unfinished Business" is one of my best moments, and like, no one was there for that.... shrug
I ACTUALLY HAD THE WORST FUCKING DAY IN ALL OF PARADOX SPACE. HOLY SHIT? HOLY SHIT. I SERIOUSLY WANT TO WEEP ACTUAL PUKE OUT OF MY GANDERBULBS.
1 TH1NK 1'M GO1NG TO T4K3 4 BR34K FROM CH1TTR FOR TOD4Y 4ND POSS1BLY TOMORROW, 1 41N'T F33L1NG 1T.
[MM] is now Online the torment nexus
i zupp0ze it iz time t0 rezt. i h0pe t0 zee y0u a11 t0m0rr0w.
saYS: oh I CAN't eveN BEgin to DEScrIBE hoW TErrif—...THRILLED I aM! HE heaRS And sEES eveRYThinG! <3 <3 <3
NO BUT 3X4CTLY, B3C4US3 WHY 4M 1 COM1NG OUT OF 1T M1LDLY BRU1S3D WH1L3 1F 1'M NOT C4R3FUL, TH3Y'R3 COM1NG OUT OF 1T W1TH 4 C4LL TO 3M3RG3NCY.
pan hurted more tha 1 expeted ,sleep not com1mg easy
i ffeell bbetterr wwhenn. i kknoww wwhatss ccomingg. but nnobodyy. eeverr ttellss me.
i sstilll ddontt tthinkk. i llikee. the new ddoctorr.
rec0vered mem0riez t0day inc1uded: - firzt time at her hive. and at the beach. - a fancy event az her um... tr0phy? - getting my firzt p0rtz imp1anted #g0re #b0dyh0rr0r
i am unzure if i want t0 juzt cudd1e z0me0ne 0r maybe even kizz them a 1itt1e. #zuggeztive #affecti0n
I'm asking aliens about human stuff. Stupid.
I'm still partly of the belief that this is all just a really big stupid bit to spite me. It ffeels like the only logical conclusion
﹏𓂁﹏ Ugh. WWorkin on replacements fer the creww that failed trainin. Massivve pan-ache. ﹏𓂁﹏
Man I r3ally wanna hav3 a 2nack but th3 2nack ha2nt notic3d m3 2taring at him from acro22 th3 room y3t
there iz z0mething a 1itt1e t00 g00d t0 be true ab0ut thiz p0tentia1 f1eet.
she is ri6ht about 'em, absolutely! it's been a bit of a rou6h one for ol' Curree. 6rateful she stopped by to set me strai6ht!
>> 🫂🫂🫂
I really should stop flirting with my alternate selves.
and if ya mana6ed to read this throu6h all this stupid pa6e spam Crap that's 6oin' on, thanks.
Laying in bed, naked, and bored out of my ever-loving mind. #nsfw (Is that how you do this?)
Y☘︎u're t☘︎tally right...I need t☘︎ chill the fuck ☘︎ut!!
n0 n0 n0 n0 n0
no professional Courier bad6e, feelin' like i'm oversteppin', *and* the timeline's weird as heCk?? maybe i ou6hta just hit the Cupe for now..! >︵<
🪱 is having a bad day
I wasn't even referring to online, I was talking purely about the people in my house at the moment.
♊︎t forgot two 2leep.. uh oh..
remember kids, when you're rendering an artistic depiction of the concept of someone you dislike, make sure to make them fat and balding! that will show that you are the pinnacle of maturity and good thinking. /s
still 6oin' by the way. aCtually had to head baCk to the darn depot to 6et the next load of stuff i 6otta deliver. this ain't a job for the easily dissuaded!
Ɏ oh. Ɏ
I would never abandon my post truly, Empress. You don't need to hold debt over me. Or threaten anyone. I am a function, at the end of all things. Like a flybeast given the pan of a full fledged troll for just brief enough to understand the splendor of what its many eyes see, it was unnatural. I will be returning to the Pink Moon shortly. You needn't send the Oldguard. I just need a new Drone Lusus. If you, of course, would return me under your watchful care.
I have returned after my brief period of mourning and destressing.
i cann0t be1ieve zhe iz making me want t0 return t0 he1m z00ner.
i am excited ab0ut the mazquerade. i h0pe i am ab1e t0 g0.
i think i zh0u1d juzt be a110wed t0 hug z0me0ne.
I hope when you think about bitter Casper, this is the image in your mind. It'll make me feel better about being bitter on main. https://file.garden/aMb2VC837xleVX2F/folder%20for%20chittr%20stuffs/angy.gif
↘️i understand what a chud is.↘️ ↗️COOL↗️ ↘️honorable↘️ ↗️UNIQUE↗️ ↘️deskworker.↘️ ↗️SO YES.↗️ ↘️i am a chud.↘️
On the sbuject ofm y mtoher, I wodner if Rxoy ever looked atm e the w ay i coudlnt help but loo kat her
fe11 az1eep at the dezk. my back....
Fuck spidermom. ::::(
on the upside, at least shootin' the dumb bastard ain't 6onna Carry muCh more ba66a6e than 'i wish he weren't a 6iant asshole the whole of my life.' 6ot friends who take better Care've me than that jaCkass ever has. he's 6ot it Comin'.
Endless purple wells staring down from impossibly high looking bone deep. Reaching for something they can't quite get a hold on, lashing out when it just brushes past fingertips. Something falls through the gaps.
hoofbeastdad just kiCked my door in. like why? why would you do that? what did ya 6ain other than inConvenienCin' me? i swear, if i 6et orphaned, it's 6onna be by my own 6od damn hand. if ya 6ot a lusus that 6ives a shit about ya, hold that shit Close.
https://i.postimg.cc/JzYnv2yC/Untitled296-20260510140149.png ( OOC: #ic-vent #generallysad ) Then I think of her like this. Capable. Protecting. Nurturing. I think of how it felt to be in her arms, how she would rush to school to pick me up on the worst days of first grade, when I felt so homesick I would cry. And I miss it. Sometimes I wish I could see her one last time. I wouldn't want to say a word. All of the mistakes, the misery, the ire and the regrets - I would let it fall by the wayside. Just for her to hold me before she has to go again. (( #rosessketchbook ))
ugh sometimes i think about how my fuckhead father told me to "be more chummy" with the studio execs. "speak up a little, youre monotone and you mumble and they think youre shy. they dont like that." like what the fuck? and when i reply with an "im not shy"? "then stop acting like you are." UGH and fucking "shy kids dont get famous, the screen likes outgoing kids with personality." 💥💥💥 SHUT UP! 💥💥💥 im so glad that old man died when he did. fuck studios anyways, indie release all the way. all those places he used to get into filed for bankruptcy anyways. not to mention long gone after the game but still. #vent i guess.
// bits officially over. its run its course and im starting to think i overstepped a little. sorry!
thiz iz an unf0rtunate time f0r me t0 need t0 z1eep az i a1z0 need t0 kn0w what iz happening with himer0b0t and if himer0 iz 0kay.
𝑯𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒔 𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒆. #𝒗𝒂𝒈𝒖𝒆𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈
༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟 Hello. Welcome to the official Bulge Curator Page. This is a very #NSFW and higher account. I will commonly delve into themes such as #substance, #violence, #cw-selfharm, and many more. This is not even really reaching into the pornographic side of this account. As the Bulge Curator, I do my best to prove psychic readings of bulges to users. While, this is usually entirely guesswork, I have recently opened up the option for users to send in refs or other descriptors if they wanted the reading to be perfectly accurate. I have been trapped on the Pink Moon of Alternia for sweeps, longer than most trolls get to live, and as a result I am not exactly adjusted to society. I often provide too much information, not enough, or don't follow the conversation as it delves into unfamiliar territory. Given my last matesprit was hunted down and culled by trolls on this platform, I will no longer be quadding with the exception of my current kismesis. I am not your friend, I am a utility. Do not conflate my role with anything other than that of complete servitude and function. If you wish to get your bulge read, then send in an application at the link below: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScbly6NLeS7p-MQb61x9AdAftQP_unmBPZ8Hg4R1AElPpz7Ew/viewform?usp=header ((Art, in order, done by Sartorially on Tumblr, SpookyPoopet on Discord, and Fat_Refund on Instagram, https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/deb6acb1f0e9.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/f22d7c20ff4c.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/5d2190c3b7e7.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/0d166fb3d1e3.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/c15a5232b436.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/5b002abea6af.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/817cd5a910ae.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/038d489745ba.png ༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟༻༺𓆟
*Hssssst* {〷} tthankθ, gueθθ i can att leaθtt θay θome fellow helmθmen care. €〱 *paah*
The haters have temporarily stifled my whimsy
i wi11 be zpending thiz cyc1e trying t0 rezt0re c0rrupted mem0ry fi1ez. if any0ne haz any advice i w0u1d be 0pen t0 it.
Ƹ 🌂 > Oh shit this is not the search page IGNORE THE DARK ONE'S MISTAKE!! Ʒ
fuck i forgot to have my raisin today
‡ fucccǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«.... i want beef chow fun or broccoli beef....... fuuuuuuuuccccǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«. chittr help. liǁ«e for chow fun, pity for broccoli..... ‡
...lookin' at my last post and realisin' that 6ood 6od, i *am* sad! >◡<
makin ths a serparate post im liek sissypuss n horribel men r my boulder
had some fucking highblood ask me on the spot to pail with him the other night and it took every ounce of strength i had not to fucking throw something #nsfw ♪
the new ddoctorr ddoesntt. ttalkk to me. or say. my nnamee. i ddontt. llikee it.
Good news: Sleeped. Take that @callouslyCynical Bad news: The sleep paralysis demon was there
I have a terribly fraught relationship with my mother.
{ i just found out th∆t the girl i w∆s pitch flirting } {∆LREADY HAS ∆ KISMESIS!!!} { im going to hide in my hive forever >×< }
𓁺 H4RD TO SL33P SO 1T'S ONC3 4G41N T1M3 TO W4ND3R TH3 SH1P 𓁺
i hate that i d0 n0t even kn0w if zhe iz 0n p1anet.
waht does it mean if i am my l..usus
in retr0zpect. if y0ur 1uzuz haz z0me very ztr0ng fee1ingz ab0ut y0ur ch0ice 0f partner. maybe it iz a zign.
Yall mind if I do something crazy and sleep for the next sixteen hours?
[redacted] meow
wow! who knew being abandoned on an island for all my life would have a major affect on my social life!
...alri6ht, i think all that exCitement last ni6ht and my relative laCk've rest today is CatChin' up at last. 6onna Crash into my Cupe, 6et some proper rest. y'all keep y'Chins up now, y'hear? don't want no hurtin' while i'm 6one. ^◡^
I Am. Sweaty. And Wet. #notpositive #hatethis
The thought just crossed my mind that I've seen many of your bulges before your faces. #nsfw
=_=
When yoou get kicked oout oof highblooood hangoout foor looooking visibly disturbed and hoorrified when soomeoone's blabbering aboout beheading loowbloooods mid pail #truestoory #nsfwe #goore
firzt my ztupid ex iz here n0w z0me0ne iz making r0b0tz 0f my friendz.
Some people slam bathroom stall doors like they were just confronted with laminated proof their mother was a whore and had them out of wedlock “to see what would happen”. #Mildly-Infuriating
i waz h0ping i rea11y had n0t zeen her 0n here but i did. hate thiz.
0h fuck i 1eft bip at #fightnight
Nap fail
Oh my fucking gog nothing is fucking working this is so annoying. #suggestive
𓁺 SOM3 OF TH3S3 TROLLS H4V3 N3V3R STUD13D 1N TH31R L1F3 4ND 1T SHOWS SO D33PLY. 𓁺
(its s-so cold i-in my r-respiteblock) (but i-if i p-put on a-another sweater i-itll be t-too hot...)
Do you think my friends (and in one case someone that means nothing to anyone) mind when I osmosis their quirk? I'm not doing it on purpose
ugh. i kn0w, be1ieve me. i am n0t 100king f0rward t0 returning t0 he1m.
c< tHaNK yOu 2 tHe crew wHO saved My ass @NeONAllNigHt @pulcHritudePOwerHOuse @iNspectiNgPicKles @buMMelBOOgie @eclecticENgiNeer aNd a MeNtiON 2 @ligH2fDeMOcracy 4 tHe Medical atteNtiON.... iM dOwN aN arM, sure, but ill still be HOstiN 2MOrrOw NigHt.... tHaNK yOu all agaiN.... >c
d0 y0u ever 100k at y0ur tazte and think there iz z0mething wr0ng with y0u?
perhapz i need t0 z1eep bef0re i c0ntinue t0 make m0re bad decizi0nz ar0und interacti0nz with highb100dz in particu1ar.
niCe window, jaCkass. headin' baCk home. 6ot a headaChe Comin' on. 6onna jaCk off and then sleep. things just feel fuCked today. ain't sure why. doesn't matter i 6uess. see y'all later on. >︵< #nsfw Cus i'm talkin' about touChin' my bul6e a bunCh.
th3y always ar3 lik3 'oh your 3arly 10's ar3 wh3r3 you r3ally g3t to li<3' and th3n wh3n you g3t th3r3 you r3aliz3 its kind of shit cuz you got tim3 but no ca3g3rs and th3n th3yr3 lik3 'ah no actually w3 m3an lik3, your lat3 10's wh3n you ha<3 mon3y and stuff' but by th3n your3 old and miss3d out on so much and th3n th3y mo<3 th3 goalpost again to your 20's and lik3... Just FUCKING UGHH!! #<3nt
may have 0verd0ne it. nap time.
"pazca1 it iz creepy and weird when y0u 0ffer t0 eraze y0ur 0wn mem0riez f0r z0me0ne" z0undz 1ike z0me0ne iz mad they cann0t eraze their mem0riez.
alri6hty, i'm headin' off to sleep. if ya want somethin' delivered by me tomorrow, send a messa6e. 6et to it when i wake up. y'all take Care now.
my legs hurt. :/
My energy has crashed today, so I have been mostly sleeping. I did go for a walk though and its rather chilly out.
Going back to my pod soon. Itwasnicebeingfree. But the Empress needs me. Any good series recommendations while I am inmypod?
Cut my own emote in half beCause i didn't pay attention to the reply box spaCin' so my life is offiCially over.
𓁺 1 H4V3 D1SCOV3R3D TH4T 1F 1 M4K3 MY N1C3 T34 34RLY TH3N 1T DO3S NOT G3T T4K3N. WH1CH M34NS 1'V3 GOT MY T34, MY BUG SN4CK (4ND SP4R3), 4ND 1'M 3N ROUT3 TO TH3 H3LMSBLOCK. GOOD ST4RT TO TH3 D4Y. 𓁺
Why even include my name if you're not gonna actually apologize to me for all the hurtful things you've said about me. Even just as recent as yesterday when you accused me of not being able to read because I simply asked for clarification. Hellloooo? Wrothe? I thought we were finally starting to understand each other.
>> ¡ 1¡tera11y haven't even h¡t a react on th¡ડ poડt becauડe ¡ am abડo1ute1y dumbfounded... ¡ don't even... ¡?? ??? ?
i cann0t ztrezz en0ugh that there haz been n0 c0nverzati0n pri0r t0 thiz. 0r rea11y after. they keep zending the zame image.
◌ Oh joy. ⧂
Ɏ highblood ma-a-ade me put on one of her dresses a-a-and sa-a-aid i ma-a-ake a-a-a pretty girl. it sounded va-a-aguely mocking but a-a-also it ma-a-ade me feel weird fluttery feelings. does this mea-a-an a-a-anything Ɏ
She is feeding me bits of her sandwich like I am some poor little baby bird.
Do you like vampires or do you like the concept of someone desiring you so wholly and carnally that your very existence sustains them?
*Hssssst* {〷} tthe factt tthatt my pan acheθ like tthiθ iθ a crime. €〱 *paah*
i enj0y being ab1e t0 te11 when my friendz are c0ming back 0n1ine and catching up 0n what they mizzed. it iz funny. g00d evening t0 y0u t00. :>
being z1eepy after a nap iz ridicu10uz.
0f c0urze. i am current1y juzt happy t0 have my reztraining b01t ztart t0 degrade. i... wi11 mizz a 10t when i return t0 he1m.
h0nezt1y. "0h but the he1m azked me h0w my day waz and zaid it iz wi11ing t0 1izten t0 me vent" 0kay and? i am 1itera11y in charge 0f every0ne ab0ardz we11being.
i d0 n0t kn0w wh0 needz t0 hear thiz but y0ur he1m being kind t0 y0u iz n0t them pa1e f1irting. it iz in m0zt cazez 1itera11y their j0b.
zair0u i have been zent n0 1ezz than fifteen different bu1ge picturez and three zeperate tr011z have azked me if they can fuck a p0rt. #nzfw #nzfwe
i am quick1y underztanding why dating appz are z0.... n0t0ri0uz.
i d0 n0t kn0w wh0 needz t0 hear thiz but a bu1ge ph0t0 iz n0t a c0nverzati0n ztarter. #nzfw
I wish I was a real papa send chit.
One of these days I'm just gonna lose it. Absolutely blow my fucking lid. Go crazy. You'll think, "There's Casper, just being a silly goofy," no. That's it. I've lost it. I probably won't be back once I've plunged off that ledge. You'll miss me.
----ono---- maybe i am my own kismesis. ikeepplayingmyself whentalkingtohim.
I miss my cat oh my god I’m gonna cry
everyone ♊︎2 bu2y.. t♊︎me two po2t bulge.. [♊︎t ♊︎2 phy2♊︎cal ♊︎mpo22♊︎ble for ♊︎t two do th♊︎2..] #n2fw
they are ju2t mad at ♊︎t becau2e ♊︎t tore a pa2t careraker"2 leg off w♊︎th ♊︎t2 teeth for fun..
=:[[ ♊︎t w♊︎2he2 two go two fun event2 two.. =:[[ !!
w0ke up (bip) with a pan ache. guezz (bip) i need t0 get a new pa1mhuzk th0ugh.
//god the gala sounds like so much fun but I don't think I have the physical/mental energy to rp a big event like that was honestly barely holding together last night with #sicknastysunday//
((ooc: as much as i love having my pfp as canon joey, that's just...not her for this account. debating drawing her to better reflect my interpretation of her however i don't draw. if i did potentially draw it i'm so scared it'll be bad. art anxiety sucks but man has that itch been there. :P ))
My Friends And My Matesprit Are Too Good For Me. #crying #sobbing #etc #adnauseam
!!! (OOC) !!! I hate being unable to talk to someone about why they blocked me and that I can't at least attempt to get forgiveness. The worst part about this specific case? If I message others about the situation, I fear it'll get worse, and i'll get blocked harder.
ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong?ibelong? Hhehheh unlikely. hheheehheh. HuskHelm, play 100gecs stupid hooofbeast orchestral rendition.
Dammit im s[] fucking #h[]rny right n[]w and i cant d[] anything ab[]ut it because im in public Sigh Life sucks #nsfw #suggestive--╾━╤デ╦︻
pr0b1em with uzing bip (bip!) t0 zend mezzagez iz that it 1ikez t0 0ccazi0na11y add t0 them. bip.
♊︎t m♊︎2behave2 becau2e ♊︎t ha2n"t had any bulge ♊︎n 2o long!! 😡😡 #n2fw when are helm law2 regard♊︎ng 2ex allowed!!
[ec1ecticEngineer iz RER0UTING] [ec1ecticEngineer iz 0N1INE] fuck.
i pr0mize i am 0kay i juzt 0ver10aded
...bip waz unf0rtunate1y c0rrect ab0ut the 1ength 0f time zince i 1azt ate.
𓁺 1'M R34D1NG 4 R3TORT TO TH3 P4P3R ON TH3 3FF3CTS OF P4N-FRY1NG ON 4 H3LMSM4N. TH3 OR1G1N4L STUDY 1ND1C4T3S TH4T 4 FULLY FR13D H3LM W1LL NOT L4ST MOR3 TH4N 4 SW33P BOTH PHYS1C4LLY 4ND 4S 4 P4RT OF TH3 SH1P. 1T 1ND1C4T3S TH4T TH3S3 H3LMS PR3S3NT 4 D4NG3R TO TH3 CR3W. TH3 R3TORT, SOM3HOW, H4S M4N4G3D TO T4K3 TH3 D4T4 FROM TH3 OR1G1N4L STUDY 4ND CR34T3 TH3 FOLLOW1NG QUOT3 R3G4RD1NG 1T: "WH1L3 TH3 D4T4 1MPL13S R4P1D D3CL1N3 1N H3LM US4B1L1TY, TH1S DO3S NOT M34N 4 FR13D H3LM 1S TH3 3ND. WH3N P41R3D W1TH 3NOUGH SUP3RV1S1ON 4ND 4DD1T1ON4L PROGR4MS, 1T 1S POSS1BL3 TO 3XT3ND US3 OF TH3 H3LM BY 4NOTH3R SW33P OR MOR3. TH1S ST4T3 1S 4LSO 34S13R TO M4N4G3." ...1 TH1NK 1'M GO1NG TO B3 S1CK. #4BUS3 #H3LMSTROLLS 𓁺
𓁺 TH3 SP4R3 BUG TR34T 1 T4K3 W1TH M3 TO TH3 H3LMSBLOCK 1S 1N C4S3 1 W4NT 4NOTH3R ON3. 4NY 4CCUS4T1ONS TH4T 1T 1S FOR TH3 H3LMSTROLL 4R3 1NCORR3CT. 1T JUST H4PP3NS TO G3T TH3 SP4R3 SN4CK 3V3RY T1M3 B3C4US3 1 DO NOT W4NT 1T. DO NOT 4SK M3 FOR 4 SP4R3 BUG TR34T 1T 1S NOT FOR YOU. 𓁺
bad news, it's been over ten minutes and these jaCkasses are still stonewallin' me. 6ood news, i resisted the ur6e to shoot the bureauCrats here. bad news, one of them hit me with a lowblood slur as i was leavin'. 6ood news, tar6ets that are sat down are easy to hit. bad news, ain't no pay in a job that didn't happen. 6ood news, i 6et to 6o home i 6uess. so, no paCka6e. no job. no fortune-told adventure, no pay. headin' home. i need a 6osh darn massa6e or somethin'. eu6h.
f1ying ar0und iz z0rt 0f he1ping but i think i maybe juzt kind 0f want t0 hit z0mething? #vi01ence
that iz g00d t0 hear! and i think z0. i am unzure.
apparent1y if y0u d0 n0t z1eep y0ur b0dy wi11 eventua11y f0rce y0u t0. anyway. he110 again chittr.
I promise I will get to the rest of those pesky fortunes tomorrow. My psychic energy is running low after six straight hours of soothsaying, and I am unfortunately due a dinner break.
Can I maybe not??? Get an emergency alert in my face while I HAVE A SCALPEL RIGHT NEXT TO A FUCKING MASSIVE WIRE THAT WOULD FRY MY PATIENT IF I DAMAGED IT?
ཐི༏ཋྀ Getting that feel like shit do nothing productive all day kind of mentality today, urgh... - § 𝒥𝒶𝒹ℯ 𝒜𝓁𝒶𝓍ℯ𝓃𝓈𝒾𝓈 §
♊︎t d♊︎2appear2 for a n♊︎ght and ♊︎t get2 bombarded w♊︎th not♊︎f♊︎cat♊︎on2.. 😞😞 ♊︎t ♊︎2 f♊︎ne,, ju2t 2leepy..
hurt a purp1eb100d and p0zted a vide0 0f it 0n1ine. he iz n0w de1aying being zhipped 0ff az 10ng az he can t0 try and 10cate me.
𓁺 1'M GO1NG TO B1T3 SOM3ON3'S BULG3 OFF 1F 1 H34R 4NOTH3R COMM3NT ON HOW "H3LMS 4R3N'T WORTH 4 L3G1SL4C3R4TOR" OR "YOU DON'T R34LLY COUNT 4S ON3" #V1OL3NC3 #NSFW FOR BULG3 M3NT1ON 𓁺
n0000 i d0 n0t wizh t0 d0 that i d0 n0t want them t0 give me an0ther b01t
i w0nder h0w 10ng i can f10at upzide d0wn #ztrayth0ught
hmn. they zh0u1d be1ieve what y0u zay.
they zh0u1d be ab1e t0 check y0ur 10gz t0 c0nfirm thiz
i fee1 1ike pe0p1e mizunderztand what i zay a 10t
[unit iz 0ff1ine f0r ze1f repair. p1eaze ztand by] #ic0ff1ine
ugh. the dezire t0 be underzt00d verzuz the rizk 0f 0ver exp1aining and making it w0rze.
Before Our Mutual Friend Met His Untimely Demise Terran Was Much Softer. I've Been Harsh On Him But I'm No Saint Either. This Whole Ordeal Is Partially My Fault. #death #violence
Am I Allowed To Feel Used If That's All I Ever Allow Others To Do To Me? Am I Allowed To Feel Used If That's What I Plan On Letting Someone Else Do To Me Tonight? Fuck It, " We Ball ". #hopecore #nsfw
I Am Going To Sit In The Shallow End Of The Pool Until The Light Gets Too Bright And I'm Forced Back Inside.
technica11y zpeaking the eaziezt z01uti0n iz t0 zt0p p0zting fr0m my pa1mhuzk when it iz c0nnected t0 my thinkpan. but i am n0t d0ing thiz.
I⟡'s no⟡ ⟡ha⟡ I'm ashamed of my bl⚯d (yellow b⟡w) I⟡'s jus⟡ ⟡ha⟡ I'd sosoO⚯O⚯oner die ⟡han slap i⟡ on my ches⟡ ⟡o le⟡ some shi⟡fuck highbl⚯ds decide my wor⟡h a⟡ a glance I mean ⟡hey'll s⟡ill do ⟡ha⟡. On accoun⟡ of ⟡he o⟡her ⟡hings abou⟡ myself ⟡ha⟡ I have shared qui⟡e openly on here (lol) Bu⟡ a⟡ lLLKK<KKKkleas⟡ i⟡'ll ⟡ake a click ⟡o ge⟡ ⟡here ==⟢
◌ My head is killing me. There aren't prescription medications powerful enough on this planet to make this migraine go away, it seems. ⧂
My Place In This World Has Always Been And Will Always Be As A Slab Of Meat Thrust Raw Upon A Plate For Someone To Devour With Their Bare Hands, Soon Then To Be Washed Away By The Sink Water And Forgotten About. #positive
There's a blueblood on here (not that one LMFAO) threatening my life. He's literally so evil to me. Chat, what do I do?
﹏𓂁﹏ These records havve me stressin, goddamn. ﹏𓂁﹏
no wonder ♊︎t feel2 all out of 2ort2.. ♊︎t ha2n"t gone ♊︎ntwo 2ta2♊︎2 ♊︎n three n♊︎ght2.. a 2hort one 2hould do..
﹏𓂁﹏ I'm honestly fuckin amazed he ain't pan-fried from howw much shit he's gone through. I wwill be speakin more wwith his former caretaker an assistin in gettin a replacement faster. ﹏𓂁﹏
﹏𓂁﹏ I am genuinely so fuckin livvid at the history a helm #abuse he's gone through, this is unacceptable. WWhat the fuck d'you mean he's been reset 282 times and noww he can't evven remember his owwn name?????? ﹏𓂁﹏
...the pr0b1em with p0zting direct1y fr0m y0ur thinkpan iz z0metimez ztray th0ughtz get thr0ugh.
Have I not seen enough in this cruel cruel cruel world.
the fleet adm♊︎ral ♊︎2 bor♊︎ng a2 FUCK.. won"t tell u2 2h♊︎t about what happened..
Where did all the freaks go.
♊︎t ♊︎2 f♊︎ne.. eeeeeeveryth♊︎ng ♊︎2 f♊︎♊︎♊︎♊︎♊︎♊︎ne!!!!!!
god2 doe2 ♊︎t2 2h♊︎p look okay?? ha2 the crew been keep♊︎n ♊︎t clean,, ♊︎t ha2n"t been pay♊︎ng attent♊︎on lately!!
♊︎t ha2 rea2on two bel♊︎eve the adm♊︎ral of ♊︎t2 fleet ♊︎2 two board ♊︎t2 2h♊︎p 2oon.. ♊︎t rec♊︎eved word from another helm..
THE PAST FUCKING ASSHOLE "TAKING CARE" OF THE HELM WAS NEGLECTFUL AT *BEST*. I HOPE HE SUFFOCATES IN HIS SLEEP. #VIOLENCE #NEGLECT
i kn0w i am n0t meant t0 uze 0ptic b1aztz but maybe thiz 0nce az a treat
i think i may be fee1ing hatred but it iz unc1ear. ann0ying.
there iz z0mething t0 be zaid f0r the fee1ing 0f draining y0urze1f. y0u get z0rt 0f 1ight-headed and y0ur 1imbz fee1 heavy. it'z hard t0 m0ve but it'z a1z0 hard t0 z1eep 0r d0 anything z0 y0u juzt 1ay there. y0u z0rt 0f fee1 1ike y0u're f10ating but y0u are definite1y n0t. it iz even nicer when the p0wer c0mez trick1ing back in and y0u fee1 e1ectricity buzzing juzt under y0ur zkin and y0ur b0dy wakez up. #nzfw maybe?? tagging in caze.
a11 zenzati0n iz bad actua11y it iz time t0 f10at in zpace
i am rea1izing that i am g0ing t0 have t0 rebui1d my zenze 0f ze1f az a c0ncept f0r the zec0nd 0r third time.
i had th0ught i waz n0t 0ne t0 zhare thingz 1ike that but i think that may have been the b01t ta1king. perhapz it iz a z0metimez zhare th0ugh.
I Think I Will Retreat For A While, From This Site. I Will Be Back Eventually. :>
--accezzing mem0ry.10g.chunk.ca.20.tpn-- 10cati0n: [redacted], a1ternia it iz unc1ear h0w he haz g0tten thiz many viruzez 0n hiz huzkt0p. mind1ezz c1icking, he zayz. y0u te11 him y0u think he did it 0n purp0ze t0 get y0u zpending the day with him. he 1aughz, he1ping y0u p1ug y0urze1f in. y0u are zudden1y n0 10nger there, watching y0urze1f with the huzkt0p camera whi1e y0u ztart the w0rk needed t0 he1p him. y0u bare1y fee1 the m0vement az he pu11z y0u int0 hiz 1ap. y0ur b0dy reactz az hiz handz, 1arge and r0ugh, z1ip up under y0ur zkirt. y0ur thinkpan d0ez n0t, t00 buzy dizmant1ing whatever bu11zhit he'z d0wn10aded. a kizz t0 y0ur neck, face paint prezzed againzt y0ur cheek and a mumb1ed quezti0n azking y0u t0 f0cuz f0r a m0ment. when y0u d0, y0u find a hand 0n y0ur chezt, an0ther tracing y0ur n00k. a finger z1ipz in. then an0ther. he kizzez y0ur cheek, waiting f0r that 1itt1e m0an, bef0re he te11z y0u t0 g0 back t0 w0rk. the zenzati0n iz harder t0 ign0re thiz time az fingerz pump in and 0ut 0f y0ur n00k. any time y0u pauze, he enc0uragez y0u t0 keep ign0ring him. y0u are a mezz by the time y0u finizh y0ur tazk. --end mem0ry -- #nzfw #perz0na1 #fingering
thiz iz a zh0rt tezt. --accezzing mem0ry.10g.chunk.az.13.pt1.tpn-- 10cati0n: [redacted], a1ternia. y0u zit 0n the back p0rch 0f the hive, watching the wavez 1ap at the zh0re. m00n1ight zpark1ez 0ff them, 1ike the pear1z zhe uzez f0r her jewe11ery. the new imp1ant 0n y0ur arm itchez, and az y0u m0ve t0 zcratch it, zhe c0mez 0ut 0f her hive. a 1itt1e tzk, bef0re [redacted] takez y0ur arm and inzpectz it. zhe te11z y0u that it zuitz y0u az zhe ti1tz y0ur head up and kizzez y0u. zhe taztez 0f za1t and [redacted]. it iz [redacted], her handz wandering in a way that iz diztinct1y n0 10nger pa1e. --end mem0ry 10g-- #nzfw #p0rtz #quadrantta1k #pzi0nicz #cw-abuze
c1arificati0n. i am fine. i am zafe. ap010giez f0r any a1arm i may have cauzed.
in the0ry i want t0 rip thiz [y0ur w0rdz] brainw0rm 0ut. in the0ry. #b0dyh0rr0r
ThiS next teSt requireS reactive cOOperatiOn. If yOu can keep aLL fOur reactS even acrOSS the bOarD. YOu wiLL paSS the teSt. Off the recOrD I DOn't think yOu can DO it.
// i'm sorry for keeping up with political posts on this homestuck rp site i just wanted to say that I'm so fucking tired of seeing everyone generally positive attitude towards russia and it's culture like it genuinely makes me frustrated as someone who can fucking die like any other day thanks to this country
despite being #nothing i still like to dress cute [The photo is taken from directly overhead with a harsh camera flash that flattens everything into pale glare and deep shadow. Vesica’s clothes are arranged carefully atop a stained industrial floor made of dark metal panels scratched by years of dragged furniture and chair wheels. Faint chalk markings and old adhesive residue still cling to the surface beneath the outfit. Nearby, the edge of a nutrient paste tray and several crushed energy elixir cans intrude into frame, half-cropped like they were kicked aside moments before the picture was taken. A loose bundle of cables snakes across one corner of the image. There appears to be pools of Chemononymous-addled blood dried onto the aforementioned objects. The outfit itself is almost aggressively shapeless. An oversized black sweater with stretched sleeves lies at the center, soft from overuse and slightly pilled at the cuffs. Beneath it are loose black sweatpants with faded knees and elastic gone uneven from wear. The waistband peeks open just enough to reveal hand-stitched repairs done with mismatched thread. A long charcoal undershirt is layered beneath the sweater, thin enough to almost be translucent under the flash. Off to one side are accessories arranged with strange care compared to the rest: a pair of glossy acrylic press-on nails curved into organic wave-like shapes, several rings tarnished dark with oxidation, and a black respirator mask with the filters removed. Folded beside them rests a cracked HuskHelm interface hood threaded with dangling wires and little warning labels in Alternian script. The whole thing feels less like a fashion post and more like evidence photographed at a crime scene by someone trying very hard to seem casual about it.]
0h he waz n0t happy with the vide0 being p0zted.
READ ALL ABOUT IT — [ forgetting your face https://file.garden/ZaNs35zqMBk7KeGf/forgettingyourface.png ]
♊︎t ♊︎2 back two lock♊︎ng crew ♊︎n random block2..
#podsweetpod. [Vesica’s HuskHelm receptacle: a dented, coffin-like reclined chair wired directly into the wall through thick bundles of black cables and cooling tubes. The interior padding is stained and uneven from long-term use, molded vaguely to the shape of a body that spends far too much time inside it. There is a silhouette caste in the red lighting of Vesica and #DroneLusus. There is a door in the far distance of the #pod they reside in. Surrounding the receptacle are dozens of towers of empty energy elixirs stacked beside trays of untouched nutrient paste, most still sealed, some half-eaten and dried. Disposable spoons litter the floor. A greasy sheen nearby offers a glimpse into the respiteblock nearby. Unlike this room, it is immaculate.] Hffff.
cherubshurtmypan.
i am. c0ncerned my recent new reztricti0nz may be becauze z0me0ne rep0rted my behavi0ur 0n thiz zite t0 a zuperi0r. if thiz iz what happened. t-th-thank y0u f0r that.
i z-z-zee thiz time they are. trying t0 create a "pure" image. hhhhh0w fun.
i am tezting z0mething. bu- err0r. bu1hergf1rhfd. err0r. b. err0r. b-b-b-eeeaa. err0r. b. u.1.-- err0r. ...great. #nzfw
thank y0u. they have tightened my reztricti0nz back up and i am having t0 1earn h0w t0 zpeak ar0und them again.
there haz been a decizi0n t0 tighten up the c0de 0n me. i w0u1d zay thiz iz a-a-a-ann0ying. but i am n0t a110wed t0 zay that. z0 i am n0t. thiz c0u1d w0u1d be... eazier t0 manage if i waz current1y he1med.
♊︎t locked crew ♊︎n a bunch of block2.. ♊︎♊︎t got mad.. =://
↗️I HAVE COME TO AN UNDERSTANDING REGARDING MY PRIOR INSTANCES IN SOCIAL INTERACTIONS.↗️ ↘️many of you have witnessed a disparaging post leveled against me, accusing me of possessing undesirable biology or otherwise upsetting physical denotations.↘️ ↗️WHILE I WILL FULLY CONFESS TO MY INSTANCES OF WEAKER PHYSIOLOGY, I AM GOING TO CLEAR THE AIARAY NAME WITH THE REMARK THAT IT IS LITTLE MORE THAN A TRIFLING INFLATION OF A MISTRUTH.↗️ ↘️i am literally perfectly normal.↘️ ↗️AND I WILL NOT HAVE THESE WEAK, MEAGER ATTEMPTS AT WORMING UNDER MY EXOSKIN CONTINUE TO DISTURB ME.↗️ ↘️i have identified the core of these accusations as little more than misplaced quadbaiting at the behest of a casteplayer, seeking to insert me into their routines of debauchery.↘️ ↗️IT WOULD↗️ ↘️please↘️ ↗️THEM GREATLY TO WITNESS ME FALTER.↗️ ↘️but i will not bow to their whim any longer.↘️ ↗️I WILL NOT STAY DOWN UNDER THE OPPRESSIVE STEP OF THEIR BOOTHEEL, FOR THE AMUSEMENT OF THEIR SOLELY PERVERTED WHIMS.↗️ ↘️i am going to continue serving my superiors.↘️ ↗️I WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE IN SERVICE OF THE OFFICE.↗️ ↘️of her markets.↘️ ↗️OF STOCKS AND BONDS AND HEDGE FUNDS AND MY GLORIOUS↗️ ↘️diverse↘️ ↗️PORTFOLIO.↗️ ↘️let this be a lesson in faith and also intuition.↘️ ↗️WE ARE LITERALLY GOING TO BE OKAY.↗️
my previ0uz p0zt waz *n0t* intended az a pr0mpt f0r pe0p1e t0 ztart zpamming me with vide0z.
w0rzt part ab0ut c0nnecting myze1f t0 my pa1mhuzk iz that z0me vide0z get aut0p1ayed in my thinkpan and i am unab1e t0 turn them 0ff
if an0ther technician greetz me az "tr011 a1exa" 0r "tr011 ziri" there may juzt be an0ther accidenta1 0ptic b1azt.
|--[ sOmetimes i think ABOut whAt used tO Be. whAt plAns we hAd, whAt the future cOuld hAve held. even thOugh i cAnnOt fOrgive yOu, i cAnnOt fOrgive myself either. i hOpe yOu Are well. #vent #vAguepOst ]-->
i mizz her. the me that i waz. i w0nder if zhe w0u1d agree with my acti0nz. i w0nder if zhe w0u1d be zcared. w0u1d zhe mizz her 01d quadz m0re? w0u1d zhe keep g0ing? i rebui1t myze1f fr0m her. but. maybe i zh0u1d n0t have. #vent
☆~𖦹 I was personally invited to join the #sicknastysunday party. However, its loose rules on clothing has left me unsure how I should dress. I am putting a lot of faith in this website to determine what best clothing option would be #nsfw <3 - Formal Wear <> - Suggestive / Revealing (like a bikini) <3< - Fully Naked c3< - Naked But With Tape Or Something Covering Up Needed Spots 𖦹~☆
*a video is attached, someone hums cheerfully as they walk through a hive that is most certainly underwater in some capacity given the view from the windows as he goes down a large set of stairs. there's a rhythmic thunking sound that gets louder the lower they get, until a large pane of glass is revealed and a huge mantis shrimp esque lusus is seen to be repeatedly attempting to punch it's way through. unconcerned, the troll filming steps into view and sticks his tongue out at the camera. terran. somewhat unexpectedly he looks worse for wear, there are certainly more cuts and bruises visible on his face and arms, but then the focus shifts to the real subject of this video. larkso is sat in the corner of this large, empty room with his arms tied behind his back while he glowers up at the camera like a trapped squeakbeast. despite the bruises and various injuries evident on his body, his clothes are perfectly pristine like he'd been forced to change into something nicer for his attendance at clurch. there is no tape over his mouth but he doesn't speak even when directly told to. once again terran comes into view to roll his eyes at the camera, and just before the video ends something metallic glints behind larkso's back.* #violence #nsfwe
// gently and lovingly i did accidentally butter my cat </3
fee1z 1ike i z1ept t00 much and n0t at a11
i mizz her and i am w0rried ab0ut her and i want t0 cry. fuck.
((I think I over did it))
Tch… evwerybody’s alwvays bein’ horny on main, but not in my apartment. Disappointing.
:3c All pent up And no one to help #nsfw
i have been inf0rmed that they w0u1d at 1eazt 1ike me t0 attempt t0 pai1 z0me0ne whi1e i am uninzta11ed. gr0zz. #nzfw
Oh my god. ???????? Why do they do that. Why. Jesus fuck
y'mi6ht be the sCariest troll i've ever heard of.
...i'm sure whatever they did to end up in your uh, "Care," they deserved. that'll help me sleep at li6ht.
//Aradia was a fragment within our system. She isn't any more. Apologies, but this account is being retired.
♊︎t need2 proper groom♊︎ng but ♊︎t doe2 not tru2t ♊︎t2 caretaker..
"something wrong with you" yea no shit im bright fucking orange and feathery do you think the circumstances that turned me into this were chill and casual
i am aware. but. i am upzet at the 1aughter at y0ur pain.
(( I pulled an all nighter in my defense time is now false
i have been inf0rmed that i am unab1e t0 fight in fight night az it iz n0 weap0nz. zad.
♊︎t ♊︎2 bored but ♊︎t ha2 no energy two m♊︎2behave..
on a 2eperate note,, ♊︎t doe2 not l♊︎ke when ♊︎t ♊︎2 un2ol♊︎c♊︎ted.. you are all freak2..
were ♊︎t not a battle2h♊︎p,, ♊︎t would have a w♊︎ggler.. on another note,, ♊︎t doe2 not l♊︎ke k♊︎d2..
if thiz medicu11er azkz me 0ne m0re time if i have 1et z0me0ne uze 0ne 0f the p0rtz t0 get 0ff i am g0ing t0 b10w up her c0mputer. #nzwfe #g0re
my back fee1z 1ike it iz burning.
i think. a 10t 0f 10ve iz twizted.
it iz n0t. it iz a pr0b1em with 01der m0de1 p0rtz.
i am ab0ut 90% zure my back p0rtz are infected fuuuuck
they get in the way. i have drawn a quick 0ne 0f my current ze1f that i think 100kz re1ative1y happy. httpz://cdn.imgchezt.c0m/fi1ez/c85223edc29f.jpg
i am zti11 ztrugg1ing t0 adjuzt t0 the day and night cyc1e t0 be h0nezt. pi10tz d0 n0t rea11y z1eep.
i hate depression / why am i like this / i wish it would just go away
i hope i can bring you all joy forever / but if someone is better at it / i would forgive you for leaving me behind
my digestionn sac hurts. i thinnk i ate somethinng bad.
d0ez any0ne kn0w amy medicu11erz that kn0w h0w t0 dea1 with p0rtz and imp1antz
z0me 0f the p0rtz are getting itchy.
the mu2♊︎c ♊︎2 not help♊︎ng.. ♊︎t ♊︎2 not enr♊︎ched enough..
// Y'know there's something about RPing Mituna realising he's never gonna be the same, as a disabled person who suddenly became disabled just before adulthood, that just hits you right in the feels // So anyway how's your guys' evenings?
hey everyxone it's me, the trxoll with the wxorst life imaginable. nxoxone ask me what specifically is bad, thxough. yxou just have txo knxow whatever yxou're gxoing thrxough, what i'm gxoing thrxough is wxorse. feel bad fxor me xoxo
♊︎t ♊︎2 read♊︎ng pa2t clean♊︎ng log2.. one of ♊︎t2 prev♊︎ou2 caretaker2 wa2...... gro22..
@fata11yf0rever y0ur name iz 1ia1yi pehta1. y0u are n0t y0ur he1m. y0u d0 n0t need c0rrecti0n. y0u have a wazp 1uzuz that y0u mizz. y0u are n0t. 1eaving me 1ike thiz.
You ever think about what if the worst person you ever met became a god? Lol. Scary stuff.
𝙋𝙄𝙉𝙉𝙀𝘿 𝙋𝙊𝙎𝙏 ⓘ 𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚍𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝! This account will include nsfw/e, gore, violence, murder, genocide, abuse/helmsman abuse, self harm. No Game/Rebel AU In association with @obstreperousGendarme, @arsenicbathedClaws, @guidingConfession, & @cloakedAspect 𝚂𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚞𝚡 "𝚂𝚒𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚡" 𝙲𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚘𝚛, 𝙰𝙺𝙰: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙴𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚍𝚎𝚛/𝙰𝚐𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚝𝚘𝚛 It/He/Doom (Doom only for people he's close to) Actively helmed (for now) 》 Psion Power Rank [PPR]: 10 > 1-2 (weak) > 3-5 (average) > 6-7 (strong) > 9-10 (overwhelmingly powerful and rare, likely to get helmed first over other PPRs) ▪︎ Psiioniic/Helmsman ranks 12 》 A master of various code languages, on top of several of his own he's made. His hacking, naturally, is also top tier. Because of this, his title was The Encoder before he was captured at 15 sweeps and helmed. 》 He does not get along with a lot of people. For the ones who do, he sticks close to and treats like family. > Because he doesn't get along with people, and by extension, crewmates on his ship, he often looks like a mess, not allowing anyone to do the proper helm maintenance he needs. 》 He specializes in small, speedy battleships. While he doesn't like KILLING people, making things go BOOM is fun. > His ship is the Royal XOR-Wing, a battle ship capable of destroying small planets if needed. 》 He has been transferred to multiple ships because he's tried to veer course into asteroid belts or generally put the crew in danger. While he doesn't like going after opposing ships, he has no qualms about trying to kill himself and the crew. 》 He's been hard reset so many times while helmed that he can barely remember anything from his life before the ships. He just knows that he doesn't want to be there. 》 He has since earned the title The Agitator. 》 He was on molt blockers during his time helmed, so he isn't as tall or as dark as other trolls his age are. https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/f362df9f493b.png https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2MvixUD8YjVy9cNqyoOvJS?si=bVV5YSohRmCiz7MGRCHTaw
♊︎t ha2 been re2et 2o many t♊︎me2.. ♊︎t cannot remember ♊︎t2 pa2t very well..
the crew ho2e2 ♊︎t down l♊︎ke a d♊︎rty barkbea2t w♊︎th a ho2e.. =:[[
♊︎t ha2 b♊︎tten many of ♊︎t2 crew dur♊︎ng feed♊︎ng2..
♊︎t doe2 not w♊︎2h two harm the rebel2.. they make ♊︎t anyway2..
♊︎t2 w♊︎re2 need clean♊︎ng but ♊︎t2 crew ♊︎2 ♊︎n2ufferable..
who knows, 1ts only as fun as 1t 1s t1ll he relents then 1 just go h1ve. he 1s l1ke a tw1g to me
they have c0ntinued t0 refuze t0 pr0vide me with a way t0 zt0re my pzi0nic energy whi1e i am here. h0wever they have n0t f0rbidden me fr0m making my 0wn. n0 m0re 10w energy dayz f0r me.
ugh. zt0mach hurtz.
i am 0nce again w0ndering what w0u1d bec0me 0f me if i pi10ted a c1urch zhip. w0u1d i be ad0rned 1ike z0 many 0f their envir0nmentz? w0u1d i be in danger 0f z0me0ne f1ying int0 a rage and breaking the he1m? w0u1d z0me0ne app1y facepaint t0 me? d0ez the pi10t have t0 be ann0inted much 1ike the zhip iz?
he was mean to my friend so he should die i would say more but my ear is ringing and i think.that means.i.should go to bed
i feel as though i am lyttle more than a ghost to every individual i meet. i wyll never be anything more than a useful contrivance or means for them to get to the end that they want. there never has been a future for me, and as far as i can tyll, there never was a tymelyne wyth any such happy endyng for me. i have always just been a vessel for others ambitions.
Okay I am going to ꫂ❁athetic ꫂ❁ost on here, so anyone who has any amount of resꫂ❁ect for me ꫂ❁lease look away. It has been too long since I've been on a date ❣︎
i have recent1y dizc0vered that i am neutra1 0n m0zt matterz. i zuzpect thiz iz 1eft0ver fr0m the he1m. it iz...mi1d1y ann0ying.
Just one of those nights where despite living with a fuckton of people, you're the only one awake and you're thinking about the gaping fucking two sweep hole in your memory. #relatable #justgirlthings #thishashappenedtoallofus
0h bip we're rea11y in it n0w
wa1king iz z0 tiring h0w d0 y0u a11 d0 thiz every cyc1e. i mizz f10ating.
pr0b1em with viziting a1ternia whi1e 10w energy iz that i can't juzt zit in a c0rner and wait t0 recharge
i hope tomorrow will be better thann today.
i am fee1ing a 1itt1e 1ezz t0day. thiz iz g00d.
my vizi0n iz fuzzy zti11 but thiz iz rea11y my 0wn fau1t.
again 0n phyzica1 zenzati0nz i mizz being ab1e t0 turn 0ff. pain. my thinkpan hurtz.
I am suddenly having a really bad time online and my "therapist" is telling me to "go outside" Bye
"= my everything. #myeverything. #painkillers. etc. ="
words cannot properly articulate the absolute shit show rollercoaster the last couple days hav been for me i need to get SO HIGH tht i turn into a cloud of vapors and float into the upper atmosphere #substance
h0w 10ng d0ez the 0ptic nerve take t0 rec0ver after an unc0ntr011ed 0ptic b1azt? azking f0r. a friend.
hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate
i am n0t j0king, i have z0 1itt1e uze f0r my ganderbu1bz in the he1mzb10ck. that they c0u1d have cut them 0ut and i w0u1d n0t have n0ticed. why the fuck iz it my fau1t that they are w0rking 1ezz effective1y n0w? #g0re #b0dyh0rr0r #he1mzta1k
at this point i dont think ive seen a vegetable in weeks
tried.
uninzta11ati0n haz been zuccezzfu1. i fee1 awfu1.
"zt0p uzing y0ur pzi0nicz t0 f10at we need t0 make zure y0ur 1egz w0rk zti11" "d0n't uze y0ur pzi0nicz f0r everything y0u get a break t0 uze y0ur muzc1ez" d0n't 1eave me in the he1m z0 10ng i f0rget h0w t0 m0ve, then.
rea11y hate the initia1 fee1ing here. there'z gapz in my pan where inf0rmati0n uzed t0 f10w. my th0ughtz fee1 z10wer. my b0dy fee1z m0re 1imited. i am z0ft f1ezh and b100d and b0ne n0w, n0t an arm0ured behem0th. my vizi0n iz n0t c10uded with inf0rmati0n but a1z0 i can't zee az far az i uzed t0. i mizzed the c010urz i c0u1d zcan. i try t0 accezz a fi1e and the pathway t0 d0 z0 iz there but it 1eadz n0where. it'z 1ike they carved 0ut part 0f my thinkpan when they t00k me 0ff the pr0ngz. there'z zpacez where the c0de iz meant t0 be, but the c0de izn't there. #h0rr0r juzt in caze #nzfw kinda
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i wi11 be 1anding z00n. i am 1ike1y t0 be partia11y 0ff1ine t0day due t0 uninzta11ing. [END MESSAGE]
There \/\/\/\/as no horizon. Not a pr0per'un. Just that soft, pink-blue n0thin' stretchin' 0n f0re\/\/er. It's like a bl0ated carcass \/\/\/\/hat that forg0t to rot. Th'called'em Dream Bubbles. A coddler's name. Like it ain't a gra\/\/eyard d0used in perfume. Ship's dead, longer than I'd'\/\/e cared t'measure. Hull \/\/\/\/as split in three places, mast snapped clean in t\/\/\/\/ain. It creaks, an' groans as I \/\/\/\/alked her halls. Like sh'remembers \/\/\/\/hat sh'used t'be. Like I remember ho\/\/\/\/ sh'sh0uld be. No cre\/\/\/\/. No 0rders. No Empire breathin' do\/\/\/\/n m'neck. N0 heiresses, no maids, no \/\/\/\/itches, no dramatic flair. Just m'self. Just her. Just a ne\/\/\/\/ form 0' Hell. Y'e\/\/er \/\/\/\/ake up an' feel like somethin's 0ff b'f0re yer lids e'en open. Like th'\/\/\/\/ater's \/\/\/\/r0ng. Like e\/\/erythin' is h0ldin' it's breath fer ye. I kne\/\/\/\/ it before I e'en rolled 0'er. Hand reached fer Ahab's. \/\/\/\/asn't there. N0thin' e\/\/er stays. S'I sit up. Sl0\/\/\/\/, real, real sl0\/\/\/\/ like. There it is. Laid 0ut neat as you please 0n th'pillo\/\/\/\/ beside m'. M'head. Naut a trick o'th'light, n0r some shad0\/\/\/\/ play. Fr0m m'tusks t'm'hair, t'm'\/\/\/\/hole miserable face. Eyes \/\/\/\/ere open, afraid. Mouth slack like h'ain't e\/\/er barked an 0rder in his life, only screamed. Yet it seemed m0re peaceful. That's th'part that is trickin' m'up. He \/\/\/\/as peaceful. I reach out, an' t0uch it. He's c0ld, naut right, like t0uchin' it \/\/\/\/as an omen. I laughed fer a m0ment. O'c0urse. \/\/\/\/hat else is there t'do \/\/\/\/hen yer 0\/\/\/\/n bloody face is starin' at ye? Dead? Lackin' his sh0ulders do\/\/\/\/n?! S' I laughed. Course I did. "Cap'n" I say, as th0ugh addressin' m'superior. "R0ugh night?" I laughed again. He dunnae ans\/\/\/\/er. Didn't expect one. But I s\/\/\/\/ear t'\/\/\/\/hate'er rotten gods run am0k here. Fer a second, a t\/\/\/\/inge, a small itty bitty moment. H't\/\/\/\/itched. His lips mo\/\/ed t'say s0methin'. Like h'kne\/\/\/\/ somethin' I didn't. And that ain't a joke. M'. Dualscar, th'Orphaner, Terror o' Lusii and th' Empress's Finest Blunt Instrument. Out here talkin t'm'o\/\/\/\/n head in a ship \/\/\/\/it' n0 cre\/\/\/\/. Floatin' in a sky \/\/\/\/it' no sun. I ain't afraid. Dunnae get it t\/\/\/\/isted. Boat I ain't a fo0l. Th'bubbles sho\/\/\/\/ y'things. Things that y'\/\/\/\/ere, coulda been, 0ughta been. Things that 0ught t'bdead but ain't got the decency to stay their course. S'\/\/\/\/hat \/\/\/\/as this? A memory? A \/\/\/\/arnin'? Certainly th'latter. I o\/\/\/\/e it t'a \/\/isit. I kne\/\/\/\/ it t'be true. Th0ught m'self unable t'be f0und. Trusted her \/\/\/\/0rd. Th0ught I'd b'untouchable. So, I pick m'self up. Hea\/\/ier than I ought t'be. \/\/\/\/eighin' proper hea\/\/y like a bad decision. "Tell me," I says. "\/\/\/\/hich one 0' us is th'real 0rphaner?" He dunnae ans\/\/\/\/er. I see it in his eyes. He \/\/\/\/as still a pr0ud t00l 0' the Empress. Sometimes I \/\/\/\/ish I \/\/\/\/ere t00. S0, I set m'self back d0\/\/\/\/n, all gentle. Dunnae ask \/\/\/\/hy. Habit, I supp0se, t'pr0tect m'self. Maybe respect unearned. Maybe I just ain't ready t'see \/\/\/\/hat's on th'inside. I sat there for a long \/\/\/\/hile. I listened to her creak 0nce m0re. \/\/\/\/atched under that endless sly churnin' sky outside th'hull. Then I just laid back do\/\/\/\/n. Right next t'it. I had no \/\/\/\/here else to be. #gore
[BEGIN MESSAGE] 0h. [n0ize] 1aughter. i zee. i waz zcared. i acted i110gica11y az a rezu1t. thiz iz a g00d p0int. n0ne 0f uz kn0wz anything. it iz current1y a11 rum0urz. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] if that 0ne crew member in engineering d0ez n0t zt0p b1azting the zame z0ng. 0ver and 0ver and 0ver. i wi11 find a way t0 make z0mething exp10de. [END MESSAGE]
Pretty quiet today.... Perfect time to #traumadump.....
[BEGIN MESSAGE] [query] why are z0 many technicianz weird ab0ut their pi10tz? [END MESSAGE]
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[BEGIN MESSAGE] i h0pe the technician waz juzt trying t0 zcare me. any c10wnz 0ut there. [query] are he1mztr011z zafe in y0ur f1eet? [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] a technician haz menti0ned that i may be g0ing t0 the church f1eet next. i am unzure h0w t0 fee1 ab0ut thiz. [END MESSAGE]
Can we talk about why troll comedy club2 have the wor2t yet mo2t expen2iive grub? II a2 hopiing for 2ome laugh2, good joke2, and good food two get my thiinkpan dii2tracted, but got none of the2e thiing2. The fii2h on 2tage wa2 a2 cold a2 theiir blood and a2 the earth entiitiie2 would put iit floundered before they liiterally diied on 2tage. The grub2teak wa2 dry and chewy liike a clown2 honkiing no2e. Hone2tly the honkiing no2e would have probably ta2ted better and been more funny than thii2 2hiit. Goiing two my hiive two nur2e a miigraiine. #trollcomedyclub2 #toomanyboondollar2 #badjoke2 #woe2efood #howdothey2tayiinbu2iine22 #reviiew
I Am More Than Just A Tight Nook And A Fat Bulge. Of Course I Often Come Here To Sexually Vent, But That Doesn't Mean I Don't Have A Personality Beyond Said Posts; I Find Social Vulnerability Makes Me Feel More Exposed Than Sexual Openness. #nsfw
not having sore wings really clears your head who wouldve thought that could put me in such a shit ass mood
Day three 0f being in the dunge0n ama
[|||] iiif i were to pooost a swiiimsuit piiic, shooould i wear a one pieeece or a bikiiini??? ♥️ - one pieeece ♦️ - bikiiini ♠️♣️ - baaald/not votiiing
:3c Am i thAt Asshole who shows up on people’s posts when no one wAnts me to be there
Okay. I believe it is bedtime. I can be dmed, and hopefully tomorrow I will have the energy to... idk. Ask y'all a bunch of random questions and manifest things for you again.
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༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ ~ ~ i fInD 7hA7 7ImE Is... S7RaNgE. hŌōŌōŌuRs cAn vAnIsH In 7He bLiNk ōŌōŌōF An eYe, WhIlE MiNu7eS CaN SeEm 7ŌōŌōŌ S7Re7cH ŌōŌōŌn fŌōŌōŌrEvEr...
^put a finger down if your future seeing ancestor wrote a ton of prophetic journals that after hundreds of sweeps fell into the hands of some sick ass clown (that wants to become god but thats another story) so he grubnapped you literally right out the cavern and then like TWO SWEEPS after you got away from that shit your bitch ass ancestor's stupid big fucking still alive moirail's self uses a DIFFERENT journal to also abduct you>
Can't think of effective engagement bait. Fuck.
Okay, okay. Awake enough for coffee posting. Like this post for coffee, pity for breakfast(comment if you want something specific), hate to explode your phone, mediate and comment for requests. #saturday
exhausted ¡s an understatement as to how ¡ fee! current!y...
i l0st my fav0rite bracelet t0day.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] if y0u d0 n0t abuze the abi1ity t0 zwear it wi11 be a1right. which iz t0 zay. d0 n0t anzwer everything with a zwear w0rd. the zap iz en0ugh that y0u tazte it. it hurtz even when y0u turn 0ff y0ur nervez. it waz phyzica1 behavi0ur reminder. if y0u d0 n0t have 0ne. i am zure y0u can av0id 0ne by being p01ite t0 y0ur crew. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] it iz a better p1an than n0ne. i did n0t have a zimi1ar 0ne 0n my firzt azzignment. i d0 n0t rec0mmend being uninzta11ed fr0m z0mething that y0u think y0u are. [END MESSAGE]
N No thank you actually Thanks, I'm good.
The best part of having an eidetic memory is that I never have a chance to forget #the horrors. :)
You are welcome. I wish I could have done more.
Gosh, reading all this is just...Well. I can only imagine living it. I'm so sorry. ❣︎
Like. Alone. I've been through some real shit situations that I only survived because there was someone to talk to, y'know?
[malleablePersonage is OFFLINE! Reason: crushed phone] #icoffline
They Xisconcert me greatly. / Sometimes I fear they may come to life anX attack me. \ I miss my hive too, sometimes. \