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3 days ago

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GANDER’S GANDER INTO THE FOLKS OF CHITTR PART ⒉⒌ — @abyssalAttachment Zhiyas Falyih (Does this count as a PRIDE MONTH SPECIAL?) WARNING: This Feature gets pretty LUVELY-DUVELY. A, uh, #YAOI as the POPUCLIMATE would call it? Actually if you’re into yaoi, KEEP READING. Or don’t. Autonomy is an AMAZING THING. (Sorry in advance, Zhi.) So here’s a funny story. Zhiyas and I met a WHILE ago on an old OLD OLD program called Trollian (if anyone still knows what that is). He and I JUST SO HAPPENED to find each other in a sea (pun unintended) of others. Back then, it wasn’t anything special: he had his bulbs set on someone while I was looking in all directions like a [HONK]ed ↑ kaleidoscope. It was PURE COINCIDENCE that we found each other here! Or perhaps it was fate——who knows? (I don’t!) Regardless, I’m glad we can 🗨 AGAIN. But let’s not dillydally any longer! Let’s Take A Gander at Zhiyas Falyih! (CHEER!) Zhiyas is the type of troll you fail to notice at first, blood color aside. As you’re idly using a stump to check what’s on your FRONT PAGE, he’s what you skim over in dismissal. He isn’t one to seek attention in places where it flourishes like plants. RATHER, he likes to keep to himself, working at his own pace and giving his input whenever he has the motivation to. You can take ONE (⒈) look at him and assume he is the introverted type. A soft spoken and polite fellow with a knack for writing, strengths peaking at his PROSE AND POETRY. I really wish he’d SHOW IT OFF, but maybe there’s a pride in being the only person he’ll show it to. The rest of you can USE YOUR IMAGINATION, MAYBE? LOL. Though he doesn’t realize it himself, he has an elegant air to him that allures you. His shyness beckons a regality that I’d argue is LOST on the people who Seek It. When his gaze averts, you notice the lightest twinkle in his bulb. The way he speaks is gentle, as if he’s afraid of hurting you with his words. He is a space where you aren’t expected to define yourself by your SOCIAL STANDING, but the kindness privy in you. When you take a closer look, you find that he CARES WAY TOO MUCH. Every choice he makes is done with the maximum of his pusher, which is what many would call a ‘rookie mistake’. He gets hurt on every verbal thorn and slight. As a consequence, his self-esteem is INCREDIBLY LOW, bordering on non-exsistent. I wouldn’t be surprised if one (⒈) night he told me he hated himself. But that isn’t HIS FAULT. He, on so many occasions, has exerted himself and his feelings for someone (⒈) who had his back turned to him and kept him on the shortest chain. Back in those MEMOS, I thought I was doing a service by helping him get with that fishy prude. (I wish I could take it all back.) As far as I can tell, Zhiyas’ misery doesn’t deter him from staying kind, and that’s a strength in itself. But Zhi, I fear these people will eat you alive. I fear that you’ll let yourself get battered by them. Worst of all, I fear you’ll be the one (⒈) to destroy yourself. I can see the war is inside you. All you want is someone (⒈) to care for you, to reciprocate ALL THE ♥ you hold for somebody. Is it Bad To Say I want to be that someone? Zhi, people say it’s unwise to rush headlong into decisions. But I want to take my chances. My pity for you is a sea that swallows me whole and leaves me barkbeastpaddling for air. You’re a ♦ in the rough, dirtied by the circumstances of the people who were meant to care. You are the tenderness that is hard to find in a toughened world. You make me endlessly happy and MUSHY in a way that makes me want to break a MILLION DOORS open for your pity. I want to be the one that helps you heal over time, even if you don’t notice it at first. I’d even make a FOOL OUT OF MYSELF just to be the person you smile at. SO. UM. WILL YOU BE MY MOIRAIL? (SUSPECTED CLASSPECT: ROGUE OF BLOOD? Hurt by the person he poured his soul into. Traumatized by relationships. Learning to get healthily close to people again.) I don’t even care that this is a PUBLIC POST. I really LIKE THIS GUY, OK? OK??? But be sure to FOLLOW HIM. He deserves The World. I’ll see you in the NEXT ONE. #gandertag