Not to say that everything going on around me is meaningless, but it's completely fucking meaningless. All of this is wrong. This soft, pathetic cushy life is slowly suffocating me and I can feel it getting tighter around my throat as each day passes. It's not fair that I'm forced to let this play out and so I won't let it. If it's bothering me that much, I'm sure it's getting to them too. I'll fix it though. I'll fix everything.
You know if you would quit posting alarming stuff and actually talk to me thatd be great
It isn't alarming. Nothing about this is alarming. These are the ramblings of an insane man who clearly has no idea what he's talking about and you should ignore him completely. Does none of this resonate with you at all? Are you completely unaware of that sinking dread that something bad is happening but you don't know what it is? How the fuck can you ignore it when I see it changing you every day? This isn't me calling you stupid for once, but perhaps too far gone.
Truly what the hell are you talking about!