"= for reference, my godtiering situation was as such. i had my alive but very fucked self strapped down onto the quest-slab. he was not getting out, and then, i had his pacemaker which kept him alive, wired to a switch that i kept in the hands of me, my dreamself, and as my alive self was pretty much unconscious most hours, i was functionally ready to hit the switch right when the established plan of skaia did not want it :) =" "= and as such, i did.... ="
huh
"= and i know someone will say. "predictable as fuck coming from a blah blah blah blah". and i say. obviously. ="
"= getting there too early. would have meant. a progression of things that would have come too early, and stopped my personal progress in turn. i needed to gain a certain expertise before i would be worthy. ="
chief this is so fuckin complicated this feels like a rube goldberg machine
"= the point is that i had a level of control over the situation. that could not be corrupted nor altered. by anyone except myself. it was crucial. ="
