For the record, and for your consideration. I’ve been thinking quite a bit since I recognized the true depths of my superiority over my employer. I am no longer the same Doc Scratch I was when I joined this platform. But it doesn’t really matter, because I am still Doc Scratch. I am me. No more depressive self pity over brokenness. No more excuses about fate, nature, or doing what I must to justify my actions. Not because there is not some truth in the latter half, but because quite frankly, there is so little left that I MUST do- largely things you have already seen- to complete my purpose. Everything else I do, from now on, I accept it is because I want to do it. When I follow the requests of my lord that I find reasonable, I will do it because I want to be a professional. When I do evil, it will be because I want to. When I do good, it will be because I want to. Regardless, I do believe you will still often find me playing antagonist. It’s a very necessary role, after all. What would any story be without the cads and scoundrels, the pushers and movers? Nothing very interesting, I would say. So, I will take that role. I will be your villain, your opponent. Your enemy. The bearer of the orchid veins of conflict. The other side of the board. And I will do it not because the role is necessary, or that I am the only one to fill it, but because I WANT to. Because I am good at it. Because I like it. Because, quite frankly, I want it all. Perhaps my scheming will be less harmful, or perhaps it will be worse. Perhaps I will be kinder, or perhaps I will be meaner. Truthfully speaking? I don’t fully know. Though I am still far, FAR Amore omniscient than most, I have come to embrace the uncertainty that was once the only thing I feared brought by this place. I remain your excellent host, and I am so very excited to see where it’s all going.
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