@tiresianThaumaturge — #substance
I'm becoming a bit more of a stable alcoholic again. This past year I've been alternating between binge drinking and trying to be disciplined, but since starting this vacation I've been maintaining a decent buzz without getting too blasted. My liver probably can't tell the difference, but I'll die long before that ever catches up to me. #substance #substance-abuse
This hotel room has a single bottle of wine. It taunts me. Not because I'm trying to be stay sober or anything so upstanding, but because I'm trying to figure out exactly how to portion it. I don't know if I'll get another one. Do I uncork it and start drinking? It's just big enough to be a bit much to drink all of it in one sitting. But if I'm going to drink, I'll want a few. But there's not enough in this bottle for two of my usual party nights, and I don't want to just leave one glass or less in the bottle. This bottle is the perfect size to paralyze me with choice, thus ensuring I don't drink it at...Read more
I need a drink. #substance
i Should have a furskna before I die.
I feel it best that I extend a formal apology, to Laika and those who love them. Last night, I helped them relapse. I offered them alcohol, and did not even try rescind that offer after finding out they were four months sober. I was already more inebriated than usual myself, and I believed at the time that allowing them to get plastered would keep them from doing something worse. Selfishly, though, I think I just wanted someone to get wasted with. I'm sorry, Laika. Please, please don't blame yourself. You were vulnerable, and I was irresponsible. For what it's worth, I was glad to have you around...Read more
Getting wasted with @uprootedGarden. The penny lands tomorrow. #substance
... How long havei been typing in R'Lyehian?
I always just have to watch, don't i. I just sit and watch like always. I saw the omen. I fucking felt it. And i didn't do anything. What if I just abandon this world. Go to Roxy's, where I can actually protect them. ... And doom the version who hasn't yet landed. Fuck me.
Fuck it. Just one glass. #substance
Often i winder about the cruoelty ingerent to Sburb. Why children? Whybmust the old workd die? Why must vuardians be discarded like excess fat sliding off a George Foreman grill? For what megtaphysical reaosn must these teens - these little kids - be forved to give their lives? Amd ehy Why wasn't I allowed to meet her Why do I have to See my death encroaching on the horizons What purpose do thegse visions serve anymore Why Fucking Clowns
It is evidence of a remarkable degradation of our governbmental institutions that a duo are allowed to run for a single office, together. Simply because "there's no rule against it." We have becone a country - nay, a planet - of Air Buds. The infiltration of the Batterwitch's clowns into the ruling classes was frankly a disgustingly brilliant move. Nothing is serious anymore. Laws are governed by a poorly-defined wimshy, a "vibe" that only the clowns understand. Nominally there are still ruless but many have had addenda tacked on along the lines of "unless it's funny." But who decides if it's funny? That'...Read more
Hello everyone. @tipsyGenostalgic is doing ok. They're in the hospital for alcohol poisoning, but it's looking like they're going to be fine. I'll keep you updated.
I feel like I'm going to throw up. I'm not even that drunk. #substance
Cowwards. Is it because I'm 50? :( #substance
I apologize, especially to my daughter(s), for drunkposting last night. I promise I'm not usually *that* much of a boozehound, I just needed a bit of liquid courage for... something daunting. #substance
Hold on. Everyone shutthe fuck up . Was that Calmaiss? #substance
Love. It'sswhy I do anyhing. I ndon't alway sshow it enough. But I alwayds have too much. #substance
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Habe tbeen sloppy drunk in a while. I hekeep seeing her eyes. #substance #vague
Imsodry to any Rose who had to aee that memory. Im sorry I wasntstrong neough to aave you #substance
I can't help but feel like it's my fault. Like I'm patient zero. That's absurd, of course, I know that, both genetically and causally, I am of the second generation. And yet, when I see the others falter, see them struggle, it's tempting to assume their struggles are merely echoes, consequences of my own bad decisions. In case that's true in some metaphysical way: I'm sorry for saddling you all with this. #substance