being a woman would fix me alas destiny
if.you.want.to.be.a.woman,.you.can.be.a.woman i.truly.doubt.destiny.cares.what.you.identify.as
I didn't say you're allowed. I said do it anyway. Fuck whoever is stopping you. Kill them if you must. Fight for yourself. Stand up. Your kid can be raised by a woman instead.
yeah small problem with that ive seen him he gets influenced to be a real macho man im supposed to make that happen everything i do is done for me the small free will i have i do this because i deserve it im just a footnote in the story
Have you considered trying? Going "well I've seen the future so I guess I have to be miserable forever" is why you are miserable. Try. You don't have to be a macho man to influence him to be one anyway. Perhaps I don't know enough about human familial units, but there are thousands of ways that nurture takes form. Two people raised the exact same in the exact same way will turn out differently. Two people raised completely differently may end up so similar they could be twins. Why do you have to suffer for that?
you try and fight something beyond yourself that isnt physical
You do not know what I have gone through or what comes for me. But there are things that I will not give up despite it all. Even if "fate" crashes down upon me like a tsunami I will regret the things I gave up on so much more than the things I tried and failed. I have loved and lost over, and over, and over. I will continue to lose the people I care for. Will I stop loving? No. Never. Because love is what saves me. And I refuse to let losing kill me when there is more love to find. I hope that you find the same desire to save yourself, ms Strider. I hope that you find the strength to claw tooth and nail for the life you deserve. And, more than that, I hope that you are proven wrong and that you reach up out of the lake and pull yourself onto the shore that you believed was impossible to reach. I hope the view is beautiful.
mr strider
mr strider and dont wear it out throw your gibberish hopeful bullshit to someone who can use it i know where ill be in a few decades a sword in my chest and a heart broken to shreds
I am sorry that you are not ready to hear it. A few decades is plenty of time to find yourself happier.