its KINd of strange SPENdING time with someone you know you have LIMITEd time with, the awareness that every moment together is on a timer. i cant dECIdE whether to be angry or SAd or to just try ANd enjoy the time left together. its HARd. i look at him ANd get torn between crying ANd yelling. why COULdNT you just live. why COULdNT you HOLd out a little longer. am i SUPPOSEd to be left here, is that what you want. ?to leave be BEHINd? i know its not fair to blame him. i know that. its my fault this is haPPening to him ANd yet... i dONT know what to dO. i just dONT know. i wish he COULd stay forever ANd BUILd a life time of memories with me. maybe its silly to be so ATTACHEd in such a short time but i cant helP what i feel. hes my best FRIENd. i SHOULd have EXPECTEd our time together to be cut short. i knew his time on this alternia was LIMITEd but i still ALLOWEd myself to hoPe that maybe we COULd overcome this, that he COULd stay with me forever. i was STUPId. it dOESNT dO any GOOd to Pray, not to a messiah who cant hear me. this ORdEAL has been testing my faith, the IdEA that the messiahs will always know where i am, what im dOING, how im in NEEd of a miracle, it isnt there anymore. i know they cant always be there, she has her own matters to dEAL with. but i still wish.... no it dOESNT matter what i wish. this is whats haPPening ANd i cant dO anything to change that. im sorry little mister. i dO love you. even if i COULdNT Protect you. i dONT know if i can Protect anyone. im sorry. #cw-death #littlemister #mourning #tobeburied #PuPPet -posted from My Nukia N-Gage CullD
yeah... i dONT blame him... i know were both SCAREd but it dOesnt make it any easier -posted from My Nukia N-Gage CullD
~Bring it in big guy, bring it in~
sniffle thank you sairou i really NEEdEd that -posted from My Nukia N-Gage CullD
I’m sorry Palind :(. Losing someone and having the foreknowledge of it and the eventuality of time of it all can be really difficult to come to terms with. It seems that you’ll have plenty of people around to help you through it
“LITTLE MISTER”: PALIND DID EVERYTHING TO PRESERVE HIM AND SṴRELY HE DONT WANT TO LEAVE YOṴ LIKE THIS LIFE: IT GO FORWARD FOR YOṴ BLESSED BY “LITTLE MISTER”’S MEMORY. KEEP MAKING MEMORY AND YOṴ BṴILD HIM A SHRINE IN YOṴR PṴSHER NOTHING CAN TOṴCH
these are very KINd WORdS Pobico... thank you. i will never forget little mister for as long as i live -posted from My Nukia N-Gage CullD
im grateful for the PeoPle ANd trolls AROUNd me but it still dOESNT hurt any less... how dO you fix a Pusher thats broken -posted from My Nukia N-Gage CullD
I want to say with time things get easier. Grief isn’t linear either. It’ll be rough but it’ll be ok
- Hi... 😕 I ♦️ you, palebro. When are you going to be comming hive?
hey ... im in alternia now... been struggling to come hive since i got the news on little mister... ill be hive TOdAY though i Promise i miss you Palebro have you been okay -posted from My Nukia N-Gage CullD