yall ever just sit bolt upright in your clump of blankets from your previous state of drop dead consciousness covered in vicious amounts of sweat and clutching at your chest because your hearts beating a million times a minute for reasons that you cant quite wrap your foggy still-trying-to-wake-up brain around
NO THAT SOUNDS WILDLY UNPLEASANT WHY AREN'T YOU DEAD YET
you know i ask myself the same thing all the time for the amount of times ive died youd think one of those times would have actually stuck and i would have stayed dead yet here we are
yea my therapist says its the "c-ptsd" but i think its from balling too hard at the sleepytime junction and i fall on the tracks right as the train arrives only to be saved by the realm of the waking like a boss
DON'T WORRY IF I KNOW ANYTHING I KNOW PROVIDENCE SEEKS TO UNDERMINE ME AT EVERY STEP AND SO YOU WILL CONTINUE TO DIE AND NOT DIE
really can that shit actually wake you up from a dead sleep like that i figured that was more for like spiraling because you saw or heard something that put you in a prior emotional state but like you cant really do that when youre asleep or can you hmmm nah im with you it had to be related to the dream train at sleepytime junction thats the only rational explaination here