
nobody needs to know that. nobody needs to know all that. it was useless. i wasn't good enough at anything yet. i tried so goddamn hard and it doesn't matter!

just rest and get healthy for me. be nice if you can, won't hold you to that though.

... i'll try ... just don't blame yourself please

hey, don't worry. it's not your fault. :)

... kinda is in my case

no. it isn't. it hasn't been. it'll never be your fault, laika.

... sorry you don't understand what was going through my head then it was okay? so just um...it's not all on you.

i'm sorry things are bad. i'm sorry i can't understand apparently.

it's not that things are bad they were bad and still are a little bit but don't blame yourself okay you'd probably be repulsed if you could see in my head back then. but i appreciate you jinx i hope you can appreciate yourself

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... sorry my bad i'm sorry i'll um i'll check back in later