"Oh yeah we killed Lord English" "Wdym you killed lord english????" "Well i didn't! Dirk did! But like he's also not exactly completely dead...it's more the death of his ego. Like. The "self" died and now a new person resulted in the body he's in, which resulted him losing his godtier." "How???" "We still don't know! Dirk hasn't told us. Honestly I think he's scared of himself because of it..."
oh!!!!!!!!!!! something similar happened to me, actUally!!! in my brother's absence, my body began growing a new sibling. eventUally i predominated over it, bUt as kindly as i coUld.
what's this new soUl like??
he's really nice!! he built a community garden with the remaining skaia/prospit/derse residents that we had found. he still has some lingering memories of what he did and has a lot to work through, but we've been helping him navigate that. he goes by Mr. English, for right now at least. he isn't sure what to call himself or who he is yet, but that's ok, he has the freedom to choose whoever he wants to be now :]
how lovely! glad to know there's some version of my brother who's chosen kindness. i sUppose nightmare might qUalify, thoUgh by the time i ate it, she seemed happier being called sister? bUt now it's part of me, so it's hard to say how much of that is nightmare's feelings and how mUch is my own. and regardless, she was qUite distinct from him to begin with.
hopefully if i can convince him to get a chittr, you could even talk to him here :] i'm unsure what ego death is like but i can kind of see the similarity in what you're talking about with what he's told me
well, nightmare endUred an ego death to become part of me, and that was *qUite* painfUl. i remember it from both ends!