@voxAngeli — #yearninghours
#venting #yearninghours My life feels viscerally incomplete without them. I had an actual soulmate, we understood each other in a way no one else could, we were flushed for each other for LITERAL YEARS, and I STILL fumbled them. How many people can say that. There's a reason I keep saying that getting too far into detail in my yearning posts would just make me look pathetic. It objectively IS pathetic!!! All I had to do was put in the bare minimum of effort to keep in touch beyond just existing in the same space! And I somehow managed to get a failing grade at flushcrush, something that is NOT normal to ...Read more
#vagueposting #venting #yearninghours Sometimes I wish I could just reach into my consciousness and delete the part of me that cares about them. What am I supposed to do with a love like this for someone who, in all likelihood, I will never see again. Maybe I could be more at peace with myself if I forgot what it was like to have an "other half" and could just be satisfied by the people who ARE in my life right now. But I can't forget, because no matter how much I stopped being the person I used to be, [deadname]'s repetitive, circular life still happened, and I have to live with the memories of being he...Read more