Disclaimer - Please please - don't worry - just a character piece - Don't read if the subject - will mess with your - emotional - state - ... - I just - thought - it wasn't - badly written > I don't want to be an skeptic I don't want to be a dreamer I don't want to be a failure Burdens on my pusher as Always Always my birthright Not a world where It isn't I should be happy I should be happy Told that I am above Statements made that go Against those statements I should have died I should feel lucky They wished I died I ruined them "You were one of my best experiences" Why must I always be the one to remember Why must I be the one to here? If they hated me- I just wished they killed me when they did It is nothing but pain Their words always swarm like vultures Can they be any more cruel? Why must I care for another when I was never taught how For I am sin and I am dream For I am nothing but a leech For I am a love For I am a punishemnt For I am For I am- What am I? Am I just born to die Forever told since the start I am meant to die I will die painfully no matter what I do No routes of my dreams There is no paths There is no one If anyone tried to I'll burn them Will the blood ever wash If I scrub under I bleed Will I be free? Why does it hurt W̶h̶y̶ ̶d̶o̶e̶s̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶t̶h̶o̶u̶g̶h̶t̶s̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶w̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶h̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶d̶o̶ ̶h̶u̶r̶t̶s̶ ̶ ̶ ̶I̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶d̶i̶e̶ ̶C̶a̶n̶ ̶I̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶d̶i̶e̶ ̶ ̶P̶l̶e̶a̶s̶e̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶k̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶i̶f̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶i̶s̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶l̶i̶f̶e̶ ̶I̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶d̶o̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶a̶m̶y̶m̶o̶r̶e̶ ̶ ̶P̶l̶e̶a̶s̶e̶ ̶P̶l̶e̶a̶s̶e̶ ̶l̶e̶t̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶d̶i̶e̶ ̶I̶m̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶a̶ ̶h̶o̶l̶l̶o̶w̶ ̶s̶h̶e̶l̶l̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶a̶ ̶t̶r̶o̶l̶l̶ ̶I̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶l̶u̶s̶u̶s̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶b̶e̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶w̶h̶o̶ ̶c̶a̶r̶e̶s̶ ̶f̶o̶r̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶b̶a̶c̶k̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶w̶a̶y̶s̶ ̶I̶ ̶n̶e̶e̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶f̶e̶e̶l̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶a̶ ̶f̶r̶a̶u̶d̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶f̶a̶i̶l̶u̶r̶e̶ ̶ ̶I̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶d̶i̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶w̶h̶o̶ ̶w̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶e̶v̶e̶n̶ ̶b̶l̶i̶n̶k̶ Nothing but a thought I suppose Watching from away That is what it is Is it not? #writing #cw-self-harm #gore #abuse ?
