♠️█ ░ tw/cw: extensive discussi0n 0f b0ndage, shibari, restricti0n, detainment by auth0rity figures, dr0ne vi0lence (but make it h0t), gh0stly dysph0ria, b0dy h0rniness, mem0ries 0f pre-death mas0chism, and general 0versharing ab0ut my kinks... ▒ ▓♠️ ♦️█ ░ this is a SAFE SPACE...f0r me...t0 discuss the er0tic nature 0f being tied up by bef0ran peace 0fficers...if y0u are unc0mf0rtable with explicit discussi0ns 0f r0pe w0rk...0r if y0u d0n't want t0 kn0w ab0ut h0w the c0lumn tie made me feel...please pr0ceed with cauti0n 0r n0t at all... ▒ ▓❤️ ♠️█ ░ i am 0nly sharing this because swattpad r0lled 0ut a new c0ntent p0licy ex0rcising my likes...and i had t0 find a new hive f0r my m0re...adult...reflecti0ns...this is that hive...this is where i can finally be H0NEST ab0ut h0w much i miss being c0ntained...hhhhahheh...s...s0 d0nt like...d0nt read...0k? ▒ ▓♠️ ♠️█ ░ shibari 0n bef0rus...is 0ne 0f the few arts...i f0und myself frequently wrapped up in...hanging ar0und...and in a tightly knit gr0up pursuing m0re...t0 this dusk...it is s0mething that makes my gh0stly essence...shiver thr0ugh0ut...with mem0ries 0f living flesh and tight c0nstricti0n...suppressing my every m0ve... ପ(∗´ര ᎑ ര`∗)ଓ ▒ ▓❤️ ♠️█ ░ 0n bef0rus...the aesthetic 0f b0ndage wasn't merely s0me niche indulgence...it was entirely C0MM0NPLACE...intertwined with 0ur very...s0cial fabric...like r0pes ar0und a wriggling wrist...the dr0nes...0h..the s0 called...peace 0fficers...0f 0ur fair planet...they had such...intimately intricate techniques...f0r...detainment... ▒ ▓♠️ ♦️█ ░ i remember...thr0ugh the peered thr0ugh f0gs 0f misty death...th0se times when my living self ran af0ul 0f auth0rities...n0t f0r anything T00 hein0usly unpard0nable, mind y0u...just...creative...expressi0ns...0f...the b0dy...that the judgey c0llective fr0wned up0n...but the WAY they w0uld restrain me...unffff...suspensi0n h0lds that lifted me 0ff my feet entirely and r0bbed me 0f the gr0und bel0w...r0pes c0iling ar0und my limbs in patterns s0 intricate they c0uld 0nly be called an art t0 rival my 0wn... ▒ ▓❤️ ♠️█ ░ the dr0nes were TRAINED in this, y0u kn0w...it wasn't 0pp0rtunistic brutality...it was CEREM0NY...r0utine regime...each kn0t 0f the r0pe placed with precisi0n...the way my gakuseifuku w0uld ride up as they h0isted me...the c0nfined sensati0n 0f being C0MPLETELY at the mercy 0f an0ther...far preferable t0 the mancatcher 0r net...i may have pr0v0ked them 0ccasi0nally...just t0 feel that raunchy restricti0n again...the living me was SUCH an ill-mannered fiend...▒ ▓♠️ ♦️█ ░ 0n bef0rus, shibari was...rec0gnized...celebrated even...the c0mplex kn0ts s0metimes even caste specific...when y0u were b0und...y0u were n0ticed...rec0gnized...treated as the threat y0u were...cr0ss-lattice stitched 0ut 0f sight...sm0thered...suppressed...c0ntained...pr0tected fr0m even y0ur 0wn w0rst impulses...and i had MANY 0f th0se...still d0. at times. if 0nly 0ne c0uld c0ntain a gh0st...but with0ut a b0dy...and a g00d 0ne...0r r0pes small en0ugh t0 snatch up d0lls...i can 0nly watch...and remember h0w it felt t0 be s0 beautifully trapped... ▒ ▓❤️ ♠️█ ░ s0metimes i wander the b0rders 0f the dream bubbles, l00king f0r s0ul wh0 remember the 0ld ways...wh0 can tie a pr0per c0lumn...wh0 understands that t0 be h0lded is t0 be FREED fr0m cumbers0me ch0ice...and i dream 0f the day i wear a living b0dy pretty en0ugh...s0me0ne else's...perhaps...s0me0ne wh0se nerves are just as fried as my 0wn...wh0se pan lingers 0n the th0ught 0f entrapment...s0me0ne wh0...wh0...hhhhhg...unffff...i need t0 g0 lie d0wn...h0riz0ntally...in my burial pl0t...f0r a while...▒ ▓♠️
"= more reason. beforus. is such an unusual place. that was an -official- thing? ="
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