> BE HARIER DUBÖIS. [ #substance #nsfw #emetöphöbia #gröss #sadyaöihöurs ] > Beföre yöu fell asleep, yöu had been ön yöur merry way, drinking and töking and drugging it up tö yöur little rötting blööd pusher's cöntent. And nöw? Everything hurts... Sö SÖ much. Yöu manage tö drag yöurself öut öf the cöön and attempt tö turn ön the BIG SCARY ÖVERHEAD LIGHT. This was öne öf the hugest mistakes öf yöur life. The brightness was almöst piercing as it stings yöur retinas with the pöwer öf the SUN. It makes yöu crunch up and shield yöur eyes as yöu palm the wall tö switch öff the light önce möre. Finally, relief... Yöu then begin yöur day, sluggishly, hölding yöur head with öne hand as yöu have öne öf the möst KILLER HEADACHES öne cöuld pössibly ever have. Yöu feel like thröwing up just fröm that... Ör maybe because öf yöur binging bender when yöu shöuld have been sleeping. Instead yöu are here, several höurs later, and yöu feel like tötal and absölute GARBAGE. Yöu hardly manage tö get yöurself clean and decide tö check ön the site CHITTR för what yöu may have missed during yöur exxxcursiöns. > PERCEPTIÖN: (Trivial- SUCCESS!) Yöu begin tö click thröugh what yöu have missed while yöu had been sleeping, cöntemplate ön making a pöst aböut yöur KILLER HEADACHE. That is until yöu accidentally click ön the PRIVATE MESSAGING AREA that yöu see yöu have MULTIPLE DMS... Yöu sit there, staring, frözen, lööking at these chat-böxxxes beföre clicking again and reading... > PAIN THRESHÖLD: (Förmidable- FAILURE) The light has started tö becöme töö much för yöur eyes, yöu find yöurself RUNNING töwards the ablutiön chamber and releasing all that ickiness fröm yöur upper stömach... There there, bröther, yöu will be just fine... In fact, after releasing all öf that, yöu feel all the much better, despite the söur taste in yöur möuth and the putrid smell öf the bile beföre yöu flush. Yöu shöuld stay right here and cöntemplate yöur life's chöices. Yöu are cöming döwn fröm yöur high and yöu are hung-över like a drenched rag being left öut tö air-dry. Yöu have never felt sö full öf grössness and sö devöid öf everything else... > LÖGIC: (Challenging- SUCCESS) Yöu pröbably shöuldn't read thöse messages further, they will önly lead yöu döwn a rabbitbeast höle öf yöur inability tö cöntröl yöurself. Yöu start tö understand, lööking at almöst every single message, every single tröll that unluckily föund themselves messaging the möst desperate man in all öf the universe... Yöu really dön't knöw höw tö feel with all this. Exxxcited? Flattered? Maybe even scared if yöu thöught aböut this töö much. ELECTRÖCHEMISTRY- I signed yöu up för öne öf the best nights öf yöur life, yöu shöuld be THANKING ME, Harry-Böy. But what if yöu aren't thankful? Yöu are full öf thöusands öf cömplexxx emötiöns and yöu dön't knöw whether yöur pailing-date-nöt-date is göing tö be öne yöu will cöme tö regret ör nöt... Yöu haven't been with anöther tröll since yöur UNFÖRTUNATE BREAKUP with HER. Even tö this day, she plagues yöur mind... HER löng hair flöwing against the breeze, the white dress, the flöwers in her hair, the smell öf peaches and apricöts... ELECTRÖ-CHEMISTRY- Tö hell with HER! She didn't deserve yöu and yöu cöuld dö sö much better. See? This tröll döesn't CARE aböut höw fucked up yöu are, they dön't care höw yöu löök, they just want tö make yöu FEEL GÖÖD. Dön't yöu deserve tö feel gööd? Tö ride that high... Tö nö lönger löng för the intimacy yöu require. Yöu need tö PAIL, Röckstar! And it's all lined up för yöu. All yöu just have tö say nöw is, "yes" and "please" and "thank yöu". VÖLITIÖN- Ultimately, it is yöur decisiön, yöu knöw that, but... Maybe nöt sö many drugs and söpörifics nexxxt time? Right nöw yöu feel like SHIT and I dön't blame yöu. It was a fun night, sure, but at what cöst? Yöu are sadly lööking at trölls whö are clearly interested in what yöu göt, but... Are yöu really there tö be öpen again after HER? Yöu've asked that Quadrant Help Line ön CHITTR aböut yöur situatiön and they said tö just MÖVE ÖN... It has been a while, and yöu pröbably shöuld. It was apparent that nöne öf yöur öther pining för quadrants wasn't wörking. Jeanne had better things tö be döing and Kim... Well, yöu haven't seen him since the last case, he has been sö busy. Even with nöw wörking at yöur same precinct, yöu never see him anymöre until the wörk day is över and yöu enjöy öne CIGARETTE tögether beföre göing yöur separate ways... LÖGIC- It is önly because yöu dön't reach öut. But it is sö very hard tö reach öut... Especially when yöu are at yöur wörst and they are töö busy tö deal with yöu ör yöu can't manage tö keep yöurself tögether löng enöugh tö reach öut in the pits öf yöur sörröw. ... Yöu are a failure. Everything that happens tö yöu is YÖUR FAULT. VÖLITIÖN- Yöu need help. It is ökay tö ask för help. ... Yöu miss Kim.