F!nally got a l!ttle buzz go!ng...and maybe !t !s the buzz talk!ng or a the emot!ons or a m!x of both or someth!ng but...maybe, my problem !s ! care to much and ! yearn to much? L!ke...gog !'ll be honest ! wanna be the passaround serv!ce sw!tch so badly and l!ke...make trolls feel good and happy cause !'m a troll pleaser but yet !'m so worr!ed and anx!ous about grow!ng to attached and just..end!ng up hurt aga!n, ughhhh fuck my stup!d chud l!fe #NSFW #yearn!ng #rant #vent #gog!mamess
>>| .oh, .it's .understandable. had that period .in my life, but then .i self-taught... well with some .outer help .of course .and some cheek slaps. but .i figured that sometimes .it's .alright to feel that way. just beware that .are like, "friends with benefits" .and there's .also people who you really love. .i wonder .if you love that deer girl from the previous .event...
>>| come .on... .i saw those hints .of happiness .and moments .of cheerfulness back there.
So? A br!ef moment of happ!ness and l!v!ng !n a n!ce dream...noth!ng more, bes!des ! was t!psy does !t really count? #substance
>>| .i think .it may should count. why shouldn't? but .alright, .i may stop teasing. sorry...
Sorry, my tone m!ght come off as a b!t b!tter and harsh, that wasn't my !ntent!on just... ! don't know...
>>| .oh! well you may try .asking her .out. .i mean .it. .it can't hurt to give .a try. well... maybe .a sting, but .at least .a sting for .once, then slow burn .in your bloodpusher .all the time. metaphorically. like. .i .asked multiple times .of multiple people .if they want to be .in some quadrant .or .another, but .in the .end .it would .or .a rejection... .or .a success! so cheer .up, there's .always .a chance.
Maybe...but ! don't th!nk !'m ready to handle that st!ng, ! w!ll s!mply just let whatever feel!ngs may be there slowly f!zzle out that's all, as ! have done many t!mes before
>>| well, .i may won't push .anymore. just so you know. "always late than never" .and maybe you will have your beloved matesprit.