.i know .i may say horrific thing, but .it would be silly .if .i die .a third time. talking to myself .is... getting boring. you know .all .answers .on .all questions .and you have no topics besides discussing .of what you were doing. ".oh, .an hour .earlier .i was flying .and culling big .imps .and collecting grist crap" "that's cool, .i was looking more .into .alchemizing" "what did you find?" .and .it goes .on .and .on .and .on. we were like ".alright, we need to find something we can talk .about" but then we went .again .on rambling .about .our past, .our problems, .our life, .our previous hive, .our secret, .our .exes, .our stuff, .our job .and many, many more. .it cycles .and .in .one point we will stop talking to .each .other .and just work .and work .on this planet. .i haven't met .any "consorts" .as .i read more through backlogs. none .on my planet. .or .if they don't .exist .or they .are hiding. .i do spot some... tunnels? .as .if this stupid planet now has .underground system. .i'm still thinking .about .others. there .are still denjea, rokket .and felyan with me. .i .uhhh, haven't talked much with them so .i don't really know them well. .i know denjea .is .all looking future person .and rokket .is sweet. don't give him .any drinks. .and felyan... .i don't know, they .are my server player .and .i .only know that they .are .aradym matesprit. .i want to strangle that host session now, because .it seems there .is no .escape from session. #rant #rambling #sessiongame #.iwanttocullthathost
that’s alwa7s a hurdle when 7ou take (ontrol of a session like this - when it gets bad, and it will get bad, people asso(iate 7our ver7 pun(hable fa(e with it
.i'm not .even .in control .of this session. not .a crap "host session" .or .a leader .of this group. .i don't .even know half .of the people .in my session, not to say the closest .ones. .i'm like, some random person who got sucked .into this game with curree. .i'm glad he's .alright, but what .about me? the .only motivation .i have .is... my will to live .and my matesprit profor. .i remember what .i said that .i have nothing to lose .and this session shows .it .in full glory. just .another troll with no duties, no purposes.
that was a general 7ou, i know 7ou’re not the one who (aused all this. and, well. 7ou sa7 7ou don’t know the people in 7our session. ma7be that’s a goal to work towards. 7ou’re all in this together, and 7ou’ll need to work together to su((eed, 7ou know? i know things haven’t been going quite towards (ooperation based off of what (urree said, but there’s still runwa7 for that. there’s still a wa7 7ou (an all get out b7 going through
nyrita. some .of them mocked me. while .i was dead. curree was too kind .on his words.
i’m not tr7ing to sa7 that the7’re not awful people for that, but this is just straight up not a situation where ostra(izing them for their asshole behaviors is going to be workable. this is a survival s(enario above all else. gotta work with them, even if 7ou don’t forgive them
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.i... .i need to talk to myself .about this .one. .i'll think .about .it. still, feels .awful. thank you nyrita.
.i... thank you .aradym. .i may cry for now. .i just want to go back now. but .i will try my best to keep going. we will.
and 7ou’re valid for feeling awful, absolutel7. ma7be the fullness of working together involves them realizing how shitt7 the7 are, after 7ou ki(k their asses. who knows! but thinking about it is all i (an reall7 ask