Gritting my teeth. I will practice mindfulness. I will n9t all9w my em9ti9ns t9 c9mpr9mise my w9rk.
wHaT YeR EmOtIoNs tElLiN YoU BrOtHa? (o:
wElL We aLl gOt rOoM FoR MoThErFuCkIn iMpRoVeMeNt mAn, CaN'T LeT ThE PaN DeMoNs wIn. NoT LiKe vErY StOiC To bEaT YeRsElF Up dUdE (o:
Rig9r9us self critique is a means 9f impr9vement. 6ut I understand what y9u're saying.
iF BeInG HaRd oN YeRsElF WoRkEd, WoUlD'AvE WoRkEd bY NoW (o: TaKiN It eAsY JuSt sHoW'S AnOtHeR FaCeT Of a mOtHeRfUcKeR. gIvEs tHe pAn tImE To nOtIcE ShIt. SiDeS YoU AiN'T BeEn oN MuCh, KnOw yOu cOoKiN (o:
Well, if idleness w9rked, I w9uldn't feel s9 wasteful when taking 6reaks. It's simply pragmatic t9 accept that there's little rest f9r the righte9us. My a6sence is regretta6le, th9ugh I have attempted t9 use the time t9 recentre myself and s9rt thr9ugh my pri9rities.
mMm nOt tHe sAmE ThInG AnD YoU KnOw iT BrO. dOn't tHeY SaY ThErE'S No rEsT FoR ThE WiCkEd? wHaT PrIoRiTiEs iF Ya dOn't mInE Me aSkIn. A MoThErFuCkEr dOn't wAnNa pRy bUt aLsO (o: WaY YeR TaLkIn aIn't gEt tHeM SoRtEd.
Multiple things can 6e true. The fact remains that s9me69dy has t9 champi9n against 9ur expl9itative systems, and if I d9n't d9 it then I can't trust that any69dy else will. Sans perhaps my alternate selves, 6ut all the m9re reas9n t9 d9 my part. It is evidently what we were made t9 d9. I attempted t9 set my pri9rities straight, 6ut there's 9nly s9 much I can shuffle. If essay writing will n9t c9me t9 me, then I must endeav9ur t9 make up f9r it elsewhere. Dial9gues. Tag reminders. Mediating c9nflict. Meditati9n t9 keep my mind clear. And s9 9n.
i gEtChA, nO OnE ElSe gOnNa dO It rIgHt mIgHt aS WeLl lIkE Do iT YeR FuCkIn sElF. ThInK It's kInDa sAiD HoW Y'AlL DoN'T ChIlL MoRe. KnOw yEr dEaD BuT AlWaYs gRiNdInG. sOuNdS FuCkIn eXhAuStInG. DoIn wHaT Ya cAn wHeN YoU CaN'T Do wHaT Ya wAnT. rEsPeCt. WoUlD LiKe oFfEr tO HeLp wIt tHaT BuT CeRtAiN CoNvIcTiOnS KeEp a mOtHeRfUcKeRs sKiLlS NeRfEd. FoUnD WaYs tO WoRk aRoUnD YeR VoWs bUt lEaD NoT InTo tEmPtAtIoN N AlL ThAt. (o: