Kankri Vantas
@catalyticGhost
D9 n9t expect me t9 6e active. ~~ He/She | 6u66le Escapee | Mutant | Bi-Gender I w9uld dismiss the spectrum entirely if it wasn't imp9rtant f9r understanding 9thers
// Oh right #OOC post- A dancestor AU where they were all.. half.. revived. Half dead, half alive, their eyes are a milky orange with grey pupils. Post-game interactions where they're all learning and growing and recovering from all the events. (This is my reason for headcanons and any slightly off-character behaviour). In collaboration with: @torpidAnarchy , @chivalrousAevirnity , @gracefulAdvocacy , @tentativelyConcise. The group had another incident where a third of them died again, this time properly, with no bubbles to hole them. The main group is now Mituna, Kankri, Porrim, Aranea, and Cronus; Kurloz hovers around but isn't as close; Damara and Meenah are off doing who knows what, and the rest.. are dead. It shook up the whole group, they try not to talk about it. ~~~~~~ This Kankri is Bi-gender, mostly fem-presenting, and is moirails with Porrim. After reflection on her gender identity and how she handled issues in the past, and another few conversations with Porrim, she realised that the old methods she was using weren't entirely all that helpful. For her, that meant relaxing her vows somewhat as they were a product of her own misguidance (in her opinion), and adjusting her language to fit the person she spoke to, or at least the length of her rants were shortened quite drastically to end when people usually seemed to start zoning out. Art by Cupid-tune - https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/61cfa02ed467.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/9bb9447e3167.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/28372141f20a.png shymagpiee https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/447b79223ee7.jpg //
I think I have decided I hate 6eing in the 9cean. The 9cean itself is perfectly fine, I think I w9uld just like t9 stay away fr9m it as 6est I can.
A 6each party t9m9rr9w? I might have t9 spend t9day w9rking myself up t9 g9ing. I'm sure P9rrim has a sec9nd swimsuit she wants t9 put me in f9r such an event. I am curi9us wh9 else is g9ing. Mituna has 6een enc9uraging the rest 9f us t9 attend events and start getting t9 kn9w the 9ther pe9ple 9n here.
I'm m9re tuckered 9ut than I th9ught. I d9n't think I can even keep my eyes 9pen l9ng en9ugh t9 read after such a 6usy day. G99dlight every9ne.
All things c9nsidered, I enj9yed t9day. Having m9st 9f my legs exp9sed was definitely a new experience 6ut feminine swim suits c9mpress the f9rm in such a c9mf9rting way. P9rrim was right again, I supp9se.
Ah, y9u saw the ph9t9. Thank, I supp9se. It t99k quite a 6it 9f c9nfidence just t9 get t9 that p9int, th9ugh I assure y9u I did manage t9 relax at s9me p9int after that was taken. Right ar9und when Cr9nus g9t a snail stuck t9 his 6ack.
It was certainly fun t9 watch. Tuna was chasing him ar9und with it f9r an h9ur. F9r a man c9vered in m9t9r 9il alm9st every day y9u'd think he w9uld 6e m9re used t9 slimy su6stances.
P9rrim and Kurl9z have individually g9tten me swim suits f9r 9ur 6each trip t9day, and while I appreciate 69th, I'm n9t sure 9n which t9 g9 f9r. I supp9se I sh9uld wear the 9nce piece under the shirt and sh9rts, then it w9uld all9w me t9 change thr9ugh9ut the day. I just w9rry the c9mpressi9n 9f the first w9uld remind me its there while I'm in 69y-m9de. Decisi9ns, decisi9ns.
The frills are remo+veable, if that helps, and the synched waist is a tie that can be undo+ne
9n a side n9te, it really is t99 warm in this little area we have. I th9ught the sun was supp9sed t9 6urn, n9t sl9w r9ast.
I think it's actually quite nice especially when yo+u dress lightly.
I must admit, s9metimes I find myself l99king at s9me9ne 9r s9me pe9ple and feeling this deep ache in my chest. At 9ne p9int I th9ught it was l9nging, may6e a jeal9usy 9ver s9mething I th9ught I c9uld n9t have; perhaps it even hurt m9re 6ecause I th9ught the pain was my 9wn fault, a restricti9n I had given myself while I was still y9ung and f9cusing my energy int9 t9pics in way that was n9t quite as.. c9nstructive as my y9unger self th9ught they were. 9f c9urse that su6ject matter was and still is extremely imp9rtant, I just see n9w that my eff9rts sh9uld have 6een f9cused in an9ther directi9n, as sh9uld my c9mpani9ns'. N9, after much th9ught I came t9 the realisati9n that that envy was n9t c9vet9usness 6ut in fact a much deeper calling. 9ne I had n9t expected t9 f9ll9w me further int9 my unlife. Truth 6e t9ld when it was first p9inted 9ut t9 me I adamantly denied it, th9ugh like many times 6ef9re it I sh9uld have listened t9 the pers9n that was telling me this fact. That my feelings 9n this matter were n9rmal, that there was n9 need t9 reject it s9 deeply. H9nestly, I think it was when it f9ll9wed me 6ack int9 a living and 6reathing 69dy that I truly registered it wasn't just a fleeting th9ught. I all9wed that c9nfidant t9 indulge; m9stly 9ut 9f curi9sity I'll admit, 6ut partially 6ecause I was h9ping she was right. And.. she was. 9f c9urse, she was. She is n9t usually wr9ng when it c9mes t9 matters 9f femininity. I supp9se, tying this 6ack, that i really was feeling l9nging that wh9le time, f9r s9mething I th9ught I c9uldn't have. 6ut I can. Pursuing the femininity I saw in 9thers, fulfilling that l9nging, it changed s9mething in my pan, I think. My v9ws 6ecame l99ser, my p9sture m9re relaxed. Apparently I started smiling m9re, like I was a6le t9 feel c9ntent. Finally feeling satisfied helped me realise that my pursuit 9f fulfilment was ill-inf9rmed and rather misguided, and th9ugh I still care deeply a69ut th9se causes, I g9 a69ut them in a much different way n9w, with a much calmer eye and a keener sense 9f my audience. I c9uldn't have d9ne that if it weren't f9r @gracefulAdv9cacy Thank y9u.
Aw, Kanny, what's go+t yo+u feeling all sentimental this light? Do+ yo+u need to+ talk?
Under any 9ther circumstance I w9uld n9t have c9nsidered j9ining a s9cial media, 6ut after hearing alternate versi9n 9f 69th myself and my friends exist I have decided that perhaps a little self indulgence t9 learn a69ut these different pers9nalities and timelines that exist within parad9x space w9uld n9t 6e t9tally unc9uth 9f me t9 pursue. I have already seen a fascinating range 9f pe9ple 9nline, and despite the churlish 6ehavi9ur that 9ften acc9mpanies it, perhaps I d9 have t9 admit that certain mem6ers 9f 9ur tax9n were, 9n s9mewhat simpler terms.. c9rrect, a69ut this place. I shall 6e watching with rapt attenti9n, th9ugh my c9mments will 6e staying within private channels. M9stly.