Kankri Vantas
@catalyticGhost
D9 n9t expect me t9 6e active. ~~ He/She | 6u66le Escapee | Mutant | Bi-Gender I w9uld dismiss the spectrum entirely if it wasn't imp9rtant f9r understanding 9thers
// Oh right #OOC post- A dancestor AU where they were all.. half.. revived. Half dead, half alive, their eyes are a milky orange with grey pupils. Post-game interactions where they're all learning and growing and recovering from all the events. (This is my reason for headcanons and any slightly off-character behaviour). In collaboration with: @torpidAnarchy , @chivalrousAevirnity , @gracefulAdvocacy , @tentativelyConcise. The group had another incident where a third of them died again, this time properly, with no bubbles to hold them. The main group is now Mituna, Kankri, Porrim, Aranea, and Cronus; Kurloz hovers around but isn't as close; Damara and Meenah are off doing who knows what, and the rest.. are dead. It shook up the whole group, they try not to talk about it. ~~~~~~ This Kankri is Bi-gender, mostly fem-presenting, and is moirails with Porrim. After reflection on her gender identity and how she handled issues in the past, and another few conversations with Porrim, she realised that the old methods she was using weren't entirely all that helpful. For her, that meant relaxing her vows somewhat as they were a product of her own misguidance (in her opinion), and adjusting her language to fit the person she spoke to, or at least the length of her rants were shortened quite drastically to end when people usually seemed to start zoning out. Art by Cupid-tune - https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/61cfa02ed467.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/9bb9447e3167.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/28372141f20a.png shymagpiee https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/447b79223ee7.jpg //
It's c9mplete! 9h, I a6s9lutely ad9re it, it has all the little details I wanted and m9re. Thank y9u s9 much, @gracefulAdv9cacy ♦
That looks lovely on you, you know.
Ah! Thank y9u s9 much.
I must say, I positively adore that top. Is it a separate piece? Either way, you look adora8le.
Yes, it is a detacha6le capelet held in place with the ri669n 9n the fr9nt, and then the skirt and 6l9use c9me apart s9 they can 6e used with 9ther things. My num6er 9ne request was that it 6e practical. I'm s9 glad 9ther pe9ple like the design.
The design is clearly excellent, 8ut you also wear it very well. You also made excellent choices in the matter. There are far too many cute dresses out there that are completely impractical once you try them on, I dare say I'm a little jealous. ::::p
I co+uld gladly assist yo+u in that department.
Well, how could I possi8ly refuse?
Let me see what I can do+
Is there anything I can do to help?
Send me a message with any requests yo+u have o+r little details yo+u'd like included
It's alm9st d9ne.
#699k-Review N9.5 - Letters Acr9ss the Sapphire Current Genre: R9mance Rating: 8/10 Trigger Warnings: #L9ng-distance-relati9nship, #em9ti9nal-vulnera6ility, #mild-a6and9nment-themes, #awkward-c9mmunicati9n, #crying, #seas, #st9rms, #family-expectati9ns, #kissing, #l9neliness. This is 9ne 9f th9se r9mances where alm9st n9thing happens externally f9r l9ng stretches, yet I f9und myself reading "just 9ne m9re chapter" until I had accidentally finished the 699k. The premise is w9nderfully simple. Tw9 navigat9rs wh9 have never met 6egin exchanging 9fficial shipping rep9rts that gradually 6ec9me increasingly pers9nal 6ecause each 6elieves the 9ther is the 9nly pers9n wh9 understands the a6surdities 9f their pr9fessi9n. It is alm9st entirely c9rresp9ndence f9r the first half, and remarka6ly charming c9rresp9ndence at that. There is s9mething t9 6e said a69ut the way they speak s9 dearly t9 9ne an9ther, despite having n9 idea what the 9ther l99ks like. They d9 n9t see each 9ther in pers9n until well after Chapter Eight and attenti9n is 6r9ught t9 h9w they 69th write with a 6lack ink, s9 there are n9 clues as t9 wh9 the 9ther may 6e until their fateful meeting. I 6elieve this is what they mean when pe9ple say "l9ve is 6lind"; true c9nnecti9n is made thr9ugh em9ti9nal 69nds rather than physical. There are perhaps a few t99 many metaph9rs inv9lving tides. 6y the end I had 6ec9me c9nvinced that every em9ti9nal state availa6le t9 a sentient 6eing c9uld s9meh9w 6e c9mpared t9 9cean currents if 9ne were sufficiently determined. Still, the eventual meeting is w9rth the wait. It manages t9 6e sweet with9ut 6ec9ming sentimental, which is a surprisingly difficult 6alance t9 achieve.
Terri6ly s9rry f9r the delay, I've 6een a 6it t99 6usy lately t9 read. Turns 9ut 6eing a living mannequin can take up quite a 6it 9f time. An9ther #699k-review will 6e c9ming s99n!
I can see yo+u vibrating. Yo+u can't hide it ♦
#699k-Review N9.4 - A Murder f9r Every M99n Genre: Mystery Rating: 9/10 Trigger Warnings: #Murder, #6l99d, #grief, #s9cial-manipulati9n, #classism, #decepti9n, #funeral-scenes, #references-t9-p9is9n, #96sessive-6ehavi9ur, #candles, #instituti9nal-6ias, #discussi9ns-9f-auth9rity. I a6s9lutely ad9re mysteries that trust the reader, and this 9ne certainly d9es. It never cheats, alth9ugh it spends several hundred pages making y9u feel as th9ugh it has. Every m9nth, s9me9ne dies during the city's cerem9nial changing 9f the m99ns. N9t 6ecause 9f the cerem9ny, 9fficially, 6ut after the f9urth 9r fifth death 9ne 6egins t9 w9nder whether the distincti9n is 6ec9ming a little academic. The investigat9r isn't particularly 6rilliant in the theatrical sense. He d9esn't dramatically ann9unce deducti9ns while every9ne gasps. He m9stly succeeds 6ecause he listens when 9ther pe9ple have already decided wh9 is and isn't w9rth listening t9. That was pr96a6ly my fav9urite part. Every9ne is all9wed t9 give their acc9unt 9f events. Even the pe9ple the city has written 9ff as unrelia6le 9r inc9nvenient are treated as th9ugh they might actually kn9w s9mething a69ut their 9wn lives. That sh9uldn't feel remarka6le, and yet s9meh9w it did. Perhaps I'm 6ringing my 9wn 6aggage int9 it. I spent the 6etter part 9f eight sweeps learning that 9fficial rec9rds have a distressing tendency t9 6ec9me m9re auth9ritative than the pe9ple they're supp9sedly descri6ing. 9nce s9me9ne's file says they're incapa6le 9f understanding s9mething, it 6ec9mes ast9nishingly difficult t9 c9nvince any9ne 9therwise. This n9vel has a healthy distrust 9f paperw9rk used in place 9f actual investigati9n, and I appreciated that m9re than I expected. What impressed me m9st was h9w every suspect felt understanda6le. N969dy exists simply t9 6e suspici9us. Even the eventual culprit has m9tivati9ns that are, if n9t sympathetic, at least depressingly 6elieva6le. There was a c9nversati9n in the 96servat9ry that c9mpletely changed h9w I interpreted the previ9us tw9 hundred pages, and I actually flipped 6ackwards t9 c9nfirm the auth9r had 6een playing fair. They had. The s9luti9n itself is less dramatic than s9me readers may expect, 6ut I appreciated that immensely. S9metimes mysteries are impr9ved 6y resisting the temptati9n t9 reveal an ancient c9nspiracy inv9lving f9rg9tten g9ds 9r imp9ssi6le machines. S9metimes 9rdinary instituti9ns simply fail pe9ple 6ecause the pe9ple running them st9p asking questi9ns. An excellent example 9f restrained mystery writing.
#699k-Review N9.3 - Sixteenth 6ell Genre: Mystery Rating: 8/10 Trigger Warnings: #Murder, #executi9ns, #death, #6etrayal, #impris9nment, #manipulati9n, #vi9lence, #psych9l9gical-a6use. I 6egan this expecting an entertaining l9cked-r99m mystery. Halfway thr9ugh it quietly 6ecame s9mething c9nsidera6ly nastier. A gr9up 9f excepti9nally talented pe9ple find themselves impris9ned within an is9lated 6uilding where the 9nly apparent means 9f escape inv9lves c9mmitting the perfect murder. The central mysteries are excellent. The s9cial dynamics are s9meh9w even 6etter. Every chapter 6ec9mes an exercise in w9ndering n9t merely wh9 might kill, 6ut which relati9nships will survive l9ng en9ugh f9r murder t9 6ec9me necessary. I was particularly impressed 6y h9w effectively the n9vel dem9nstrates that h9pe can 6e manipulated just as th9r9ughly as fear. 6ef9rus preferred 9ptimism. Y9u were always t9ld that the system existed 6ecause every9ne wanted the 6est p9ssi6le 9utc9me. That is, unf9rtunately, 9ne 9f the easier lies t9 6elieve. I will say the final revelati9ns 6ec9me rather extravagant. Up until then, h9wever, this is 9ne 9f the sharpest mystery n9vels I've read in years.
#699k-Review N9.2 - The Engines 6eneath T9m9rr9w Genre: Science Ficti9n Rating: 4/10 Trigger Warnings: #Space-travel, #artificial-intelligence, #is9lati9n, #discussi9ns-9f-m9rtality, #machinery, #expl9si9ns, #existential-themes. I suspect this is an excellent science ficti9n n9vel. Unf9rtunately, it is science ficti9n. That is admittedly a rather difficult 96stacle t9 9verc9me. The premise c9ncerns an en9rm9us generati9n vessel wh9se aut9mated systems 6egin devel9ping pers9nalities after several centuries in transit. The engineering is th9ughtful, the phil9s9phical questi9ns are interesting, and the w9rld6uilding is remarka6ly c9herent. I simply d9 n9t enj9y reading a69ut machinery f9r quite this l9ng. There is an entire chapter dev9ted t9 maintenance pr9t9c9ls. Maintenance pr9t9c9ls. I appreciate that many readers ad9re this s9rt 9f detail. Mituna certainly did. He read 9ver my sh9ulder f9r several pages 6ef9re inf9rming me the react9r design was "actually pretty radical," which I accepted 9n trust. Pers9nally, I kept waiting f9r s9me9ne t9 leave the engine r99m and perhaps have a c9nversati9n. When the n9vel eventually shifted its attenti9n t9ward identity, mem9ry, and what 96ligati9ns creat9rs 9we the things they've made, I 6ecame genuinely invested. Rather ann9yingly, 6y that p9int I als9 had t9 admit it was d9ing th9se ideas excepti9nally well. S9 while I cann9t h9nestly rec9mmend it t9 any9ne wh9 shares my c9mplete indifference t9ward spaceships, I als9 cann9t deny that it is pr96a6ly acc9mplishing exactly what it set 9ut t9 acc9mplish. Which is an irritating p9siti9n t9 find 9neself in as a reviewer.
Perhaps I can admit the rating w9uld 6e higher if I liked the genre.. I will have t9 revisit at s9me p9int.
#699k-Review N9.1 - The Glass 9rchard Genre: Thriller Rating: 8.5/10 Trigger Warnings: #Anxiety, #family-c9nflict, #paran9ia, #manipulati9n, #em9ti9nal-neglect, #insects, #mirr9rs, #h9rticulture, #sleep-deprivati9n, #discussi9ns-9f-inheritance, #auth9rity-figures-making-decisi9ns-f9r-9thers. 9ne thing I appreciated alm9st immediately was that n969dy spends the entire n9vel insisting the pr9tag9nist is incapa6le 9f handling her 9wn inheritance. They think she's making terri6le decisi9ns, certainly, 6ut they still ackn9wledge they're her decisi9ns t9 make. I d9n't always n9tice things like that c9nsci9usly while I'm reading, 6ut when I finished I realised I'd 6een 9ddly relaxed thr9ugh the first few chapters, and I think that's why. Gr9wing up 9n 6ef9rus, "we're 9nly trying t9 help" was generally the sentence y9u heard immediately 6ef9re s9me9ne else started making y9ur ch9ices f9r y9u. I admit that's made me unfairly suspici9us 9f excepti9nally kind auth9rity figures in ficti9n. The aunt's lawyer had me c9nvinced f9r alm9st a hundred pages that he was secretly arranging s9me ela69rate c9nservat9rship ar9und the 9rchard. Turns 9ut he was simply a decent s9licit9r. Em6arrassing f9r me, really. The thriller itself is excellent. The reflecti9ns disappearing 6ef9re the pe9ple d9 is a w9nderfully unsettling idea, and the auth9r gets a great deal 9f mileage 9ut 9f every9ne treating imp9ssi6le h9rticulture as perfectly 9rdinary. The 9rchard als9 has a peculiar tendency t9 preserve mem9ries exactly as they happened rather than as pe9ple wish they had happened, which 6ec9mes increasingly imp9rtant. I liked that quite a l9t. I still think the ending c9uld have 6een slightly messier. The implicati9n that s9mething en9rm9us existed 6eneath the r99ts felt t99 imp9rtant t9 leave al9ne. Still, I spent m9st 9f a rainy aftern99n reading this in 9ne sitting, which is generally h9w I measure success.
I have decided t9 g9 ahead with that #699k-review idea. Luckily I have a c9uple fresh in my mind s9 I c9uld d9 tw9 t9day, 6ut may6e if I make it s9mething twice a week? That gives me en9ugh time t9 get thr9ugh the 699k and think a69ut the meanings a 6it l9nger. Give me a few h9urs t9 skim my m9st recent read s9 I can put my ann9tati9ns int9 actual w9rds instead 9f a6sent th9ughts in the margins.
I've 6een reading a l9t m9re than n9rmal recently, perhaps I sh9uld start d9ing 699k reviews.. It w9uld give me s9mething t9 talk a69ut 9n here.
It seems I've reached the unf9rtunate p9int in time where sentimental garments are starting t9 l9se their dura6ility. It l99ks like I'll have t9 start wearing m9re sweater-vests instead 9f sweaters if I want it t9 6lend in with my wardr96e m9re, 6ut that is a sacrifice I'll 6e willing t9 make f9r the sake 9f n9stalgia.
Dro+p it o+ff with me and I'll alter it as so+o+n as I can.
// Oh right #OOC post- A dancestor AU where they were all.. half.. revived. Half dead, half alive, their eyes are a milky orange with grey pupils. Post-game interactions where they're all learning and growing and recovering from all the events. (This is my reason for headcanons and any slightly off-character behaviour). In collaboration with: @torpidAnarchy , @chivalrousAevirnity , @gracefulAdvocacy , @tentativelyConcise. The group had another incident where a third of them died again, this time properly, with no bubbles to hold them. The main group is now Mituna, Kankri, Porrim, Aranea, and Cronus; Kurloz hovers around but isn't as close; Damara and Meenah are off doing who knows what, and the rest.. are dead. It shook up the whole group, they try not to talk about it. ~~~~~~ This Kankri is Bi-gender, mostly fem-presenting, and is moirails with Porrim. After reflection on her gender identity and how she handled issues in the past, and another few conversations with Porrim, she realised that the old methods she was using weren't entirely all that helpful. For her, that meant relaxing her vows somewhat as they were a product of her own misguidance (in her opinion), and adjusting her language to fit the person she spoke to, or at least the length of her rants were shortened quite drastically to end when people usually seemed to start zoning out. Art by Cupid-tune - https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/61cfa02ed467.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/9bb9447e3167.png https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/28372141f20a.png shymagpiee https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/447b79223ee7.jpg //
I think I have decided I hate 6eing in the 9cean. The 9cean itself is perfectly fine, I think I w9uld just like t9 stay away fr9m it as 6est I can.
A 6each party t9m9rr9w? I might have t9 spend t9day w9rking myself up t9 g9ing. I'm sure P9rrim has a sec9nd swimsuit she wants t9 put me in f9r such an event. I am curi9us wh9 else is g9ing. Mituna has 6een enc9uraging the rest 9f us t9 attend events and start getting t9 kn9w the 9ther pe9ple 9n here.
I'm m9re tuckered 9ut than I th9ught. I d9n't think I can even keep my eyes 9pen l9ng en9ugh t9 read after such a 6usy day. G99dlight every9ne.
All things c9nsidered, I enj9yed t9day. Having m9st 9f my legs exp9sed was definitely a new experience 6ut feminine swim suits c9mpress the f9rm in such a c9mf9rting way. P9rrim was right again, I supp9se.
すごくかわいかった！0u0
Ah, y9u saw the ph9t9. Thank, I supp9se. It t99k quite a 6it 9f c9nfidence just t9 get t9 that p9int, th9ugh I assure y9u I did manage t9 relax at s9me p9int after that was taken. Right ar9und when Cr9nus g9t a snail stuck t9 his 6ack.
ふふふ、面白そう。
It was certainly fun t9 watch. Tuna was chasing him ar9und with it f9r an h9ur. F9r a man c9vered in m9t9r 9il alm9st every day y9u'd think he w9uld 6e m9re used t9 slimy su6stances.
Heading ho+me fro+m the beach no+w! What a wo+nderful day. Managed to+ get a snapsho+t (yo+u kno+w I'm fo+rcing the rest o+f them to+ rechitt).
What a lo+vely pho+to+! And that is a go+rgeo+us swimsuit o+n yo+u, Po+rim. :)
Try to+ co+ntain yo+urself
Why thank yo+u! I debated making the skirt mo+re o+f a mesh material but ho+nestly the flo+w o+f this o+ne just fit so+ much better
stanced up like vwenus de milo ovwer here.
I suppo+se I can accept that o+ne. Being co+mpared to+ a histo+ric piece o+f art o+f such an ico+nic go+ddess is certainly much better than the usual co+mpliments
oh, yeah! yeah you, for sure babe, looking good.
Go+ near her and yo+u'll regret it.
Still can't beliewve none of you stepped in vwith that snail
< Couldn't even tell you wanted it off >
her?! humina humina humina! avwooga!
P9rrim and Kurl9z have individually g9tten me swim suits f9r 9ur 6each trip t9day, and while I appreciate 69th, I'm n9t sure 9n which t9 g9 f9r. I supp9se I sh9uld wear the 9nce piece under the shirt and sh9rts, then it w9uld all9w me t9 change thr9ugh9ut the day. I just w9rry the c9mpressi9n 9f the first w9uld remind me its there while I'm in 69y-m9de. Decisi9ns, decisi9ns.
The frills are remo+veable, if that helps, and the synched waist is a tie that can be undo+ne
9h, y9u're right. Y9u really th9ught 9f everything..
Of co+urse, I did
9n a side n9te, it really is t99 warm in this little area we have. I th9ught the sun was supp9sed t9 6urn, n9t sl9w r9ast.
I think it's actually quite nice especially when yo+u dress lightly.
I must admit, s9metimes I find myself l99king at s9me9ne 9r s9me pe9ple and feeling this deep ache in my chest. At 9ne p9int I th9ught it was l9nging, may6e a jeal9usy 9ver s9mething I th9ught I c9uld n9t have; perhaps it even hurt m9re 6ecause I th9ught the pain was my 9wn fault, a restricti9n I had given myself while I was still y9ung and f9cusing my energy int9 t9pics in way that was n9t quite as.. c9nstructive as my y9unger self th9ught they were. 9f c9urse that su6ject matter was and still is extremely imp9rtant, I just see n9w that my eff9rts sh9uld have 6een f9cused in an9ther directi9n, as sh9uld my c9mpani9ns'. N9, after much th9ught I came t9 the realisati9n that that envy was n9t c9vet9usness 6ut in fact a much deeper calling. 9ne I had n9t expected t9 f9ll9w me further int9 my unlife. Truth 6e t9ld when it was first p9inted 9ut t9 me I adamantly denied it, th9ugh like many times 6ef9re it I sh9uld have listened t9 the pers9n that was telling me this fact. That my feelings 9n this matter were n9rmal, that there was n9 need t9 reject it s9 deeply. H9nestly, I think it was when it f9ll9wed me 6ack int9 a living and 6reathing 69dy that I truly registered it wasn't just a fleeting th9ught. I all9wed that c9nfidant t9 indulge; m9stly 9ut 9f curi9sity I'll admit, 6ut partially 6ecause I was h9ping she was right. And.. she was. 9f c9urse, she was. She is n9t usually wr9ng when it c9mes t9 matters 9f femininity. I supp9se, tying this 6ack, that i really was feeling l9nging that wh9le time, f9r s9mething I th9ught I c9uldn't have. 6ut I can. Pursuing the femininity I saw in 9thers, fulfilling that l9nging, it changed s9mething in my pan, I think. My v9ws 6ecame l99ser, my p9sture m9re relaxed. Apparently I started smiling m9re, like I was a6le t9 feel c9ntent. Finally feeling satisfied helped me realise that my pursuit 9f fulfilment was ill-inf9rmed and rather misguided, and th9ugh I still care deeply a69ut th9se causes, I g9 a69ut them in a much different way n9w, with a much calmer eye and a keener sense 9f my audience. I c9uldn't have d9ne that if it weren't f9r @gracefulAdv9cacy Thank y9u.
Aw, Kanny, what's go+t yo+u feeling all sentimental this light? Do+ yo+u need to+ talk?
I think I'll 6e alright. It's just a 6it late.