They don't even know about my #richbackstory rife with #trauma that directly resulted in my #insomnia and #sleepparalysis among other things. #lol
>> ¡ exper¡ence ડ1eep para1yડ¡ડ too ^ ^;; ¡'m ડorry you're go¡ng through that Caડper
Ugh you're so sweet. Shame.
>> ¡t'ડ terr¡b1e, ¡ w¡ડh you d¡dn't have to ડuffer from ¡t :(( ¡f you ever need to ta1k, ¡'11 be here
#iwillnevertalkaboutitinfull #muchtomy"therapists"chagrin
#nsfl
>> ¡'m ડo ડorry 🫂🫂🫂
#enuff
& ♯sometimes when i ♯closemyeyes it feels as though i am ♯stillwiththem we are ♯laughing & ♯playingcards & when i ♯turn to ♯respond to a ♯question ♯theirfaces only ♯reflect ♯bottomlesspits of ♯darkness that has no ♯end / ♯static / ♯theirfeatures are ♯gone / ♯theirvoices are ♯warped / & when ♯mybulbs ♯trulyopen i am ♯clutching my ♯chest & ♯suffocatedbyweight / ♯whimpering like a ♯woundedanimal/ ♯ignoring the ♯ringing of ♯screams that ♯scratch the ♯edges of ♯mypsyche / ♯sometimes i ♯see ♯theirfigures in the ♯corners of ♯myeyes / i still ♯hear ♯theirvoices in ♯thewind / when i ♯facethem in ♯mydreams they ♯donot ♯speaktomedirectly / although i have ♯forgottentheirfeatures i ♯see them in ♯those i ♯carefor / ♯&yet i am ♯forced to ♯continue ♯walkingthisplanet alongside ♯whotookthemoutofit & ♯forced to ♯continue knowing that they ♯brutallyperished in ♯vain / in my ♯pursuit of ♯power i only feel ♯more&morehelpless / ♯noamount of ♯fear will ♯keepmesafe & ♯noamount of ♯waiting will ♯makemebrave ♯traumadumping ♯nsfc ♯nsfp