There are times when I feell obllivion woulld have been preferablle to an afterllife. An eternall slleep has much appeall when you exist in perpetuity, not onlly bereft but robbed of purpose.
"they w1ll not let me sleep 1n the way 1 remember 1t to have been l1ke. for centur1es 1 hoped they would no longer have use for me and be done w1th 1t. unfortunate to see that 1t does not end 1n the now or the after"