what do you live for?

oh, well its alright! mistakes happen!
the last time .i felt .it, .it was wrong. .i now grieve for him since .i dueled with him. with myself. .i don't know, but .i can say .i'm .at "near-death .experience" but don't have nothing to keep myself going. .i have nothing to lose now. sorry for rambling.
(string^ 'it's literally fine to be selfish. it's base instinct') (string^ 'at the end of everything, you will always have yourself') (string^ 'what grander motivation does there need to be?')
.i... live to server. that was like, my subconscious motivation? .at least .i know this now. .i don't know.
T[][]is only means you [][]ave not[][]ing to lose by continuing. W[][]o's going to stop you from trying?
void.
literal void. .i'm .in .a void, .i guess.
Now t[][]at's a situation I'm not familiar wit[][]. It sounds... strangely peaceful.
(string^ 'i mean you could live to serve. but that's kinda shallow, no?') (string^ 'you said my reason was basic. but if you're not enjoying. serving,') (string^ 'which it seems like you're not.') (string^ 'do literally anything else. stopping entirely means there's no other possibile ending.')
