ππππ ππππππ’ πππππππ ππ:@arachnidGambler βThatβs not true,β you tell yourself. You know the cruelty living in your hands. You hate everything youβve becomeβ the shape of your name, the sound of your own thoughts. So you keep pailing with strangers, keep pretending not to care, while secretly wishing someone had loved you gently enough to stay. You wish you were good. Or at least forgivable. But nothing erases it. Not the pills, not the rope around your neck, not the trembling excuses you whisper to yourself. You think about the things pain taught you to do, and it makes your whole body shake. Maybe it could have been worse. Maybe that should comfort you. But it doesnβt. Because some stains never leaveβ not their touch, not the blood on your hands. #nsfw #nsfwe #substance #suicide #cw-self-harm Back so soon are we? πΌπππππ’ πππ