when s)(e died and s)(e wasnt in my pan anymore i lost a lot of what i thought was me i lost what made me the wolf and now im just a dumb mutt
im not as alert or smart or efficient as i was maybe i put it in a mean way but i am literally lesser without )(er
sounds gay. get good. you did it before, you can do it again. coach died in a horrible hot dog stand related incident but the big game is still coming up and youve gotta put on a real show, youve gotta pull out all the stops, you cant let the rival team win *again* or else the schools sports program is going to be shut down for good. its the bottom of the ninth, 3rd down, the scrimmage is ready, and youre still an absolute beast(sona) on the court, with or without coach cake warming the bench and glaring you down.
you're so much more without her. the edge you miss cut through relationships you never allowed yourself.
...If I may reframe things somewhat: It sounds less like you are lesser, and more like you have priorities other than efficacy as an arm of )(er authority.
....maybe i dont know i mean its true, i do ive already committed to not going back to )(er i love )(er still but s)(e kept me from doing so many things that i love now but then something like today happens and i feel so helpless without )(er control