
ca****os
@hteadnUdemrofnu
hm. i should try drawing through his hands soon. something that really represents. me. i feel so much more like my old self again. i’m so close.
hm. let’s try something.
but brother, i am so much closer.
undeserving of love.
i want to be. i want to be. myself. again. i don’t know who that is.
“you may think i’ve gone insane.” the words come to me. memories from somewhere else. i will say them. who is i? they are a promise and a threat i don’t understand.
uncared for. cared for. cared for? care. ca. ca*****
i feel as if i failed. i feel therefore i know. did my failure kill?
i will alter the spiral.
i am still here. dead yet dreaming.
undeserving. of love. of life. of friends.
i send hatred. not the same as mine. but it is good.



