@nautiliteMooncatcher — #death
⦓ Don't go to the places where the memories are that's where the memories are. Except here I am. In my hive. Where the memories are. Except the ones I can't even recall because they were taken from me. There's a whole floor I don't even go in. There's bloodstains I can't scrub out. Things are missing that should have been there. I don't sleep in my respiteblock anymore because it reminds me of her, and I never look at the stairs going up to the gates because the damage done to them reminds me of the final fight. ⦔ ⦓ ... Ugh. Floor time again I guess. What else can I even do? What else even is there? An...Read more
⦓ ... So I'm just sitting here. The guy who killed my partner and two others, and just stabbed me to death several times in a row, is smoking a cigarette like five feet away from me. But I can't really do anything about that. So I'm just sitting. I don't even think I have the energy to be mad right now. She would've pulled his spine out. I know she would've. But I'm... Not. For some reason. ⦔
⦓ ... Well, I knew it would be empty, but... It's emptier than I expected. I guess I never got to see if our Jack actually left a body, or if they got him with his own weapon... Still don't know where he got a weapon like that, honestly. But there's nothing here. Maybe they buried him. Maybe he got up and walked away. I kind of don't really care... Godspeed to the guy who permakilled the first three players within a couple days. Fuck him. That particular one, obviously. ⦔
⦓ At least I know now why I keep fucking up at the most important moments. They wanted me to. Fuck. I just don't know why...! I just do not understand why! Why would anyone want their companions to die? Why would anyone want to make it look like it was my fault? I believed it was! I truly... I thought I... I thought I was the reason they died... ⦔