@nautiliteMooncatcher — #vent
⦓ Unclear whether I want affection or want to be as far as possible from the people I don't want to hurt and thus I have ended up #vent posting on chittr instead. My apologies for that. I'm going to... I don't know. Figure it out, I guess. ⦔ ⦓ Hope you all have a good rest of your night or day or whatever time it is for you. ⦔
⦓ Don't go to the places where the memories are that's where the memories are. Except here I am. In my hive. Where the memories are. Except the ones I can't even recall because they were taken from me. There's a whole floor I don't even go in. There's bloodstains I can't scrub out. Things are missing that should have been there. I don't sleep in my respiteblock anymore because it reminds me of her, and I never look at the stairs going up to the gates because the damage done to them reminds me of the final fight. ⦔ ⦓ ... Ugh. Floor time again I guess. What else can I even do? What else even is there? An...Read more
⦓ ... And the mood has once again swung down. But I did enjoy the upswing so I hope next time I can hold onto it a little longer... ⦔ ⦓ ... Their last post was five days ago. I can't help but worry. Don't ask who I'm talking about, I'm just venting a little... ⦔
⦓ I want the mania back it makes me stupid and I keep embarrassing myself but at least I'm stupid in an almost happy way... The mood swings have been angling too low for a while. What's the use of having mood swings if they won't go up? that's just... a pendulum i suppose. ⦔