K--<anyway ftr shes under the impression i culled myself so i cant just call her #cw-self-harm
THAT MAKES YOu SOuND DYSFuNCTIONAL. RATHER THAN HER ARMS BEING ALL THAT SPECIAL. IT'S NOT HER. YOu JuST HAVEN'T BEEN EMBRACED OFTEN. YOuR HYPER LIMITED SCOPE OF WHAT THAT MEANS. SAFETY. PuTS AN uNNATuRALLY MAGNANIMOuS BuRDEN ON HER FuCKING ASS. NO WONDER SHE BLOCKED YOu. SHIT. I WOuLD BLOCK YOuR MOPEY HIGH MAINTENANCE ASS TOO. IF I WASN'T YELLING AT IT. YOu ARE LITERALLY PuTTING EXPECTATIONS ON HER. SPOKEN AND uNSPOKEN. TO BE THERE AND RESCuE YOuR FLIGHTY ASS. THAT IS SO FuCKING SAD. AND TOXIC. AND PuKE IN YOuR OWN MOuTH DISGuSTING. THINK. BuRAIS. THINK. WHAT IF SOME GLASS SKIN THIN FuCKING WEIRDO CREEP. CAME uP TO YOu. AND ASKED YOu TO SuCK THEIR TOES. TO SAVE THEIR LIFE. WOuLD YOu DO IT. OR WOuLD YOu REASONABLY SAY. EW. NO. GROSS. GET THE FuCK AWAY FROM ME. AND THEY COuNTER WITH. WELL I ONLY FEEL SAFE WHEN YOu ARE SuCKING MY TOES. IT'S LIKE. WHO FuCKING CARES??? YOu DO NOT OWN ME. YOu DO NOT GOVERN WHAT I DO WITH MY TIME. YOu HISTRIONIC FuCKHEAD. TOuGHEN uP. TOuGHEN THE FuCK uP.
K--<youre entirely right man which is why i hate myself
HATE YOuRSELF CONSTRuCTIVELY.
K--<i really try man
HATE THE YOu THAT IS WEAK ENOuGH TO TALK LIKE THIS. AND CARRY THAT WEIGHT. LET IT RIP YOuR BODY ASuNDER. LET IT TEAR YOuR MuSCLES. AS YOu PuLL IT OuT OF A BuRNING HIVE. DESPERATE TO LIVE DIFFERENTLY. YOu ARE A. WHAT ARE THEY CALLED. 'TRANS FEMCEL'. I JuST CHECKED YOuR BIO. YOu ARE ALREADY. SPITTING IN THE FACE OF HOW YOu HATCHED. SCuLPTING REALITY. TO SuIT YOuR COMFORT. HOW THE FuCK IS THAT NOT GROuNDS ENOuGH TO MAKE OTHER CHANGES. TO RECOGNIZE A NEED FOR CHANGE. YOu CANNOT KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS. BuT YOu HAVE NO CHOICE BuT TO LIVE. YOu STuPID BITCH.
NO. YOu DON'T. THIS IS NOT TRYING. THIS IS GIVING uP. CALLING IT TOO HARD. AND CREDITING YOuRSELF FOR ANOTHER SELF-THWARTED ATTEMPT. FuCK OFF. AND BE SO FOR REAL ABOuT IT. WHILE YOu ARE FuCKING OFF.
K--<i am broke and live in a shithole hivestem in a shithole hivecluster and theyre gonna cull me this sweep and i havent slept properly in blinks because i see her every night i literally do not have the strength to do anything but stay alive and i am doing my best to do that right now
OKAY? AND? AND? AND? BuRAIS KARLEH? YOu STuPID BITCH? SOMETIMES. SuRVIVING TO THE END OF THE DAY. IS JuST GOING TO HAVE TO BE ALRIGHT WITH YOu! SOMETIMES. IT TAKES MORE ENERGY THAN YOu HAVE. JuST TO MAKE IT THERE. SO IT IS A MIRACLE. WORTH CELEBRATING. THAT YOu EVEN DID. SO MANY PEOPLE. HAVE IT SO MuCH EASIER THAN YOu. AND GuESS WHAT? THEY FuCKING DIE. THEY GIVE uP. THROW THEIR HANDS uP. AND SAY. FuCK IT. YOu ARE AT THAT POINT. RIGHT NOW. AND YOu DON'T EVEN WANT TO ENTERTAIN THE IDEA. THAT MAYBE. JuST MAYBE. THESE PEOPLE WERE SHORT SIGHTED. THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING NICER AROuND THE CORNER. INSTEAD OF TRYING. TO SEE THE CHARM. IN BEING A BAD BITCH. WITH GNARLY SCARS. AND SICK TRAuMA. WHICH. BY THE WAY. CHICKS DIG THAT STuFF. NOTHING GETS YOu TOGETHER WITH SOMEONE MORE FLuIDLY. THAN SHIT TALKING A SKANK HOE EX. WHO WAS HEARTLESS AND MEAN. BuT YEAH. SICK SCARS. SICKER TRAuMA. IN A POOR PART OF TOWN. JuSTIFICATION. TO STAY AT THEIR PLACE INSTEAD OF YOuRS. AND SOME NICHE APPEAL EYEBAGS. THAT FuCKERS WILL GO GAGA FOR. SuRE. YOu ARE NOT DOING YOuR BEST. AND YOu WON'T BE FOR SOME TIME. ENDING A RELATIONSHIP. IS LIKE DYING. EXCEPT. NOT FOR PRETEND. YOu HAVE TO uNLEARN WHO YOu WERE WITH THAT PERSON. TO LEARN WHO YOu'LL BECOME WITHOuT.
(( shes being so utterly cooked its actually making me the mun feel bad so im gonna have to drop the conversation here but oh my god i cant believe the best breakup advice ive recieved is from fucking CALIBORN ))
WHATEVER. IT HAS BEEN FIVE MINuTES. AND I GROW BORED WITH WAITING ON YOuR SLuGGISH ASS TO PICK ITSELF uP AND ANSWER. ONE LAST COuP DE GRACE. KILLING BLOW OF LIFE. IF YOu WILL. THAT I WILL LEAVE YOu WITH. DON'T YOu WANT TO AT LEAST LOOK YOuR VICTIM IN THE EYE BEFORE YOu KILL THEM. I HAVE KILLED COuNTLESS PEOPLE. BuT I REMEMBER ALL OF THEIR FACES, SCREAMING. IN DISINTEGRATED AGONY. IT IS AMuSING AS FuCK. BuT ALSO. IT WEIGHS ON YOu. AND DEATH. WILL NOT GET RID OF THAT WEIGHT. I HAVE MET THE DEAD. THEIR CuRRENCY IS FORGIVENESS. THEIR DEBTS ARE REGRET. AND THERE WASN'T A PERSON IN THERE THAT COuLD GO BAND FOR BAND WITH THE LIVING. DON'T YOu WANT TO DISCOVER WHO THE FuCK IT IS. YOu ARE PuTTING A SORRY ASS END TO? JuST TO BE SuRE? COWARDS KILL THEMSELVES. BECAuSE THEY DON'T EVEN LOOK PAST THE BARREL OF THE GuN WHEN THEY DO IT. TO THEM. THERE IS NOTHING THERE. BuT THAT IS BECAuSE THEY ARE BLINDED BY SOB STORY SOLICITED TEARS. STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOuRSELF. FOR MuRDERING A TOTAL STRANGER. YOu FIGuRE YOuRSELF THE FuCK OuT. AND YOu LOAD A REAL WEAPON. AGAINST ACTuAL THREATS TO YOuRSELF. NOT THIS PARANOIA ALLERGIC BuLLSHIT ATTACK FROM WITHIN NONESENSE. FuCK YOu. YOu SHOuLD FEEL SICK YOu EVER THOuGHT OF THIS. BECAuSE IT IS SICKNESS. IT IS. IT LITERALLY IS. AND YOu NEED TIME. TO GET BETTER. SO STOP FuCKING DENYING YOuRSELF IT. BY PICKING AT SCABS OF OLD WOuNDS. AND FOR THE LOVE OF FuCK. QuIT RANTING ABOuT WANTING TO SELF-ANNIHILATE. I AM EVENTuALLY GOING TO GET AROuND TO KILLING YOu ANYWAY. DON'T FuCKING RuSH ME. OR MY HANDMAID. CALIBORN. OuTTIE.