#tw-abuse
he terrifies me and i also fantasize about him gently holding me and smiling and telling me he loves me more than anything even that puppet #incest #yearning #cw-abuse #tw-abuse
the casual mix between discomfort and yearning when thinking about my older brother #incest #yearning #abuse #cw-abuse #tw-abuse
i just want some proof he cared about me or that he didnt hate me #cw-abuse #tw-abuse
spotify is so funny you can just search missing my abuser and someone made a playlist about it and then you can sort of think about the fact you are not alone in that different kind of abuse between me and this playlist maker i imagine but it is sort of nice in a fucked up way to know other people get like this too #tw-abuse #cw-abuse
still crazy being an adult and feeling like a child again whenever i think about him so fucking small and scared #tw-abuse #tw-child-abuse
time to check every room in my house for a hidden camera despite knowing he died before i even had my own place and then checking again because he would have hidden them better than i could find #tw-abuse #ocd #intrusivethoughts
always gonna be wild how a girl can go through nothing but pain in her life suffer at the hands of men be objectified and be hurt and yet girls will still fight girls if they aren't on the same level hahaha womanhood is hard and stupid this is why bro taught me to act like a man i get it now #abuse #tw-abuse