iT IS NEAT SEEING, tHE WAYS MY BODY HAS CHANGED, sINCE i STARTED ON MY, nEW MEDS (nOT THE, iBS ONES), l1KE, i L1KE HAVING A CHEST NOW, tHOUGH, iT ALSO MAKES ME A L1TTLE WISTFUL AND BITTERSWEET, fEELING, lIKE, wHAT IF i HAD F1GURED MYSELF OUT, aND STARTED SWEEPS AGO, mAYBE i WOULDN'T BE, sO TALL, oR MY FEATURES MIGHT BE, sOFTER OR, mY VOICE, wOULDN'T BE LIKE THIS,,, iT'S N1CE, iT'S GOOD THAT i F1GURED THINGS OUT, aT ALL, bUT,,, i DUNNO, iT MAKES ME THINK,
If it helps, I started super young and then had to spend a significant amount of time when I was 9 sweeps reverting to my original mascvoice because the femvoice I was using at the time was too artificial and more representative of who other people wanted me to be than who I really was. Having to redo my voice training from scratch was. Really annoying, not going to lie. Sometimes I wonder if I could have dodged some of the more ridiculous problems if I'd started transitioning in adulthood instead
tHANK YOU, fOR YOUR KIND WORDS, i KNOW IT IS SORT OF, nOT HELPFUL AT ALL, tO FOCUS ON ALL THESE, wHAT IFS, bUT, i WANT TO FOCUS ON THEM, aNYWAYS,
<-(((There used to be someone with the same delayed pupation disorder in my local scene, she was absurdly long and had to be carried around on a platform by what she called "stage hands" since her little legs didn't quite beat out the square cubed law)))->
wAIT, hOW DID YOU KNOW i HAVE, dPD, tHIS IS ABOUT,,, oH, wAIT, nEVER MIND, aCTUALLY,