Thiamy Diener
@analyticalHemophiliac
mediculler. ex-clown. be warned - i may act unprofessional here. [pfp by anabanana]
|--[ disgusted. feeling filthy. feeling sick. Angry. Bitter. sAd. whittling dOwn until i resent the persOn i wAs And the persOn i lOved. they Are lOng gOne. ]-->
|--[ my ex-mAtesprit tAlked ABOut me, it seems. i fOund their pOst By Accident And it mentiOned me By nAme. i will Admit thAt things were BAd At the end Of Our relAtiOnship BecAuse Of me. But i did nOt intentiOnAlly cAuse Any grief priOr tO thAt - if it hAppened, it is sOmething i need tO wOrk On preventing. i dO nOt recAll ever trying tO gAslight Or dOwnplAy their feelings. they needed suppOrt And i Offered it. But thAt is nOt why i Am cOmplAining, chittr. nOt Only dO they deeply hAte me, But they hOpe thAt i lOse sOmeOne i cAre ABOut. thAt i feel grief And regret And suffer. dO they nOt recAll thAt i wAs in grief when i gAve them thAt finAl ultimAtum? perhAps nOt. i wOuld never speAk ill Of yOu. But it is fAir tO sAy thAt whAtever feelings i hAd thAt lingered Are nO mOre. i will miss the dAys Of Our shAred yOuth But i will nOt miss yOu. #vent #persOnAl ]-->
((man i've been baking in this heat! only ray of metaphorical sunshine is i finally got a project on steam and can finally move onto other stuff
|--[ i hAve returned frOm my Brief vAcAtiOn. my BOdy is sOre. i Am gOing tO need severAl dAys tO recOver frOm the vAcAtiOn. ]-->
|--[ i dO nOt trust chirOprActOrs. it wOuld Be incrediBly eAsy tO Be injured Or wOrse By their hAnd. ]-->
|--[ Once AgAin i Am nude And BeAting the heAt. these cOnditiOns Are unAcceptABle. #nsfw ]-->
|--[ i fucked up. left the windOw Open eArlier, nOw my BAthrOOm hAs Bugs in it. it is very lAte And very hOt, And i cAnnOt Be Asked tO dO Anything tO fix it At this hOur Aside frOm keep the dOOr shut. ]-->
|--[ i'll Be gOne fOr A week stArting this sundAy. which is...One wAy Of sAying i Am hOpeful sOmeOne will messAge me in An unprOfessiOnAl mAnner. ]-->
|--[ hm. seems sOme pOeple like the ideA Of me relAxing A little tOO cOmfOrtABly. yOu will nOt receive Any pictures. ]-->
|--[ currently in my persOnAl Office/clOset, nude with A tAll lemOnAde in hAnd with A fAn BlAsting my BAre skin. #nsfw ]-->
|--[ with heAtwAves underwAy in sOme AreAs, pleAse - dO nOt drink AlcOhOl. the Only fluids yOu need Are wAter And juices. ]-->
|--[ it seems i mAy hAve missed Out On A lOt Of things. ]-->
|--[ this is gOing tO Be very unprOfessiOnAl Of me But if sOmeOne were tO enter my dms And...engAge in lewd cOnversAtiOn with me, i wOuld nOt Be OppOsed tO it. #nsfw ]-->
|--[ sAys the persOn entertAining the ideA Of AnAl electrOcutiOn. ]-->
|--[ medicAl Advice fOr the dAy - if it sAys it's fOr lusii, it is nOt fit fOr yOur cOnsumptiOn. #pAtientcOnfidentiAlity ]-->
|--[ wOw. i Am incrediBly lOnely. ]-->
|--[ Only kind Of jermA i pArtAke in is germ-A theOry. But i will cOnsider it. ]-->
|--[ my wriggling dAy is in A week. i'm stuck fOr ideAs Aside frOm "gO Out intO the city". ]-->
|--[ sO. is AnyOne plAcing Bets On whO will Be culled first On mAtesprit islAnd? ]-->
|--[ sOmetimes i think ABOut whAt used tO Be. whAt plAns we hAd, whAt the future cOuld hAve held. even thOugh i cAnnOt fOrgive yOu, i cAnnOt fOrgive myself either. i hOpe yOu Are well. #vent #vAguepOst ]-->