.i'm sorry but .i can't help myself. .i have so many thoughts .in my head .and .i hate .all .of them. .i hate them. really, really bad. .i'm just crying because .i can't get .out .of my thinkpan. .i won't tell which .are because they .are that horrific, but .i'm trying to think better .of them. hard. .i'm so tired. .i want to talk .a lot, talk to someone. but .at the same time .i'm scared that .i will say something bad, that .i'll hurt them. .am .i that bad .as .a whole? .or my fate .is set .and .i have to suffer .it? .i .am so, so sorry... .i... .i want .a hug .or someone to cuddle me... .i .am so sorry. .i... .at least .i'm better handling bad part .of my .anxiety... much less scratching... .i'm happy with that little progress .i have... thank you, kindly... sorry... #cw-mental-health #cw-self-harm