@anxiousTautology — #cw-self-harm
(( Another... semi-canon bullshit??? well it's canon, but not yet. https://hive.beebbeebboob.ru/posts/IMG_104N.png #cw-self-harm but no actual doings of it ))
(( RANDOM NON-CANON BULLSHIT GO https://hive.beebbeebboob.ru/posts/IMG_103N.png #nsfw and signs of #cw-self-harm due to char's arc. Overall it's total NSFW with no extreme ))
.i woke .up... .uhhh .i feel hungry. .i haven't been .eating .or drinking .in .awhile. .i'm lost like. too tired sorry... .i want to .end this... .i'm starting to hear whispers .in this place. goodlight chittr, .i may go .insane, .i guess #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-heatlh
.i .am having .awful, .awful thoughts. .i think, .i .am losing grip .on reality. sorry, but .i'm .out .of supplies .and .i'm bad .at this. .i still don't .understand .on how to make new .items, .at least basics. .i haven't slept that long .amount before, .i guess. but .i don't see .any places .other see. .uhhh... sorry to .everyone. .i'm .useless... seems .i met my .own .ending here. .i... .i don't .even know what to do now. .i had .at least my job .and some tries .in new hobbies. but now .i don't have .anything. shooting .is fun, but my .arm feel sore .on .every shot. people think shooting for prolong t...Read more
stick myself full .of pushpins .i can feel my .ego deflating .i'm so bad .at first .impressions .i warm .up like leftover cat food .if .i .end .up back .at square .one .i've got .a date with my toaster .in the bathtub .i'm flying way too close to the sun .i burn .up, burn .out .all .at .once #lyricposting #lyricsposting #cw-self-harm
>>| let's call .a vote then. should .i die? pity for no, mediate for yes. #death #cw-death .it .is not #cw-self-harm
>>| you know what. fine! screw this. .i scratched my .arms .all week while .i've been .absent from chittr. not .even beverage helped me. .and .i'm still going through .it. for now .i'm somewhat "stable". .all because .of this stupid game .and this stupid fate. .one night .i was living .a peaceful night .on .alternia, but .another .i'm who knows there .on some stupid planet with .unimaginable crap .and stuff. @hushedcardiomyopathy shut .up for .once. .i .am not pathetic. you're the .one who .is pathetic. you still can't get simple facts .into your .own mind, going .all cute .and still kneeling to people...Read more
>>| she doesn't learn... what .a sad display. #directposting .edit: #cw-self-harm she can't get .over this crap.
>>| well. .i may just write farewell letter .or something. .or how like how .it goes? crap... sorry. .i may just shut .up sorry .uhhh... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i wonder .if .i .eligible for disability pride badge? like with mental .issue stuff .and weak .arms, .i guess? #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| redacted. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| self harm free .a week now! that's nice. stayed healthy, no .anxiety .and no stress. .i'm .actually happy that finally, no bad stuff happened this week. .i wish the best for my friends. stay safe! #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health but .it didn't happened.
>>| .i .am not pathetic! this .is my mental health .issue you bulgesucker talk blaster twerp! #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health #vagueposting
>>| .alright .uhhh. need to get myself .up. .i may go, take some shots .and drinks. some beverage. clean my head .and have some fun .in the .event. so for now. .i hope. really hope. no more friends .of mine, getting .into bad situation. not to mention, the worst .imaginable. .i don't want to go .over this .again. .i can't handle .all .anxiety .and stress .and .other nasty .emotions. .i mean .it. #substance .implied #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .alright. .uhhh sorry. .i'm good now. .i'm thankful to zemich for the help. sorry .if .i kept some people worry. .it's just.. .i'm just good now that .is .all. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health @normaleveryday
>>| .i'll be good. sorry. help .on way #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry .i may passt .out no.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry... .i.. .i'm good, just time... just pain to .ease my feelings... sorry... but she .is fine? .i saw her .earlier... .i .am sorry.. https://hive.beeb.trl/posts/img_083.png #gore #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| . .. sorrry. .i.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry.. give me some time please.. .i'm sory this .isjust too much.. no.. .i.... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i... .i'm sorry. .i... this .is just... fucked .up. .i so. .i .am so sorry.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| self harm free for .a week. that's nice, but .i have better score.. .i wonder. no .implications .of #cw-self-harm
(( Doing this OOC shit, just in case people get worried about Possy go haywire. And also OOC-IC line smearing (I supar-rarely do OOC, cause breaks RP) But yeahh he is dumb in head, but it's just characters and Posnah needs some suffering(me: holding gun to his head). No regrets btw. It's about #cw-self-harm and #cw-mental-health. Has been there forevar ))
>>| redacted. .i'm sorry, .i was just .overthinking. .it's gone, the stupid words .are gone. don't worry. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health #cw-suicide #suicide
>>| just. slowly bleeding .out. sorry.. keep going. .i'm sorry, .i'm just feeling tired. .uhhh. taking .a nap here, sounds .if rain .is nice. sorry.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health #gore
>>| .uhhh. sorry. .i need some time. .i may chitt later .if my thoughts will settle down. .i'm just happy .at least that my shift .ended. .and .uhhh. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i want to chitt something, but .i don't have .anything .at .all. not .even .any news. .everything's bad. could cull myself right .on the spot. life can be boring. #suicide #cw-suicide #cw-self-harm #suicide-thoughts
>>| look. for the last few hours, .i had .a lot .of stuff that .i tried to .ignore. .i will not go .into details, but .i here .is .a hint. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health .i'm doing this chitt to say .i'm going to take .a rest, for reasons. second .of .all, @packagehandler. curree please. get yourself together. .and hope that gloom .is .all safe .and .intact. .i hope! .it's hard .and .i know this feeling. but don't go the route .i did. she did. .or .if .after my sleep you will still be .in this state, .i will find you .and shoosh you. cookie with .a tea for you.
>>| finished treating my .arms with bandages. got .into big mess. .i'm good. .uhhh. #gore #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry, but .i'm passing .out for now.. nice to know curree .is goood.... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| not .again... sorry... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i'm sorry. .uhhh. .i need to take timeout. .i'll be good. .i'm so sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| "are you .a motherfucking masochist .or some shit???" no. my self harm posts mostly .is .about my mentality .issues. some people may know .it for months with my .existence .on feed. .i hurt myself .if .i get too .anxious .or too stressed, like bad .emotional meltdown. .it's .a mechanism that .i had for sweeps. .origin? .i won't reveal. that's the secret .i will take to the grave, .i guess. by the by, that .is .a good chitt to cover .up what .i have bad for you, .if you follow me .or want to be my friend .or .even .acquaintance. don't talk to me then. https://hive.beeb.trl/qna/ #gore #violence ...Read more
>>| .alright no. .i'm going back to the cocoon .and try to drown .or pass .away. .i'm not motivated to go to work. .unless there .is going to be some .event. .or later, .i'll go do my server. #cw-self-harm #tech
>>| there .are moments when the time .is .almost .out .and task will be failed. .in such moments, you may want to push yourself harder, despite how .it will .affect your health. #cw-self-harm
>>| .i may need to make .a chitt clarification .about my .issues, .if there's going to be .anyone, so pity to become my moirail. but not this night. later perhaps. #gore #violence #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i may just cull myself. .i'm sorry. .i'm very sorry. #cw-self-harm
>>| .i may just go back to my server .and continue coding. but .it's just .easier to go .and throw .it .away. maybe just throw myself too. .uhhh. #violence #cw-self-harm
>>| no really. .i may just go .and hit myself .on the head .or something. #cw-self-harm
>>| .alright then. back to bandaging. sorry. .i keep .eyes .on feed. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i can't take care .of myself without missing .a single .important moment. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health .if kanaka .is really dead then .i... .i don't know... .it's .a bit sad, because he was silly person. who .i make fun .of .in the future?
>>| .i'm sorry. .uhhh. .i think chittr time .is .over for me for now. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| just banging my head .over the table just because my server .is not responding for new crap .i'm .uploading. .i will literally throw .over the wall .or something, but can't. #tech #cw-self-harm
>>| by the by. .i finished with .a shift, but now .it's raining. .i'm stuck .again .and .arms .are stinging. #gore #cw-self-harm
>>| crap. .i thought .i properly disinfectdd my wounds. that's bad. #gore #cw-self-harm
>>| why people .even pity me? .i'm doing good. blood loss? just get rest. wound .open? bandages .and stitches. getting drunk? pass .away by .itself. .i .am doing fine. #cw-self-harm #gore #substance
>>| despite the jaw. despite the forearms. despite the legs. despite the bleeding. .uhhh .i'm got sober. that .is strange. but .i'll be good, .i guess. #cw-self-harm #gore #substance
>>| .i don't know .about you but .i'm feeling great like .a feather right now .uhhh because like blood .and stuff .and .i have less weight so that .is neat. right? .or .i'm missing something. #cw-self-harm
>>| crap. my hands .in my blood. .uhhh. .i tried to get .if .off with my shirt, but now my shirt .is .in blood. .oh no. #cw-self-harm
>>| .i'm .out .of booze. that's sad. by the by, .ethanol .is good to sanitize your wounds. but .uhhh, .it's too .open. .always have spare bandages. stitches too. #cw-self-harm #substance #gore