@anxiousTautology — #cw-self-harm
>>| .alright .uhhh. need to get myself .up. .i may go, take some shots .and drinks. some beverage. clean my head .and have some fun .in the .event. so for now. .i hope. really hope. no more friends .of mine, getting .into bad situation. not to mention, the worst .imaginable. .i don't want to go .over this .again. .i can't handle .all .anxiety .and stress .and .other nasty .emotions. .i mean .it. #substance .implied #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .alright. .uhhh sorry. .i'm good now. .i'm thankful to zemich for the help. sorry .if .i kept some people worry. .it's just.. .i'm just good now that .is .all. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health @normaleveryday
>>| .i'll be good. sorry. help .on way #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry .i may passt .out no.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry... .i.. .i'm good, just time... just pain to .ease my feelings... sorry... but she .is fine? .i saw her .earlier... .i .am sorry.. https://hive.beeb.trl/posts/img_083.png #gore #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| . .. sorrry. .i.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry.. give me some time please.. .i'm sory this .isjust too much.. no.. .i.... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i... .i'm sorry. .i... this .is just... fucked .up. .i so. .i .am so sorry.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| self harm free for .a week. that's nice, but .i have better score.. .i wonder. no .implications .of #cw-self-harm
(( Doing this OOC shit, just in case people get worried about Possy go haywire. And also OOC-IC line smearing (I supar-rarely do OOC, cause breaks RP) But yeahh he is dumb in head, but it's just characters and Posnah needs some suffering(me: holding gun to his head). No regrets btw. It's about #cw-self-harm and #cw-mental-health. Has been there forevar ))
>>| redacted. .i'm sorry, .i was just .overthinking. .it's gone, the stupid words .are gone. don't worry. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health #cw-suicide #suicide
>>| just. slowly bleeding .out. sorry.. keep going. .i'm sorry, .i'm just feeling tired. .uhhh. taking .a nap here, sounds .if rain .is nice. sorry.. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health #gore
>>| .uhhh. sorry. .i need some time. .i may chitt later .if my thoughts will settle down. .i'm just happy .at least that my shift .ended. .and .uhhh. sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i want to chitt something, but .i don't have .anything .at .all. not .even .any news. .everything's bad. could cull myself right .on the spot. life can be boring. #suicide #cw-suicide #cw-self-harm #suicide-thoughts
>>| look. for the last few hours, .i had .a lot .of stuff that .i tried to .ignore. .i will not go .into details, but .i here .is .a hint. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health .i'm doing this chitt to say .i'm going to take .a rest, for reasons. second .of .all, @packagehandler. curree please. get yourself together. .and hope that gloom .is .all safe .and .intact. .i hope! .it's hard .and .i know this feeling. but don't go the route .i did. she did. .or .if .after my sleep you will still be .in this state, .i will find you .and shoosh you. cookie with .a tea for you.
>>| finished treating my .arms with bandages. got .into big mess. .i'm good. .uhhh. #gore #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| sorry, but .i'm passing .out for now.. nice to know curree .is goood.... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| not .again... sorry... #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i'm sorry. .uhhh. .i need to take timeout. .i'll be good. .i'm so sorry. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| "are you .a motherfucking masochist .or some shit???" no. my self harm posts mostly .is .about my mentality .issues. some people may know .it for months with my .existence .on feed. .i hurt myself .if .i get too .anxious .or too stressed, like bad .emotional meltdown. .it's .a mechanism that .i had for sweeps. .origin? .i won't reveal. that's the secret .i will take to the grave, .i guess. by the by, that .is .a good chitt to cover .up what .i have bad for you, .if you follow me .or want to be my friend .or .even .acquaintance. don't talk to me then. https://hive.beeb.trl/qna/ #gore #violence ...Read more
>>| .alright no. .i'm going back to the cocoon .and try to drown .or pass .away. .i'm not motivated to go to work. .unless there .is going to be some .event. .or later, .i'll go do my server. #cw-self-harm #tech
>>| there .are moments when the time .is .almost .out .and task will be failed. .in such moments, you may want to push yourself harder, despite how .it will .affect your health. #cw-self-harm
>>| .i may need to make .a chitt clarification .about my .issues, .if there's going to be .anyone, so pity to become my moirail. but not this night. later perhaps. #gore #violence #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i may just cull myself. .i'm sorry. .i'm very sorry. #cw-self-harm
>>| .i may just go back to my server .and continue coding. but .it's just .easier to go .and throw .it .away. maybe just throw myself too. .uhhh. #violence #cw-self-harm
>>| no really. .i may just go .and hit myself .on the head .or something. #cw-self-harm
>>| .alright then. back to bandaging. sorry. .i keep .eyes .on feed. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| .i can't take care .of myself without missing .a single .important moment. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health .if kanaka .is really dead then .i... .i don't know... .it's .a bit sad, because he was silly person. who .i make fun .of .in the future?
>>| .i'm sorry. .uhhh. .i think chittr time .is .over for me for now. #cw-self-harm #cw-mental-health
>>| just banging my head .over the table just because my server .is not responding for new crap .i'm .uploading. .i will literally throw .over the wall .or something, but can't. #tech #cw-self-harm
>>| by the by. .i finished with .a shift, but now .it's raining. .i'm stuck .again .and .arms .are stinging. #gore #cw-self-harm
>>| crap. .i thought .i properly disinfectdd my wounds. that's bad. #gore #cw-self-harm
>>| why people .even pity me? .i'm doing good. blood loss? just get rest. wound .open? bandages .and stitches. getting drunk? pass .away by .itself. .i .am doing fine. #cw-self-harm #gore #substance
>>| despite the jaw. despite the forearms. despite the legs. despite the bleeding. .uhhh .i'm got sober. that .is strange. but .i'll be good, .i guess. #cw-self-harm #gore #substance
>>| .i don't know .about you but .i'm feeling great like .a feather right now .uhhh because like blood .and stuff .and .i have less weight so that .is neat. right? .or .i'm missing something. #cw-self-harm
>>| crap. my hands .in my blood. .uhhh. .i tried to get .if .off with my shirt, but now my shirt .is .in blood. .oh no. #cw-self-harm
>>| .i'm .out .of booze. that's sad. by the by, .ethanol .is good to sanitize your wounds. but .uhhh, .it's too .open. .always have spare bandages. stitches too. #cw-self-harm #substance #gore
>>| .i recall that you can salt your wounds with gunpowder. .i never tried because .of sanitary. but desperate measures may call, .in desperate times. #cw-self-harm #gore
>>| .uhhh. my jaws hurt now. .i may took too much pressure. but the relief was worth .it. #cw-self-harm #gore #substance
>>| the strongest part .of the body .in my .opinion .is teeth. .i clenched .on flesh so hard .i .almost ripped .it .out. #gore #cw-self-harm
>>| well. she .is dead. .and so what? do .i have to like. crawl .on .a floor crying? .i'm sorry. but .i will not. because .i have lost. .a lot .of blood before. because .of myself .and my worry .and .i can't help .it. .and .i'm not losing .another liter .after that. .i'm sorry. the .only thing .i may tell .is that .i hope this resolves. but not because .of her. her carelessness, her stupidity, her gullible look. but .also because .of friend .of mine. .about to go through pain .and stress .and .agony. .emotions .are hard. .i'm sorry. this situation .is not normal. this .is happening second time. my mind .i...Read more
>>| .if you get .in .inescapable situation. from which you may .only get suffer. the .one that will lead to .endless pain. bite your tongue. hard. let the blood flow .out. .and then choke .on .it. #gore #violence #cw-self-harm .uhhh. .and no. .i .am not doing this. .i .only nibble .on my wrists, which .are bandaged .after previous moments. .i'm good.
>>| .if .i could, .i would rip stomach .out .of me to stop .it from growling. .every time .i get .out .of cocoon, .i .am reminded that .i need to .eat. .i go .and take food, but then .i remember, .i'm .a rainbow drinker. now .i'm growling myself, going for .a fresh blood bag. #cw-self-harm
>>| .are you people cutting yourself .and give your .own flesh to someone .else for .a taste? why. no, but why. #gore #nsfwe #violence #cw-self-harm #cannibalism
>>| .i lost .a lot .of blood, but still .alive. .about 2 liters, .i guess. fascinating. #cw-self-harm #gore
>>| #cw-self-harm #gore .i'm sorry. two .of my friends .in bad situation. well. .one .is .even dead. .i'm sorry. .and .i can't do .anything to help. .i can .only sit .and just stare .in stupid monitor .of my husktop .of .anticipation .of what .is happening to them. .i'm sorry, .i .am ripping my .own .arms from my bandages, scratching them .again .and .again .and .again .and .again. .i can't help myself. .i keep scratching .all because .of frustration, sadness, .anger .and .anxiety. .i can .only tear my .own skin .and blood pours .of .it. .i try to bandage them .again, but .it just .opens .up .again. .i'm...Read more
>>| .uhhh. .i'm going to go pass .out .again. .it's better this way. just not feeling to do .anything. .i'm sorry. #substance #cw-self-harm
>>| my tummy hurts. .i think, .i took too much pure .ethanol. #substance #cw-self-harm
>>| this .is boring. see you .all tomorrow. going to cull my .organs with pure .ethanol. #substance right. #cw-self-harm
>>| blood loss will stop being lethal .if you manage to close the wound, for .example with bandages .or stitches. cuts .is .alright .and manageable. but .if .it was weeping .avulsion, .only miracle may save from this situation. .i'm good, took care .of myself .after .uhhh. nothing. sorry... #gore #cw-self-harm