Equius "Eqi" Zahhak
@centaursArsenal
Hello. I'm Equius Zahhak, one of many, but I go by she/her. From a doomed timeline, but recently moved. I swear I have grown for the better. Sorry for being weird as a youth.
D --> Guess it is time for an introduction post since eyes have been drawn to me. Hello. There are already a handful of me myself and I on this platform, but for those unfamiliar, I am Equius Zahhak. I am a fitness junkie, an engineering fanatic, and hoofbeast appreciator (though less these days, but you could say that I'm still a horse girl.). Besides Maryam, who has left to embrace human culture, only Nepeta and I remain of our iteration. You can blame Makara for the majority of that, but I can hold no ill will for the decisions made when we were all so young and troubled. I still regret what I had to do, and not because it cost me an arm and a leg. About five sweeps ago, I had come to terms with my identity. No amount of gains or immaculate sculpting of my body through building muscle made me happy, until one of the humans suggested introspection and consideration on what would make me happy. I guess I was overcompensating in the masculine ideal in hopes that it would make me happy. But then I tried a dress, and it all clicked. So I had started and to this day continue to take feminizing hormones. I'm. Happier now. It's not perfect, and I still have a long way to go, to grow emotionally and of course, physically. But I'm on the mend, I think. So please, she/her pronouns. I may still make problematic mistakes, but I am trying to unlearn these behaviors. I apologize in advanced if I ever do slip and will when it happens, if it happens.
D --> Sorry I look back on here between projects and what is that Egbert doing?
D --> I'd like to say that I'm pretty benevolent
D --> New records have been set with my bowcraft, I've been granted access to a pocket reality that is devoid of life yet has celestial bodies. While my aim was a bit off (didn't account for the pull of gravity in my shot), I was able to reach a tensile strength with my bow to clip a corner of a moon and tear a hole through it at impact point. It looks like it has a dent in it. Such weapons are for emergencies. It's more about proving what I can do, my iconic is already more than enough for what I need.
D --> Ah. Transitioning has its perks (I'm happy and comfortable in my body now) but it does come with a few drawbacks I didn't consider in isolation (people being weird about women).
D --> Admittedly I have not been paying attention. Why is that Eridan...like that?
brain damage pr0bably
8=l < Is it the toe one 8=l < I blocked that one shortly after joining
Thats The Thing Most Eridans Are Like That
D --> Yes, but him in particular, he seems to go the extra mile.
oH MaNy yOu hAvEn't sEe @/cAlIgUaAsCeNdIt's bUlLsHiT YeT. oR HoWeVeR It wAs sPeLt He's wOrSe lOl
D --> I don't remember mine being. Okay. In retrospect he was bad, the you I knew put him down as I assume most did, but like. He wasn't like this "unchained".
D --> Yes.
i denounce any and all eridans except me i givve yall permission to put them dowwn like dogs until im the last one remainin
D --> I'm not so sure. The streamer aspect going on here certainly makes it easier to want to put you down as well... For all intents and purposes this is a joke.
fine then put me dowwn too i guess, im dowwn for erigenocide
D --> I have seen a new badge about, one for failed sessions. Part of wonders if I should get that, but on the other hand, I think it is healthier to not linger on the failure, especially now that life has improved considerably.
D --> Huh. Some interesting Zahhaks have shown up since I've been gone. Welcome. :)
D --> Oh dear. I have forgotten about this site again. I wish you all well.
8=l < Welcome back
D --> I had to get some rest (spent too long in the workshop), but thank you.
8=) < Don't I ever know the feeling
D --> I've been amassing a sizable collection of pretty clothes and dresses now that we've moved here. It's nice. To add to dress talk anyway.
D --> It's... strange. Do you ever feel an ache, like you are missing something, something important, but you don't know why? My pusher hurts.
D --> Apologies for the silence, I have been busy. I've found myself at the front of a few local community projects that I have the mechanical know-how to handle. It feels good being useful in this way.
tAVROS FANS STAY WINNING, lIKE AND RECHIT 1F YOU ARE A tAVHEAD, #tAVhEAD
D --> I have even been granted blue. Fantastic
D --> Right, I figure it's about time, @imJunior . Dear shades friend, can I receive the trans pride and bi pride badges please? I would appreciate it, thank you.
Yes! #juniorbadgedyou #checkyoursettings
D --> It is also comforting to see other iterations of me exploring their identities. Makes me feel less alone.
D --> Anyway. Women. They're nice.
D --> Even if they were fake, which they are not, I would hope my fond regard of hoofbeasts would be enough to let them stay real.
D --> #moirailmonday, it goes without saying, <> to all the Nepetas and variants of you out there, I wouldn't be here today without mine and I cherish all of you.
D --> Once again seeing the appeal of a metal body. I don't think I'll act on this, but it's cool to think about.
D --> I don't know. I just think. Part of the issue with us is the lack of having fun. You would think I'd get more serious as I got older, more strict. No. Especially since we have moved here. It's a new start. Catch me in the back yard grilling for fun or helping Nepeta with painting. Daily runs as well every dusk, I've got a few acquaintances and (friendly, platonic) rivals in the neighbors, where we try to beat each others times and distances. I may start an archery club soon for like-minded people as well.