

The Do+lo+ro+sa
@doloRosa
Mo+ve alo+ng no+w. [ Mid-rebellion Dolorosa. Feisty, paranoid, and not as careful as she should be. Not connected to any other ancestor timelines currently. ]

It appears as tho+ugh the Imperial rumo+ur mill co+ntinues to+ spin falseho+o+ds abo+ut me and mine. I will be very clear. I am alive. My so+n is alive. We are alive. We will co+ntinue to+ fight this fight with each breath we take. We will never back do+wn. They want yo+u ho+peless, disheartened and afraid. They want yo+u to+ shake in the shado+w o+f their suppo+sed strength. They want yo+u to+ believe they can quash such a public threat to+ their hierarchy. If we were to+ be culled, that is no+t the end fo+r the rebellio+n. Fo+llo+w in o+ur fro+ndsteps. Lo+o+k o+ut fo+r yo+ur fello+w tro+ll. Co+ntinue the fight.
Your knuckles are bloodied and you're exhausted? That's too bad, there's still work to be done. The good news is that you rarely have to do it alone.

In an effo+rt to+ distract my pan fro+m o+verwro+ught anxieties, I have a humble request. May yo+u all share so+me lo+w-stakes go+ssip with me? Since leaving the caverns, the pettiness has been replaced with ho+rro+r. I must admit, awful as the pettiness was (amo+ngst o+ther issues), I do+ miss the seco+nd-fro+nd tellings. And casting judgement.

[[ OTL. Misreading who someone in the comments is replying to. My forever burden. ]]

Can't even threaten co+ldblo+o+ds witho+ut them taking it as a pitchflirt. I am go+ing to+ kill yo+u with my sawblade.

If yo+u lo+ved yo+ur mo+ther, yo+u wo+uld give her a bo+uquet o+f carcino+genic sticks.

Packs o+f children scamper thro+ugh the streets, acting as lo+o+ko+ut and guard as needed. As they age and are dragged into+ the wo+rld o+f the gro+wn, they are made to+ distrust tho+se who+ o+nce kept them alive. We kno+w we are stro+nger to+gether when we are small. Who+ makes us fo+rget this as we age?

I feel like a hypo+crite, o+ften, when I speak o+f caring fo+r o+ne's neighbo+ur. It is essential fo+r us to+ fo+rm these bo+nds. And yet, I canno+t help but clo+se o+ff. I will help where I can, o+f co+urse. But to+ be o+pen is to+ be vulnerable. And I am no+t yet brave eno+ugh to+ o+verco+me that fear.

Even when things feel bleak, there are mo+ments that shine thro+ugh. I am blessed to+ have my clade, it is true. Do+ no+t be fo+o+led by the idea that yo+u are destined to+ be alo+ne. Yo+ur allies, yo+ur friends, yo+ur lo+ved o+nes: they are o+ut there. Yo+u must find them first.

I have a general understanding that this place co+ntains many multiples o+f many peo+ple. But I canno+t say that kno+wing that co+unteracts any stro+ng feelings I may have to+wards individuals who+ also+ exist within my o+wn timeline. I think that do+g sho+uld kill her. #vaguepo+st #o+rno+t

No+t o+nly is Susann deeply unpleasant and po+sitively vile, but her grublo+af has the same texture as clay. Pick a struggle, as the kids say.

The mytho+s o+f being an island to+ yo+urself is a sickness they give to+ yo+u. Yo+ur strength is in yo+ur bo+nds, no+t in a lack o+f them. Do+ no+t allo+w the delusio+n o+f singularity to+ take away yo+ur perso+nho+o+d.

Being asked why o+ne wo+uld ever leave the co+mfo+rt o+f the caverns feels much like so+meo+ne questio+ning why a chained barkbeast wo+uld ever strain against its chain.

I have been info+rmed "Jade ho+ur" is no+t abo+ut jadeblo+o+ds. My apo+lo+gies fo+r no+t understanding. Embarrassing to+ no+t understand that it was a name. Despite everything, it is to+o+ easy to+ fall back into+ o+ur cultural assumptio+ns. I do+ no+t take back my previo+us statement, but no+w instead apply it with a deliberate o+penness. May yo+u shine. #jadeho+ur.

I am hearing abo+ut "Jade ho+ur". I wo+uld like to+ extend a grabpo+d to+ the Jades o+ut there. Yo+u can be who+ yo+u wish to+ be. Do+ no+t allo+w yo+urself to+ be stifled. #jadeho+ur

My co+ulro+pho+bia is acting up.

My thinkpan blesses me with a deep, radiating migraine each time ano+ther midblo+o+d claims their co+ldblo+o+ded superio+r canno+t be hemo+ist because THEY get treated nicely. Is the co+ldblo+o+d in the hive with us? Why do+ yo+u co+ntinue to+ deepchute their bo+o+ts witho+ut their presence?

I am no+t the speaker. I will no+t say my respo+nses will be the clearest o+r mo+st affirming. Were the peo+ple to+ ask, tho+ugh, I am willing to+ answer.

A tensio+n builds and races up the vertebral po+sture co+lumn. The desire is to+ explo+de befo+re it do+es. My so+n insists I instead breathe steadily and name things I can see. What ever.

Imagine the go+o+d that co+uld co+me to+ Alternia if its rulers spent time actually caring fo+r the peo+ple instead o+f hating my chitts. #no+tso+vague

Remember that it is no+t o+ur jo+b to+ change every individual who+ seeks to+ hurt us. To+o+ much time and effo+rt has already been po+ured into+ that black ho+le. Yo+u can direct the po+wer o+f lo+ve to+ yo+ur co+mmunity first.










