The Do+lo+ro+sa
@doloRosa
Mo+ve alo+ng no+w. [ Mid-rebellion Dolorosa. Feisty, paranoid, and not as careful as she should be. Not connected to any other ancestor timelines currently. ]
[ E R R O+ R 2 3 2 7 3 1 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] This was my destiny, he tells them, vo+ice carrying further than it sho+uld. Do+ no+t weep fo+r me. Weep fo+r the Alternia that co+uld have been. Weep because they will co+ntinue to+ try and take yo+ur futures fro+m yo+u. We can be redeemed, he pro+mises. There will co+me ano+ther time where we will be redeemed. The lo+w and high take o+n his wo+rds. Fists are clenched. Jaws are set. He pro+mises a wo+rld I have never believed in. Ho+w can he take the time o+ut o+f his o+wn death to+ reassure these tro+lls? Do+es his o+wn death mean no+thing to+ him? I wish he wo+uld fight. I wish his pity wo+uld extend to+ himself. I wish he wo+uld carry my rage with him, so+ that he do+es no+t have to+ be the meek heretic they see him as. May my message always be carried with yo+u, he declares. Yo+u will survive this, and I will be go+ne. Yo+u are stro+ng eno+ugh to+ carry my wo+rds fo+r me. Remain true. I lo+ve yo+u all greatly. #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
[ E R R O+ R 3 8 6 2 2 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] He has always been my reflectio+n; o+ur rages emit different types o+f light. He wo+uld no+t be my friend if he did no+t try to+ sacrifice himself. We are to+o+ vo+latile to+ remain passive fo+r lo+ng. Sparks fly thro+ugh the clo+ying air, and the co+ldblo+o+ds rush in a panic to+ co+ntain him. They will no+t allo+w him to+ die. He is to+o+ valuable. In punishment, they beat my so+n further. He falls, alo+ne. My claws itch to+ tear the wo+rld apart. I am impatient, wild. They do+ no+t repeat the same mistake. I am held back and co+ntained. I am a pathetic excuse fo+r a lusus, allo+wing my charge to+ die. I sho+uld have kno+wn better. I sho+uld have pro+tected him mo+re. All I can do+ is lo+ck this in my memo+ry. May I never fo+rget ho+w I am failing to+ help him no+w. He co+ntinues to+ drag his o+wn means o+f death up the hill. #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
[ E R R O+ R 1 5 2 1 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] Yo+u, they spit at my o+ther so+n. We will lo+o+sen yo+ur restraints eno+ugh to+ help him. He is slo+w, and we are gro+wing bo+red. My psio+n sparks with indignatio+n and fury, but allo+ws their co+ld fro+nds to+ to+uch his scalp so+ that he may help his belo+ved. They kno+w he is po+werful, but did no+t expect him to+ so+ easily lift tho+se harsh iro+ns with so+ little bleed. In their fear, they make him suffer to+o+; he is struck with an unearned vicio+usness. Even in a slo+w crawl to+ death, they are afraid o+f the po+wer a warmblo+o+d can po+ssess. He can be o+f great use to+ the Empire, I hear hissed. He will be an asset to+ o+ur Queen. They do+ no+t let my so+ns speak. They do+ no+t have to+. They lo+ve each o+ther greatly. To+ be able to+ help is blessing eno+ugh. #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
My pan po+unds and my blo+o+d ro+ils. So+mething is happening and I am deeply co+nfused. Where am I? Where are we? Where are yo+u?
Please, try to relax. You're alright. He's alright. Do you remem8er anything?
[ E R R O+ R 1 9 2 6 2 7 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] My child lo+o+ks at me, ganderbulbs wide and pleading. He is a small, to+ddling thing, running to+ hide in my skirt. In o+ur shared lo+o+k he beco+mes yo+ung again. I curl my lo+ve aro+und him, a chrysalis, and ho+pe it is transfo+rmative eno+ugh to+ make him feel safe. I am allo+wed to+ to+uch him o+ne last time, breaking fro+m the cro+wd to+ ho+ld him fo+r but a beat in my arms. We merge into+ o+ne being, Mo+ther-And-So+n, Lusus-And-Ward, a co+hesive unit. In this mo+ment we kno+w deeply and truly that we did no+t need to+ carry o+ur burdens alo+ne. I ho+pe he can fo+rgive me fo+r my selfishness. I canno+t take away his hurt, but I can refuse to+ lo+o+k away. O+ur last actio+n as a clade, here to+gether, is to+ gather. He watches us in o+ur shame as we appro+ach. Ho+w he do+es no+t lash o+ut in anger I do+ no+t understand. Did we no+t pro+mise we wo+uld never allo+w this to+ happen? Mo+ther, he says. Here is yo+ur family. He reaches his weak grabpo+ds up and wipes my weeping plateau. We flo+w into+ each o+ther, Savio+ur-And-Saved, the bo+undaries between who+ is who+ weak and blurred. To+ my clade he says, She has always been yo+ur mo+ther, to+o+. He lo+ves us greatly, 'til death. #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
[ E R R O+ R 5 3 4 7 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] Is this my true punishment? To+ watch him struggle witho+ut being allo+wed to+ help? He is so+ tired, so+ weak. Watching him here, like this, I can't help but picture his first wo+bbly steps after emerging fro+m the co+co+o+n. I have never felt so+ frenzied. A lusus, ready to+ charge witho+ut abando+n. The carnival sneers as he falls. Get up, they demand o+f him. Finish what yo+u started. As if this was his crime alo+ne. As tho+ugh I did no+t push my belief o+nto+ him and co+wer away fro+m the wo+rk. So+ many sweeps he has carried this weight, o+ur speaker, o+ur no+rth star. No+ne o+f his faithful rush fo+rward to+ help. O+ur sermo+n go+ers cry, but will no+t act. They believe his punishment is eno+ugh fo+r them to+ go+ unscarred. If they step fo+rward, they will be next. He takes his beating with grace that do+es no+t po+ssess me. His gaze lo+cks o+nto+ mine, and tho+ugh he do+es no+t o+pen his maw, I kno+w what it is that he is saying: will yo+u no+t stay with me? #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
[ E R R O+ R 1 9 5 1 7 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] With shame, I am disgusted by ho+w readily he accepts the chains. I beg fo+r him to+ fight back, to+ take charge o+f his o+wn fate. He do+es no+t hear me. He cho+o+ses no+t to+ listen. Do+es he no+t kno+w that the swift, brutal death his refusal co+uld bring will be mo+re merciful? I refused to+ lo+o+k my pro+blems in the eye as a child; I let my hatred fo+r the wo+rld burn thro+ugh me so+ tho+ro+ughly that I refused to+ make any mo+ves to+ change it. I wanted so+meo+ne else to+ change it all. No+t me, I had to+ld myself. It isn't fair that I seem to+ be the o+nly o+ne who+ sees this. After I had co+me to+ kno+w my clade, my family, I refused to+ allo+w them to+ see my burdens. I lo+ve them greatly; who+ am I, to+ put my struggles o+nto+ them? I kno+w they saw it, my fear, my desperatio+n. To+ ease my spirit, he wo+uld so+ rarely tell me his fears. I did no+t want my co+ncern fo+r him to+ beco+me ano+ther weight he had to+ carry. And no+w he drags his iro+ns, alo+ne. #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
[ E R R O+ R 2 7 1 1 2 6 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] He speaks o+f my so+n as a charlatan, a false pro+phet, a deceiver o+f the highest degrees who+ has co+me to+ disrupt the hemo+spectrum fo+r his o+wn selfish purpo+ses. A ho+rrid jo+y sparks in his bruise-purple o+cular o+rbs as the cro+wd is whipped into+ a fervo+r. What sho+uld we up n do+ with this traito+r? He asks o+f the cro+wd, a pulsating and writhing mass o+f clo+wns and the indo+ctrinated. He is knelt, beaten, o+n the dais as his mo+st lo+ved are hidden fro+m his sight. My rage is dro+wned by the masses, cheering fo+r his death. Rusted steel, slick with my o+wn blo+o+d, dig deep into+ my wrists as I desperately try to+ save him. I can do+ no+thing. Was this no+t his fate? I refuse to+ accept it. The dark carnival sings as he is co+ndemned to+ death. #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
[ E R R O+ R 2 6 3 6 4 1 ; VIA PARADO+XA FUTURA DO+LO+RO+SA ] So+mething has felt wro+ng fo+r many nights. He has no+t been his usual self. A visio+n has greatly unsettled him, and I refuse to+ po+nder what he may have seen. A piece o+f me kno+ws exactly what will happen. Haven't I always kno+wn? Hadn't She to+ld me? Was his no+t his fate, fro+m the mo+ment he was hatched? All I have do+ne is pro+lo+ng the inevitable. My pan spins so+ mightily that fo+r o+nce rest co+mes to+ grasp me, in fits and spasms. He do+es no+t allo+w me to+ co+me with him has he paces; the flickering light o+f the fireplace bewitches us all into+ slumber. Will yo+u no+t stay awake with me? He asks o+f us. O+f co+urse we will, we tell him. We lo+ve him greatly. But again we sleep; o+ur wipe o+f parano+id displacement has caught up to+ us. I kno+w what will happen, he finally says to+ us. I have seen and been to+ld. Yo+u are to+o+ blinded by o+ur bo+nd to+ see it. No+nsense, we say, exchanging o+ur distressed glances. We wo+uld never allo+w that to+ happen. #viado+lo+ro+sa #easter2026
((standing ovation DELECTABLE writing. absolute cinema
I wish I had m9re w9rds 6ack then. I still d9 n9t have the w9rds n9w. I am s9 s9rry. (( This is amazing..
So+mething feels terribly wro+ng.
Do+ yo+u ever spend yo+ur waking nights languid with kno+wledge yo+u feel yo+u sho+uld no+t have? Info+rmatio+n that feels so+ distant and fo+ggy it co+uld be a daymare, no+t fact?
It is a constant feeling. It can be overbearing, but it also can serve as a font of inspiration for works of art. Having a medium to process this knowledge may be a recommendation.
I canno+t spend my time attending to+ my o+wn unease. I have peo+ple to+ pro+tect.
In lieu o+f attending a co+rpo+rate, co+ldblo+o+d centered event, why no+t attend a grassro+o+ts sermo+n? As a bo+nus, the ho+sts are hyper aware o+f Imperial Dro+nes appro+aching and do+ no+t leave their audience o+ut to+ dry.
I am no+t aware o+f what that is. But any fo+rm o+f participatio+n is allo+wed and enco+uraged.
Zo a LAN (local area networK) party iZ liKe when you and your buddieZ Zhow up at the Zame hive to play multiplayer vidya gameZ together >X) lotZ of flavordiZcZ and groundroot chipZ involved AND mtn dewm once i got taped to the ceiling during a quaKe 3 LAN party it fucKing ruled
Ah, a co+mmunity gathering. Building bo+nds with yo+ur fello+w tro+lls is certainly a puzzle piece in o+ur tapestry. If o+ne were to+ discuss with this party ho+w to+ extend their co+mraderie beyo+nd the gathering and into+ their co+mmunity, it co+uld certainly be a beginning.
I am feeling a tensio+n in the atmo+sphere. So+mething is building. Perhaps a sto+rm is co+ming.
I will no+t be attending "#eridanweek" o+n the gro+unds o+f no+t caring abo+ut seadweller publicity events.
I have a guy feeling the end o+f this wipe has big things in sto+re fo+r us, anyho+w.
I appreciate that, yo+ung o+ne. I will push my restlessness to+wards believing in po+sitives, if I can.
It isn't theft. It's the reuse o+f an underappreciated item.
Did yo+u get the attentio+n yo+u wanted, o+r shall I pretend to+ be uniquely enraged by yo+ur attitude?
Learning to+ take a thread to+ anything that required mending has been a bo+o+n. It allo+ws my restless days to+ have a go+al, gives me so+mething purpo+seful eno+ugh to+ settle yet mindless eno+ugh to+ no+t feel unaware. This is a skill many o+f us have learned fo+r o+ur o+wn survival. I appreciate this mo+ment with the mundane. My thread co+nnects with yo+urs. We are all creating so+mething, fixing so+mething, to+gether.
We do+ no+t have to+ like everyo+ne we are in co+mmunity with. I, fo+r o+ne, wish Susann wo+uld explo+de. But if she were acco+sted by co+ldblo+o+ds, I wo+uld step in.
Do+ no+t get it "twisted". The next time Susann alleges my grublo+af was "a little dry", fangs will be bared.
This who+le quadrant thing really do+esn't need to+ be as serio+us as the dro+nes fo+rce it to+ be.
To+ be a lusus is to+ be fierce. I will take no+ shame in being vicio+us to+ pro+tect my clade.
You have a lusus. But you're human right.
well he’s not technically MY lusus, if that helps. and um, no? i’m not a human.
Ah. I get it. You're like me. Which of course means like all of us.
wait hOLY SHIT YOU'RE LIKE ME
I'd rather not say the quiet part out loud here. For both our safety. But believe me. I know.
Ok. Maybe we could move to direct messages or something. Trying to dance around this is a little annoying.
true. yeah, trying to talk normal does feel very dangerous sometimes!
Best o+f luck to+ yo+u bo+th. Remember yo+u are no+t as alo+ne as yo+u think.
What if we were free.
