@eclecticEngineer — #vent
[BEGIN MESSAGE] [EMOTION: ann0yance. fruztrati0n.] 0ne 0f tthe newer ttechnicianz waz zh0cked tt0 find 0ne 0f tthe ttabz i had 0pen waz #nzfw c0ntent. i kn0w i am n0t a he|m tthat iz 0ften f0und indu|ging in tthiz c0ntent. but tthat d0ez n0t mean i never d0. her reaz0ning f0r tthe |eve| 0f zurprize waz. [qu0te] "i tth0ught y0ur zituati0n meant y0u d0nt enj0y activitiez |ike tthiz" [end qu0te] inaccurate. and a p00r azzumpti0n 0n her part. SIGH. i zwear tthey f0rget i am a ttr0|| tt00. #vent [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] 0ne 0f tthe w0rzt tthingz ab0ut tthiz iz tthat i can n0 10nger dezign and bui1d tthingz. yez tthere are tthe materia1 printerz but it iz n0t tthe zame. i mizz w0rking 0n machinez. #vent [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] ztupid fucking zt0rm making it hard tt0 1and and i am g0ing tt0 be f0rced 0ff1ine after tthiz. SIGH #vent [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] #ventt #zuggeztive the w0rztt partt 0f being he1med iz the 1ack 0f being ab1e t0 t0uch. i fee1 1ike i zh0u1d n0tt have been z0 eager t0 h01d 0therz during my time 0ff becauze then i w0u1d n0tt mizz itt az much. [END MESSAGE]
a 1itt1e intr0zpecti0n i zupp0ze. the current me iz bui1t fr0m the zcrapz 0f mem0riez fr0m bef0re my firzt he1m. h0wever, thiz me a1z0 a1wayz had the reztraining b01t. the n0dez that were buried in my zpine and the 1itt1e c0de barrierz they puzhed int0 my thinkpan. it iz 1ike a 1itt1e v0ice in the back 0f my mind that zcreamz when i am d0ing z0mething wr0ng and i need t0 make them zt0p zcreaming at me. z0. wh0 am i with0ut th0ze? #vent #b0dyh0rr0r
i mizz her. the me that i waz. i w0nder if zhe w0u1d agree with my acti0nz. i w0nder if zhe w0u1d be zcared. w0u1d zhe mizz her 01d quadz m0re? w0u1d zhe keep g0ing? i rebui1t myze1f fr0m her. but. maybe i zh0u1d n0t have. #vent