Marcie Cooper
@existentialRocker
human. blind. trying my best here boss. she/they. guitarist and lead singer for the punk band Carrion Crow
And her. I hate that she gets to be happy. I hate that she has people to love. I hate that I can't do anything to push her one way or the other. I hate that she's out of my grasp. She has no narrative. She has no tethers. I want to strangle her but I don't want to hurt her any more than I have. I miss him even years later and I hate that she replaced him.
Now.. what bullshit has she gotten into now. Dumb bitch is going to get hurt again. #dashwatching #vagueposting
Hm. So. I didn't know my situation was as it were till it smacked me in the face today. I guess I'm an ultimate self? That's what the collapsing of 100+ alternate selves upon myself is. I don't know what to do with this information. Or what that means for the poor girl Marleah, the hero version of myself. She's the only other me left.
Wait. Fuck. It's been a week. Either way. Uh. Wound up getting hit in the head hard enough to knock me out cold. Woke up in a hospital as a Jane Doe. Kinda just. Walked out before they could ask questions. #violence
Shiiiit dude, sorry for going quiet. Been a hellish few days. Still kicking though. May always will be.
hm. is tonight clubbing night. the band's show was last night, maybe i deserve some fun..
X Want some molly to make it more fun? #substance x
uhhhh. you know. maybe, accepting space drugs is a baaad idea. but if it kills me, i'll just get better anyway, sure, why not, ma'am. #substance
X There are many people on here who can and would testify that I have safe and quality drugs, anyway dm me #substance x
see this is why it was a good thing all but one of my variants were killed, no mar hour. it'd be a lot of bullshit
I'm sorry I lost the plot a little bit folks. I was supposed to be on this platform as a normal happy-go-lucky band lead. The band lead part is true. Not so much the rest
Anyway. I'm feeling better, dying a few times over aside. What a yearning night will do to you I guess. Maybe that makes up for my fuck up at least
271 deaths. 16 in one night may be a personal record. Uh. I decided to get into fights across the world last night. I managed to do some real work, helping people who needed it it just uh. Yeah I was really stretching what an acceptable death revival counted as. Oh well
271 people died?? I ffeel like I'd hear about that
Oh uh. That's my own personal death counter. I've died that many times over the last 10ish years, not counting my alts' deaths. Then we'd be talking like. At least a thousand
Okay so. Due to bullshit I'm not getting into, me and my friends all can't really stay dead unless we die in specific ways, and we get resurrected. It's. Bullshit but you learn to live with it. They're cowards about it, I use it to its fullest. Get a little reckless with it get a bit ballsy.
For you, maybe. Look, I wish it were impossible, but me and my crew did some foolish shit back in the day. Hopefully you'll never have to worry about it.
270(?) and a drunken bender later. Shit. I guess it is that day. Yeah, my mom is cool. I could do to be a better kid but. She's cool.
266. Getting sloppy. Haven't died this much in the last six years.
Usually fuckers aren't playing to kill either.
Fuck that didn't even last that long. Fuck. What bullshit.
Well even alien chicks from the warrior aliens are shaming me for my mistakes. Guess tonight's a go get suited up and do something stupid night.
I've got nothin to confess and if I did I'd be very direct about it.
I think the worst part of not being able to see for me is missing out on all the hotties
I kinda wish Carrion Crow was actually recognized for our music and like. Not just "the gimmick band with the blind lead". Or that's what several magazines and sites list us as.
Like apparently I'm considered the gimmick. It sucks. Like, shit, sorry guys my actual fuckin condition hasn't left me rotting with my family