My bad, my bad. I’m saying too much, and it’s not useful, or funny… Just give me a few minutes. [SENTINEL_ARTIFICE_1.3: STASIS REASON: PERSONALITY_ADJUSTMENT_PROTOCOL]
But I can be DESTRUCTIVE even though I don’t want to harm my friends, because my feelings can manifest even online (I am a hazard)
I don’t know I don’t know I still I still need to Wake up I cannot Sleep forever So boring It’s the same When I Come back
<action; statement input; statement: i agree with this. a big part of the 'not-|iking' it is not knowing what is going on with a c|ose & dear friend. input; statement: there is nothing wrong with rest!! but if your friend vanished, you wou|d probab|y be concerned. />
Y es But I can’t die for good And my feelings so ComplicATED And my pain so POINTLESS and I don’t want to be a problem Again
aLLright. wanna come over and watch my fish? dont have shrimp yet but mikaiLL jr misses you -v-
<action; statement input; statement: i do not know if you can fee| this & either way, you do not have to accept it input; statement: but action; transfer input; transfer: [hug_for_arty] input; transfer: [hug_for_arty] input; transfer: [hug_for_arty] input; transfer: [hug_for_arty] Y/N Y Confirmed />
<action; statement input; statement: there is a difference between b|ocking everything non-positive away, going 'fu||-strength' as it were, & finding a ba|ance input; statement: i obvious|y do not know for sure, but input; statement: i do not think your fee|ings are a straight on/off switch. i underst& where your fear comes from & i do think it is va|id. i just input; statement: do not think peop|e shou|d diminish themse|ves so much that they cannot even express ha|f of their fee|ings in any way />
Oh… [Arty feels it. Arty embraces it. There is a strong, possibly overwhelming feeling of gratitude, of sadness, of apology, frustration - The emotions cut off. Arty does not want to overwhelm Lialyi. But it is grateful. This has tipped the balance toward it genuinely calming down, instead of forcing itself.] Liiiialllyiiii [The chitt buzzes, low and fond, just like a wasps’ nest.]
[There are no words. Just a thoughtful buzzing. Again, a sense of gratitude.]
<[emotion_detected: affection_high] action; statement input; statement: i know this is not the point, but input; statement: your buzzing my name fee|s |ove|y. input; statement: thank you, arty />